Musical Life of Hushgirl

and they say that a hero can save us..

2012-02-20T22:38:00.003+08:00

there is a period in girl's monthly cycle that she can be super emotional, super sensitive and super hot.
its really tough to juggle with all those. its depressing.
and she will very very much likely to think
am i disgustingly fat?
is he hates me now?
is he goin to leave me?
omg ill die alone
i am so fat
bla bla bla

it even crappy that she will have no mood for lyke everything. yea.

and yup, thats my day. it started with gloomy morning. i was walking in drizzle of rain. i did my coding heartlessly. i talked with people who fancied me but i dont fancy them. and its karma, i tried to make a conversation with my man cuz believe me, we aint talking that much anymore. and he didnt reply. up to now.

sometimes i think, he has other girl.

my emo talking.

hmm.. sigh.
So I finished my work like 6pm. Couldnt take it anymore.

get home. talked to people who fancy me. its like watering a dying beautiful flower plant.
what am i talking now?

the thing is, its such a crap day. and the sister still living on her own in her super tiny room and my dad is fever, i talked to him on the phone which I seldom did and now i feel like crying cuz I miss my family so much and my man. its really a crappy day and ill end my day with this song cuz its a really crappy song and it makes me cry.

xoxo,
Amylia

Lovers.Fedora.Birthday

2012-02-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

I never celebrated Valentine's. I mean, never had those formal flowers and dinner and chocs and such. The most Ive done was wishing and yep, when I was in my teen, I would exchange Valentine's with my cousin. We were pretty pathetic dont we?

So this year, my man was back from up north and he bought me a Cadbury bar. I assumed that as my Valentine's chocs keke still pretty pathetic, eh? hahah kasik can la okay.

Since last year, he started the tradition of wishing the v-day thing, so I was waited for his wish this year. I waited the whole 13th and nothing ( cuz last year was on 13th -- before he forget, he said ). I went to bed earlier, I didnt finish my grammy, I wanna be ready in bed when he would wish. And yes, 12++ he did. I smiled to sleep.

Madness.

So, that was just it. No plan for eat in or eat out or whatsoever. I planned for a quiet dinner at home, watching movie and eating the chocs. However, around 5++ I asked Zai if she wanna get cuppa, so I went to KLCC - had my espression with Garret's caramelized macadamia n popcorns.

Anuther madness.

Before we got back, I told Zai that I would wanna go to Roxy to check out the fedora Id always wanted to buy, and since its Valentine's I thought of, I wanna buy something for myself. Thot of to wait for my birthday -- but afraid the hat will be off season.

We never know. So Zai was my stylist. Its cool that we always agreed on the same thing, even though this one, makes me chubby a bit. I guess, my face sgt lebar now. Zai said, I looked like those chubby kindergarten girls. Sangat la bagus.

When I got home, I snapped a pic -- but I was so comot, I needed to edit thee pic a bit. Tutie said, I looked like 17. Vain much?

edited in Picnik with a little twist of V-day version

see, Fedora and baju kurung. Sgt Amy.

So this morning I wished Brandon Boyd for his birthday on my twitter and found out the special EP from Incubus for Valentines. So I sent 2 for both my man and my lady. The lady was pretty fine cuz she loves Incubus. But the man? I dont even know if he listen to Incubus, but I know he got pretty good taste in music and he would listen to them ( for me :P )

The EP has 4 live version song, all my fave except I Miss You. I never like this song, if I put on the CD I would skip this one. However, today when I listened to it, I thought of my man - hmmm.. yeah.

I hope he will lyke it :)

Okay back to Brandon Boyd's birthday.

so, ....?

Happy Birthday Mr Brandon Boyd. I love you much much

I see big blue whale and its.... I wanna sleepx

xoxo
xAmyx

Spread Love

2012-02-14T12:32:00.001+08:00

Malam bulan di pagar bintang
Makin indah jika di pandang
Bagai gadis beri senyuman
Pada bujang idaman

Relai kasih ingin di manja
Dengan cumbuan mesra
Untuk penglipurlara
Penawar dek asmara
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/p/p_ramlee_saloma/malam_bulan_di_pagar_bintang.html ]
Malam bulan di pagar bintang
Tambah seri cuaca malam
Murni sungguh ciptaan Tuhan
Bulan bintang lampu alam

Andai kata bintang menyepi
Bulan tidak berseri
Malam menjadi sunyi
Tidak berseri lagi

lyrics from lyricsmode

Happy Lovers Day

xoxo - Amylia

May the Force be with You

2012-02-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

I was super excited when I heard about the Star Wars ep 1 in cinema again, now in 3d. I am a 3d movie virgin, and i was like kinda hope to watch it with my man. On a v-day.. it would be perfect. But then, now .. hmm its okay Amy, at least ure goin to watch it with your ladies.

yeah i am thankful =)

goin now!. yay.

love,
Me.

The Bridges of Madison County

2012-02-09T03:52:00.001+08:00

I went to bed earlier than usual tonite, had a little bit of trouble sleeping but I managed to sleep with Radiohead's Paranoid Android. Which always successfully sent me to somewhere I feel belong.

Around 2 am, woke up and thought I just couldn't continue my sleep.

Instead of turning on my lappie and surf for something interesting, I went off the bed and walked to the bathroom. Later to the kitchen, made myself a glass of ribena. Its funny that I never made a perfect one for myself, its always too sweet or too little of the ribena syrup. I wonder how could I always made a perfect glass for my man every time he asked for one.

So, I sat on the red couch. Turned on the telly, it was some movies on HBO and Fox. FOX has this whimpy kid diary kinda thing. Watched that, but HBO had this movie by Clint Eastwood and my fave actress, Meryl Streep. So I stayed tune to HBO. It was like 15 mins passed the premiere. I checked out the movie synopsis and it sounded interesting.

So I managed to finish the whole movie, cried a little. I might cry more if I watched it on the night before. Yea. But it seems like love could come to our life like once in a lifetime, and we might lose it cuz we are incapable of leaving other things behind.

The movie was about a love struck for the right person at the wrong time. She had all things a woman ever wanted. A home, a husband, children and a marriage. She might be lonely at times, but things were normal. A routine. She met this travel photographer who ( like one I used to date ) life is not a routine. Who might think wouldnt ever fall in love and to have a so called routine life.

They met, they talked, the shared things, they fell in love.

Through the skeptical eyes, what they had was scandal. A housewife cheated on her husband, but through the movie, what they had was narrated to be a very beautiful feeling which undoubtedly, love.

A chance in a lifetime, which one would never want to pass on.

Indeed, she did. For the family. It sounds a bit familiar to me. Yea, indeed.

All in all, for me - its really hard actually to feel the love connection that they both had, cuz I was being rather skeptical myself and those wrinkling lips locked to each other, its a bit gross :P I know I am no romantic but I do feel like, if you know that it is love, and it is that only one love you know its the one, you will never let it go.

But what she did was beautiful, she never wanted to ruin the love, and that was why, she decided to let it go.

owh yea, its February. Month of Love, and so they said.

checkin' the bed..
xoxo - Amylia

The Se7en Days Weekend

2012-02-07T23:17:00.001+08:00

So, the weekend is finally over! ( and so are other things, I guess..)

Day 1 - drove back home. It was really quiet while I was driving, both the traffic and the passenger. But it was okay. Back home, settled some personal stuff and had big lunch and yea, played with kitties were the best thing to do at home.

Day 2 - nothing much. Edited some pics, blogged, played with kitties, most of the times I was in the balcony in front of my lappie and yea, helped my colleague to check some error.

Day 3 - drove to Kuantan. Only me and ma, after Temerloh the weather was bad. It was raining cat n dog at one time, and it was sunny at one time. To drive in a stormy heavy rain was scary, I was glad I made it through. Anyway, Jalan Gambang had pretty heavy traffic and it was scary again. When we got to my aunt's house, I was so glad. And was really glad to hear that designated sms beep which I missed so much. Went to ECM for a while and nearly bought this love shaped soap at Body Shop. Very V-day stuff.. Had big seafood BBQ dinner at home. Was so full and yea, great to be with this extended family.

Day 4 - 5 of us headed to Kuala Terengganu. My initial plan is to get a beach chalet and just to lay down relaxin on the beach. I told Nana that, and she was ok. However when I told my mom that plan, and she told my dad, my dad said No. The coast still in danger zone and the red flag is still on. Few death cases reported and my dad said, no no beach. So the plan changed to Kuala Terengganu JJCM kinda thing. Lyke usual. So, Nana was the driver ( and still texted and talked on the phone since she was actually very busy for the up coming event ) But lyke my mom said, she was a good driver. I just hoped nothing scary happened, and yea, it was all right. Anyway, we had our breakfast at Hai Peng Kopitiam then snapped some pics in Kelulut. The beach was awesome, I just hope to play with the big waves. Yea. Then, to Pasar Payang ( where else ) for the ladies to buy things. I didnt buy anything, I still have few clothes unmade. After that, went to Masjid Kristal for solat. Then had not very nice late lunch at Batu Buruk beach and Kelulut again to buy keropok lekor for home. Nite was feelin tired and emo at the same time, and yea big fight came out. I dont feel like talking much about it, I contributed too. Maybe its never meant to be.

Day 5 - Thought of saying sorry - but the blackberry was dying. When I tried to charge it, it wasnt charging. So, I was like, okay this is too much. The signs were everywhere. Emo. yeah, Me. So early in the morning, I accompanied Nana to her office and then picked up other fams members to Pekan to have Laksa Pahang, which I never ate for my whole lifetime. It was okay, I like the laksa but I like gravy for Laksa Johor instead. After that, Ma asked me if we can go back to Bentong earlier cuz she felt bad for my bro and dad. Hmm, yea, this I dun understand. I drove pretty fast. ( I regret that, still ) It was dangerous. I promised to be more responsible and yea, I just hate driving actually. Nothing much at home. I felt bad. And with the phone dead, I feel like dying inside too. ( its not about the phone actually. )

Day 6 - finished up some chores and vroom back to KL. Got the warranty card and stuff, drove to Carrefour and been told that it would be faster if I send the phone myself to BB service centre in Imbi. Thought of goin, but since its the public holiday so I postponed to next day. Tapao subway seafood sandwich, met the nicest sandwich man ever, still feel empty. Back home, transferred my sim card to my old Sony Ericsson. Havent use this phone or charge it or remove the battery for like 8 months and the phone still in good shape. Although the keys are a bit broken, very hard to text, I did send messages to Ma and my man, just to update them. Ma called later, the man still ignoring me. ( i feel like its gonna be forever, this time.. hmm ) Watched Gossip Girl new episode, which was depressing. Blair C. Waldorf has the kinda life other girls dream of, but from the inside, it was devastated.

Day 7 - thought of goin to Imbi to check out the service centre, called the number on the webpage but nobody pick up the calls. So I was in doubt to go, although I was like craving for Starbucks coffee. Hmm So I locked myself at home, dont really know where my sister was, the house feels so empty. The girls dont really talk to me ( guess they have no comment about it already, so yea.. nothing much - dun blame them ) Saw a few job vacancies which I feel like to apply, maybe I will.

The farther the better?

in need for some Soul_ searching. yea.

xoxo,
Amylia

Diorama Drama

2012-02-07T10:25:00.001+08:00

You're my favorite thing
You're my favorite thing
One that I love
One so I'd die for your love
And I feel lyke letting go

Family, Food, Terengganu

2012-02-06T23:27:00.002+08:00

had seafood bbq that nite in Taman Sepakat

breakfast in Hai Peng Kopitiam

nobody does it lyke Nana

kopi ais satu, roti bakar satu!

hair is flat.

not rusty enough

kelulut has nice beach

i never been to Pulau Kapas

we were FAKING it

REAL smiles

mommies

ma ugleh roXy

cak!

this is my fave store in Pasar Payang

do u?

mok chik jual kepok

walk lyke k.Linda

Masjid Kristal for shalat

nanaPossy

last 2009 i went near the masjid with skirts,
this time I prepared shawls

check out the surf.

luv,

Amylia

xxx

randoms

2012-02-02T16:30:00.001+08:00

photo editor : Photo Studio for Blackberry
collage maker : picnik.com

xoxo, Amylia

the journal.

2012-01-31T21:26:00.003+08:00

I felt a bit sleepy just now, I didnt feel lyke to finish the movie anyway - so I decided to just go to bed. And before I did, I took a look in the kitchen and found out my sis had not complete the laundry works. So I did. While waiting for the last spin, I went to my room to get my birth cert, and all the books n mags fell out of the shelf. And when I put them in place, saw few of my Starbucks journal that I have been collecting since 2008. I feel lyke to share them here. When I done with the laundry, grabbed my Canon and here goes as the saga continues...

the journal of 2008

I drew this at Starbucks KLCC after an interview at AmBank Group, which I nailed it.
But the job sucks, I left the company after 8 months

the journal of 2009 - didnt write much ( i was anti 2009, still am )
this is a song lyrics written by me titled chuck n blair.

somehow May 2009 had the nicest pic of the month
that was so me! (except the skinny body )

the journal of 2010 - my fave year of all

the 1st dish I cooked for my man and it was horrible -- but its spongebob mac n cheese!

2010 - i was a bit rajin to print the pics and paste them on the dates.
that was me and zai celebrated her birthday at Baskin Robins, Pavi KL

the journal of 2011 :) bought the hello kitty sticker to use for the journal

since the pages were free format ( no specific dates ) I scribbled and doodled and sketched a lot.

my clothes planning for Krabi trip on May

the journal of 2012 - bought the pen from tyPo, Pavi KL

2008 - 2011

about _a girl,

amylia

My Weekend

2012-01-29T13:48:00.001+08:00

Semalam jaga big boi, today jaga kiddie boi. Both boys I love much.
xoxo
Amylia

for lovers ONLY.

2012-01-28T11:06:00.000+08:00

amylia
_lover or not?_
edited 00:25 : lover.

My rabbit tooth

2012-01-25T15:52:00.001+08:00

- biarlah ku dengan topi biruku -

Last time I hangout with tootsie and she said something lyke - biar la ku dengan jeans biruku. I kinda like it so, there goes the picture caption :) Anyway, its my dad blue cap which he paw my mom - found it at Daiso Pavi. And yes since its from Daiso, its only costs 5 rgt! Hahaha Babah snapped this pic which I kinda like it cuz its a different pose from what I usually have. And yes I love my hair - it looks damn long issit?? - despite I'm gonna lose my man soon ( or am I already have? ) I love my hair.

For the time being, I only in love with myself. ( liar )

Amy - xx

Note - the edited in lomo effect by photo studio for blackberry.

Meow

2012-01-24T17:31:00.000+08:00

Clearing my sd card.

#699

2012-01-24T08:40:00.002+08:00

if only life can be this sweet.

luv,
Amylia
xx

life as a foodie

2012-01-22T21:54:00.001+08:00

nothing much to say. enjoy the pics.

seafood porridge and char kuey @ Pavi KL

Laksa Sarawak @ Pavi KL

homemade Chicken Lor Bak

homemade prawn wonton

homemade steamed grouper

homemade cabbage rolls with steamed brocolli

xoxo,

Amylia

Life can be Sweet

2012-01-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

Seems like today is the best day eva! Was actually planning with Tootsie to climb the Batu Caves but but but! The sweet gal kesiangan! I was awake lyke 7 and got ready lyke 7:40 cuz she said she would come like 7:45 haha or issit 6:45, woman?! haha

So she suggested for us to just lepak and having brunch and we finally had that at PappaRich, Wangsa Maju. I dont normally see this girl, although I would say she is my bff - cuz she's like tooooo far away down in Selangor and I'm in Kay Ell and I dont drive outside KL :D So its either she wud come pick me up or I waited somewhere like Bangsar or something. I just pity her to drive jauh2 for me :D

But still we spare some times to chill and stuff - to keep in touch and keep up with our lives updates.

Around 1 something, reached home. Kemas-kemas sikit and made stupid jokes to my sista. Just to annoy her. I did. She hates me haha. Later evening, while waiting for some file transfer - skyping with my man before he pulang beraya. Seriously dah lama tak open my skype. Almost forgot the password. It was nice, I dont know how to say this but I really miss this guy. Having him busy with works and sometimes we dont talk like few days straight makes me feel kinda left out. So I emo2 with him and he changed a bit, talked a little, sometimes he texted me once he reached home. Of cuz, that time I already in my slumber.

and what I loved most while skying with him today, not just the chemistry I felt between us also, his attitude who never judge me. For what I like, for what he likes, for what we're into and for the girl I am being myself. Honestly, at the very beginning of the relationship I got confused on who I am supposed to be with him. Can I be myself, or should I be the dark side of me or the decent side of me. I know, I am that angelic nor I am that bitchy. He understands, and he makes me comfortable to be me. And yes, sometimes I feel like he always being arrogant and selfish, but at times I realized that he respects me. Yeah, there is.

He's lyke my mom. He doesnt give direct compliments or the kinda person who sweet talks. Au contraire, I love giving compliments, as I think that is something motivational. The moment I had my Loma paper and he saw me study and then asked for my test result. I said I passed it and he just smiled. But I could interpret his smile as he felt proud of me. (Well, thats what I thought of, only God and him know the truth ).

hmm, im kinda losing my words so back to my day.

Finally, I had the chance to watch Chalet Girl. Knew this movie from Roxy, as Roxy was featured in this movie about a chalet at the ski tourist spot in Austria. Well, basically it is a summer romance kinda tale, happy ending and most importantly it was starred by Ed Westwick. =) aka Mr Chuck Bass from Gossip Girl. And the character was almost the same, so why not.

yes Roxy snowboard... the 3rd main cast, Nice!

i even put on my Roxy snow beanie to get the feel :D

Hmm, yeah. Im gonna watch the movie again.. I should have some Coke with me.. hmm but Ma just forbid it :( bummer....

oh yea, 1 more thing why today is nice -- my hair !!!! So beach babe :D

life can be sweet - smoke city

Love,

Amylia

Maggi with chili tuna

2012-01-20T19:58:00.000+08:00

I used maggi ayam (noodle only), tuna in sunflower oil cooked with chili, onion and garlic. Then topped it off with shreded omelette.

roxy Snow princess..

2012-01-20T17:18:00.000+08:00

Sarah Burke is one of my fave snow girls in Roxy snow team. Along with Torah B and Kassia M. It devastated to know when she was battling with her life in coma weeks ago and she lose it. Rest in Peace, Sarah. Forever Roxy girl.

http://roxy-europe.typepad.com/en/2012/01/in-loving-memory-of-sarah-burke.html

working friendship

2012-01-20T13:46:00.001+08:00

Soo, CHY, XY, shawty, Peter and See Tho

Just feel like to post this pic. This is my colleagues and ex-collegue ( the diff one ) on her last day here sob sob., she was in the different department but we were close -- still are, anyway IT dgn Actuarial mmg "ngam" as my boss said. Just got email from her with the new email address woot woot, and 1st thing she said me is that -- hey amy, do u wanna try Air Asia?

:D hahahha yea of cuz, not the FA post la.. what do u think lah!

shawty,
Amylia

Ke Angkasa dan kembali...

2012-01-19T23:36:00.001+08:00

Okay if the Mayans are wrong about their prediction that world will end in this year, 2012 I am thinking that this year I'd like to achieve something. Its the year of achievement as I would like to declare.
Yup, its the best. All the best and remember it is Us against the world. Don't let the world bring you down and may the Force be with you. ( Okay dats just a phrase )

Lotsa love,
Amylia

The Who

2012-01-18T15:47:00.001+08:00

Future seems so dark now and I'm as scared as when I first saw Darth Vader or Dark Lord or Saruman.

If only my life as busy as crowded Bikini Bottom with Spongebob and together we would for net fishing for jelly fish.

It would be great, Princess.

the one n only,
AmyLeia

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when we stop talking.

2012-01-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

So, turned out Seventeenth day didnt give me good news, guess i may just give up. Its really hard when I am alone who tried to build up a relationship, while the other party just .. I dont know. I dont even know what he's thinking.

To get myself more emo-er, I decided to see his ol' marriage photos again. I just wanted to know what I felt. And it was okay at first, the flowers, the cupcakes, the stuff.. ok. When it came to his face, I stunned. Bagus kan, padan muka I, then my laptop shutted down itself. Maybe it didnt want me to cry, so I was like, hmm okay.

Few minutes later, I saw YM icon on my blackberry. It was dear old Cali Boy. He is now in Mesia. =) He's too excited to tell he that he's in town. We chatted for a moment, cuz we havent chatted for ages, I asked him to call me cuz its like AGES since we last spoke to each other. ( actually I just wanted to listen to his malay slang which is so funny keke :P ) and he did make me laugh.. pengecau.. apa pengecau, pengacau lah!

Its pelik jugak today cuz, this guy ( I dated him few times ) suddenly texted me this afternoon. It was Zed -- the kelantan guy... ( scary ) He was in Perhentian and when I asked how come suddenly texting me. He said, cuz the beach reminds him of me. totally beach babe ok! ( not that we had beach vacation together )

so, yeah, cant wait for the beach trip next June in Bali. It wont be the beach vacation like in Krabi last year, Bali is more on sightseeing and jalan jalan n shop! OMG I already know what to buy and what to do. 1st day will be in Uluwatu, 2nd day to see the wild dolphins ( not the one in cage ok! ) and Tanah Lot for sunset, 3rd day would be in Celuk, Ubud and Kintamani, and Jimbaran for dinner. 4th day wud be suntanning and swimming in Kuta Beach. Afternoon to shop in Kuta Square - and maybe Dreamland beach the evening. Then later nite, feel like to walk down the Legian Street. Nice! The 5th day will be flying home. Hope to have extra time at the beach before back.

I just cant wait!!!! At first, I have arranged to have this vacation on my birthday in May, but yeah, too many things.. and I feel like to stay in KL and celebrate it with him, but since everything is not promising, guess, what would I do on my birthday this year.. hmm

Anyway, not goin to shop for new dress for this vacation. I only want to buy this fedora hat from Roxy.. but I dont know to buy here or in Bali. hurm... for footwear, I already bought iPanema wedge thongs. Sweet!
whatever it is, I need to be in Size 12. Wish me luck and I hope I wont be emo emo again la. Emo makes me eat a lot. !!!

While he will have his time to think, I will have my body to adjust.

Roxy hat (see more roxy hats)

xoxo,

Amyx

Se7enth

2012-01-17T08:56:00.001+08:00

I'm so gonna share this cuz I think its pretty classic. Today is the 17th day of 2012 and this early morning, around 1 am I woke uppp from my sleep cuz I dozed off earlier and the light was on. So I turned it off, ended my bb charging and tried to continue to sleep. I thought of my man and when I was about to sleep, heard the sound of his designated text message alert. He got trouble sleeping. The message conveyed at 01:17. I didn't realize it until this morning and if u know me well, I love to see this "kebetulan " stuff kekeke anyway, I realized this as well that the morning I woke up - sent him an emo text on 07:07 hours.

Ok this iss madness. I'm now resuming my emo mood. C u guys later.

Xoxo,
Gossip Girl.

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be careful on what you wish for

2012-01-16T14:32:00.000+08:00

im goin to list 16 of my material wishes here ( cuz today so lay back but I have finished my works )

1 - to live by the beach
2 - urm..
3 - hmmm

seems like I only have one material wish. seriously?
yeah and one more non-material wish but im not gonna put it here.

jyeah. im out

u know u love me - xoxo
Amylia

15 days in Jumpy January

2012-01-15T23:41:00.001+08:00

I dont have a proper adjective for January. But since the month starts with J, I chose Jumpy. Cuz mood was jumpy, weather was jumpy, feelings was jumpy. :P~

The week started with me with a mixed feelings. You know things when you care about someone, of course you wanna show it right, somehow if the party doesnt appreciate it, then its a big sign that you're unwanted. I guess I just have to open my eyes big enough to finally realize that this is NOT a dream amy. Wake up.

So the rest of the week I kept quiet. Which, didnt mean I give him all up. I just felt like to run away.

But, why run when you want to be found?

Exactly. So I didnt, So i just made myself available. Although I was physically not available.

Seriously I dont understand what Ive been typing.

Urm, so Ma stayed at the crib for the whole week. The kitchen finally completed on Thursday, what a relief. I just hate take-outs and dine-outs. I mean, just sometimes its fine but not too frequent. For this case, we dined -out for like a month or so. Truly, Im more of a home-ly person. I love stay in. Except, while travelling..

Owh talking about travelling, we ( me and the fams ) settled some for our Bali vacation this year. The air tickets, the hotel and the tour. It wasnt a cheap good promo package but I guess it should be okay for my parents. I hope it convenient for my parents cuz the tour was scheduled, the food was arranged and the tour will be private.

Me and my sister went to Bali on Sept 2009. It was more of free and easy kinda travel. But yes, we didnt see much. Things will be more this time. and Like any other girls, I hope my 3rd visit to Bali will be the honeymoon I will be with my future prince ( whoever him will be ) and I have this dream to surprise him with this honeymoon gift from me to him ( well, yeah.. if ONLY i could skip the whole expensive show off hantaran stuff during the wedding )

The private villa, the shower and private pool in the yard.

Splendid!

Okay, back to my jumpy week. Bali is settled. Kitchen settled.

On wednesday nite, my sis was craving to have satay at Satay Station. I would like to skip it as I think I had spend so much time with my mom. I cant be with my Ma so close cuz we both "panas", we have similar emotion type so we got into fights easily. Okay then, I stayed back a little in the office and back home after Maghrib, turned out they actually waited for me to go together ( even when I said I dont wanna go ) So yeah, we finally settled ourselves in Satay Station Ampang Waterfront. The one in Setiawangsa has been closed for 5 months already.

Thursday was pretty quiet for some things. I felt like dying inside. When Mr Tikus aka Mr H aka my once favorite business user came to my place ( lyke usual ) I would just smile and didnt really layan him to chit chat. Im taking care of my professionalism at works. I know, sometimes being too friendly or layan the user flirting with me could make the job smoother, but I had my boss telling me to keep the distant. So I did.

and I kinda like it. Flirting is fun, that was my first. I never flirt with anyone in the office before, I did it with him cuz he is single and I had crush on him ( also cuz he is damn handsome ) but yea, thats it. Be it.

Babah came on Thursday, Alex came round 7pm to finish up the kitchen. He then took some picture for his portfolio and Babah gave him some compliments. Its quite funny cuz during the renovation there were some drama between him and my dad. My dad is NOT someone easy to work with, I cant work with him. I cried a lot.

Owh yea, I had a fight with my mom later the nite. So I got to bed earlier than normal.

The friday morning we made up. But the evening she made me lost my patience when she wanted to change the tour itinerary. The travel is confirmed and booked. I had no idea what to say to my travel agent. Although the things can actually be arranged but seriously, I hate myself for this, but I really thought next time I dont wanna plan for any travel and I wanna go SOLO! So I kept quiet, istighfar and when it all came to my senses, Thank God, she changed her mind.

Friday was the last day for my colleague from Actuarial dept. She worked few months earlier than me and has taught me a lot. We were like so close ( than just a biz user ) when she said she was goin to Paris, I didnt feel ashamed at all to ask him to get me Lollipops bag. That shows how close we were, when she said goodbye ( after took some pics and handed her the farewell gift ) I nearly cried. I am so gonna missed her!

I went home, locked myself to bed and only came out of bedroom around 7pm to get the shower and to get ready for Dinner at Look Out Point with my cousin, Nana, my sis and Ma. I didnt talk much in the car, but when I was cool down, I could joke and laugh with them.

Had dinner at The Haven. The night was blessed cuz when we got up, we got ourself a parking. Thank God! Otherwise, we need to use the car jockey service. It only costs RM5. Its not that bad. Dinner at Look Out Point was planned a year ago, but kept postponing. Finally we got there.

gemok girl

it was chilly. I swear.

i looked ugly

mine - fish n chips ( balik2 fish n chips )

Zla's - beef burger ( nice )

Nana's - BBQ ribs

Ma's - grilled beef

group pic

The saturday morning, went to Pasar Tani in Melawati cuz Ma's craving for siput sedut and it been months that we tried to find it but to no avail. My aunt asked her to find in the Pasar Tani, we took few minutes to get to the right stall, finally we found it. Ma nearly cried thinking nobody sell it. ( sama kan with me, emo giler )

The, we get home to Bentong. Nana came later for lunch. Had so full lunch, giler la.. rasa nak puasa for a month!. Around 3 pm, went to Cik Dah's house in Sertik. Achik was there too. It was her birthday that day. I sms-ed her before I went to bed, she replied after Subuh. When I got off the car, she came and hugged me. She said she really appreciate my thoughts. =) Cik Dah fried us some corn fritters. My fave. so Yummy! Before Nana left for Kuantan, Achik told us that she will be performing Umrah again this year ( she did last year on my b-day) so she said, siap-siap doa lah ye. Of course if pasal ni, Nana get excited lebih keke I stay humble a bit :P haha

I am sleepy. and I dont like what I write today. expressionless.

gtg.

xoxo,

Amylia

Bukit Tinjau

2012-01-14T00:06:00.001+08:00

after a year of planning. Ladies Night Out.

xoxo,
Amylia

Sebelas Januari

2012-01-11T00:16:00.001+08:00

xoxo
Amylia

the sickness

2012-01-08T22:57:00.003+08:00

15 mins on phone with the love of my life demolished the 3 days migraine i had.
it was magical.

but kesian dia lak demam..

*love him big time*

xoxo
Amylia

"The Lonely"

2012-01-08T01:19:00.003+08:00

2 a.m., where do I begin?

Crying off my face again

The silent sounds of loneliness

Wants to follow me to bed

I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most

I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room

Can the lonely take the place of you?

I sing myself a quiet lullaby

Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

Too afraid to go inside

For the pain of one more loveless night

But the loneliness will stay with me

And hold me 'til I fall asleep

I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most

I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room

Can the lonely take the place of you?

I sing myself a quiet lullaby

Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

Broken pieces of

A barely breathing story

Where there once was love

Now there's only me and the lonely

Dancing slowly in an empty room

Can the lonely take the place of you?

I sing myself a quiet lullaby

Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

http://www.elyrics.net

on 7th day

2012-01-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

these few days I have some thoughts on what to do with my blog.
one of them is to close it
>> so much old stories which I dun find necessary anymore
>> just feel like to be a bit mysterious
>> im sick of people who read it and pretend they still have no idea
>> some "sexy" pics of me might be a bit offensive. IM SORRY.

but of course, ive paid Google so that i can get more of photo hosting.
so, to close it? No.

hushgirl.blogspot.com is my playground.

i may have not much of a food photos, travel photos, my own wedding photos, the events-i-went-to photos, -the-love-my-life photos, not like people in nu**nang ads blog. u know that kinda blog.

bla bla bla
photos
bla bla bla
photos.

the so called famous wordless wednesday with un-Impressive nothing-to-tell picture.

guess, im just different.

so let me be.
let me think of what-to-do-next.

anyway, thanks for reading. its actually okay when you pretend you dont know.
thats why its called hushgirl blog.

p.s = owh yeah, how do you like this new dynamic view. i love it. my fave is flipcard. whats yours?

muchos lovah,
Amylia

fight away your fear

2012-01-05T01:30:00.002+08:00

this is the right time to put myself in One.
with The One.

i got the sign.
he's The One.

he is.

but I have to go.

xoxo,
Amylia

a little message..

2012-01-03T23:40:00.002+08:00

When your heart's in someone else's hands
Monkey see and monkey do
Their wish is your command
You're not to blame
Everyone's the same

All you do is love and love is all you do
I should know by now, the way I fought for you
You're not to blame
Everyone's the same

I know you think that you're safe
Mister
Harmless deception
That keeps love at bay
It's the ones who resist that we most want to kiss
Wouldn't you say?
Cowboys and angels
They all have the time for you
Why should I imagine
That I'd be a find for you
Why should I imagine
That I'd have something to say
But that scar on your face
That beautiful face of yours
In your heart there's a trace
Of someone before

When your heart's in someone else's plans
Things you say and things you do
They don't understand
It's such a shame
Always ends the same

You can call it love but I don't think it's true
You should know by now
I'm not the boy for you
You're not to blame
Always ends the same

I know you think that you're safe
Sister
Harmless affection
That keeps things this way
It's the ones who persist for the sake of a kiss
Who will pay
Cowboys and angels
They all take a shine to you
Why should I imagine that I was designed for you
Why should I believe
That you would stay

But that scar on your face
That beautiful face of yours
Don't you think that I know
They've hurt you before

Take this man to your bed
Maybe his hands will help you to forget
Please be stronger than your past
The future may still give you a chance

-- all the best --

Happy New Year

2011-12-31T23:50:00.000+08:00

At first I was thinking to do the 2011 walkthrough with pictures for every months for the last post of the year. But then I dun feel like to do it. So this is the short brief for the last post. I dun really looking forward for new year as I feel kinda lost recently. But I guess a new year is always a new beginning for anything. I just hope I will be more happier next coming years with a good health and love around me.

Guess that's it. How do I spent my NYE this year? Alone in my crib with Spongebob marathon on Nickelodeon. I know I'm too hot for that, guess I'm not really worth it. Don't even had new year kiss.

Sad NYE ever.

Hugs,
Amylia

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sad n blue

2011-12-29T10:35:00.000+08:00

sedih.

xAMYx

This is Love

2011-12-28T21:01:00.001+08:00

The so called "Wordless Wednesday".

day three hundred sixty one...

2011-12-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

im gonna blog this one short but sweet.

well, at least its sweet for me. :D

here goes, last nite ada budak tu cannot sleep. but sadly, i was snoozing to the max, i didnt hear his text alert. it was 2 something almost to 3, guess i was in my very deep sleep. kesian dia....

so this morning when he texted me in the office, i layan him la while writing my code. well it was a clone program, something i familiar with but just need to compile and correct the syntax error and debug to test it. kacang la. i was so multi-purpose that time. n also cuz im a gooooood gf!

so after a while, we got into this small issue la. it was nothing but when i replied, dia duk senyap dah. i asked him why, dia duk senyap. i was lyke, did i say something wrong..? but then i biar jer maybe he was in the loo :D then few mins later, he texted me like this, 'working now, daaaaaaa'

OMG so f annoying giler budak jahat ni! seriously i could imagine his face buat muka annoying mcm tu!!

grrrrrrr.

the white buddy bear is from Holland and yes, this reminds me of my man :D

xoxo
Amylia

This is my December Part I

2011-12-26T19:32:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to say. Its quite a meaningful this month.

Now countdown to TwentyTwelve

a perfect snow angel

2011-12-25T01:46:00.002+08:00

Supposedly today would be a wonderful day when we have been too distant physically and emotionally for so long. Maybe the other party doesnt really care much about this, and maybe I was too cool about this all the while. Came this holiday season and you know, the time of the year where all I see Love on the screen I began to find myself very alone.

Snuggling on the Christmas eve and watching The Muppets on Christmas morning would be just a dream.

When we care so much to take care of one's heart, we forgot to take care of ours.

Hope there will be a good cartoon on telly tomorrow morning. At least, my tradition to watch cartoon on Christmas morning will cheer me up.

but not A Christmas Carol please. I have met the real Mr Scrooge.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

love you like a snowflake,
Amylia

tentang Seseorang

2011-12-21T06:43:00.002+08:00

Cinta hanyalah cinta, hidup dan mati untukmu
Mungkinkah semua Tanya kau yang jawab
Dan tentang seseorang itu pula dirimu
Ku bersumpah akan mencinta

mungkin dia sudah lupa? once said, it will be there forever.

xoxo
Amylia

i know its a myth

2011-12-20T08:40:00.002+08:00

countdown to 20/12/2012

dont really care anymore, i lost the love :(
saddest day of my life

xoxo
aMylia

A cold story

2011-12-18T20:08:00.000+08:00

Wearing my ugg cuz its cold now and I'm catching cold and I don't have long pants. Pathetic, I know.

xoxo
Amylia

A teen Crush

2011-12-18T02:15:00.001+08:00

Its good to be watching Scott Pilgrim's movie when I am down with a fever. It feels like I'm 15 again and scott is my teen crush.

Hmm yea, its nice to be out of reality sometimes cuz reality bites and..

Guess the meds gonna take effect now. Later.

xoxo
Amylia

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Better Man

2011-12-16T20:52:00.004+08:00

Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over

She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Ohh...

Talkin' to herself, there's no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone

She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Yeah...

She loved him, yeah... she don't want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah... that's why she'll be back again

Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better... man...

amy on Pearl Jam

just like you

2011-12-16T07:45:00.001+08:00

xoxoAmylia

this is the time of the year

2011-12-15T06:51:00.000+08:00

christmas plan is off :(

xoxo

Amylia

Hi My Name is Mikey

2011-12-13T19:13:00.000+08:00

Also like to be called as Mikey-cchan. I am 2 years old and my lovely owners are Jijie Letto and Amylia Aldrin ( also like to be called Roxy or Princess Leia ) She is so vain! Anyway, my 2 owners stay in KL and live in a very horrible place I'd never want to stay with them. I heard only pigeon lives there cuz their daddy called the place as pigeon hole. Right? I don't know. I love my current place.

My house now has a very big garden for me to play with birds. Also, there is a tree for me and other kitties to play panjat panjat and playing monkies. Love it. Owh, the other kitties are baby and mon-mon. Both are my brother with different dad. Yes my mom is such a hottie :)

I love to have my head rubbed and my owner, Amy loves to rub my tummy whenever I stretch. Hehe love it love it. Also, I am very crazy for cupcake batter. Last time, Amy made a cheese cupcake and it drove my crazy. She had to keep me in a cage so I couldn't bug her. Other that that, I really love pastries esp croissant.

Hmmm I think this is all. I will blog again or maybe I would some of my cute videos. To all hot kitties out there, please gimme a call. I would share my cupcakes batter with you.

Meow - Mikey.

The Paranoid Android

2011-12-11T23:37:00.001+08:00

When I was working for my 1st real job, I just healed from my broken heart and tried to adapt the working culture, yea I admitted I got a bit of stress ( which soon was a bit clinically serious ) So yeah, around 5:30 pm I will start to get on my headphone and still working but together with a blasting sound. De-stress session was on.

Being a normal kid, I relieved my tense with music. And yea, I got so many cool friends, they introduced me to this band, that band.. and Im kinda musically friendly. I can listen to every genre. No limit.

And I have tons of emo songs. I even have this song ( my friend sent me the mp3 : with Achtung message. He said dont listen to this more than 3 times ) Yeah, his message was so fuckingly true. Somebody could kill her/himself from that song. Serious emo.

And tonite, I was watching a bit of James Bond movie : not sure which one but Roger Moore was in it. And there was this part with a music score I familiar with. And I tried to hum to remember it. And I got it.

It was Paranoid Android by Radiofuckinghead.

Ok, I crossed the line. Radiohead is the most brilliant band ever!
So I logged in my youtube account and search for the video. Seriously, I never watched the video. and... It was depressing, and not so much different from what I was imagining.

I imagined to sit on a cliff by myself overlooking the wide ocean and the birds n all. Breathtaking view but you feel empty. That moment, I felt like I was giving up everything and was very ready to die. As I might think that dying was something that could make me feel in peace. So true.

But that was 5 years ago. Tonite when I listened to it even with the shits happened this week, terrible week yes it was, I could tell myself that it will be okay. It will be alright. Things will be fine.

God loves his children. God loves his children

( oh my, this is a little biblical -- but with my faith I take it was God is the most merciful and forgiveness )..

xoxo,
Amylia, The Emo Princess.

Moving On

2011-12-10T22:12:00.001+08:00

This one's for you and me,
Living out our dreams
We're all right where we should be
Lift my arms out wide I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
Is a sky full of lighters
A sky full of lighters

xoxo
Princess Leia

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The comfort food

2011-12-10T13:01:00.000+08:00

Looks like Ma mcm tau her daughter tgh cedih2. She made this fave dish of mine - Sup ikan jenahak. ( snapper broth )

Syukur.

Xoxo,
Amylia

Sweetness

2011-12-08T23:26:00.001+08:00

I seriously have no idea on how to start blogging again. I've been delaying few entries cuz lately I felt kinda down and all. My body is aching and yes, I need a nice back rub. But I know I just cant afford one so wait jer la.

So, yeah. What's new? My bff tied the knot, went to the wedding, spent couple of nites in JB, wished my man turned out to be a rocketeer, back in KL and realized that some part of my life is changing -- need some moment to cope with it though.

I feel kinda lost, anyway. I need some light to get me out of this darkness.

Darkness, yes. BW used to say that CB kept bringing her into the darkness. Yes, that was the moment she lived in her fairy tale love and about to marry a Prince of Monaco. Yet, last episode 10, she was eloped ( kinda ) with CB and when CB asked her "What about your dream, fairy tale wedding .. marrying a prince?" Of course BW would reply back "My dream doesnt matter, I wanna be with you. It's always been you, you're the one."

Honestly I was crying during that scene. And the scene before, when CB said he would love the baby like his own baby.

Of course that was just a movie scene. In the real world, if you carrying some other man's baby, you'll stuck with that man or be single for the rest of your life.

No? ok im too shallow. or pessimistic. hey Im listening to The Smiths.

:)

Anyway, before I mumble too much, I think I should share some pics ( Zai's wedding pics ) on my lovely blog so you could see some colors and my chubby face.

the wedding

sweetness no 1

cuteness no 1

couples of newlyweds

tgganu family i think.

pink is Sweet

sweetness no 2

OMG tembamness no 1 :(

the Johoreans

the singles and the hooked

phewwww... each high def pics is about 6mb in size and damn, this broadband.. i need to sleep now. I had my The Smiths pill.. and yes, i need my sleep and dream and my man. Where art thou?

(the beep beep sounds..)

owh... he just sms-ed :)

nice chemistry, baby. Love u

xoxo, Amylia

Faith

2011-12-07T07:37:00.001+08:00

Take a walk I'll hold your hands for now

It's happening, it's happening
Makes it hard to lose another night

I'll pretend that I'm a man for now
It's difficult, it's difficult
To soothe a wounded heart

Before you go, give me all of your love
Before you go, I'll give you all of mine

I'll drink water because my blood has dried
It's different, it's different
Than anything you've seen or heard before

Take a picture, hold that smile forever
I'll drink it everyday till it becomes another skin

Before you go, give me all of your love
Before you go, I'll give you all of mine

If it makes it easier
If it makes it easier to breathe

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

If it makes it easier
If it makes it easier
Wish it could be easier
I can't breathe
If it makes it easier
If it makes it easier to breathe

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

Sweet n Sour of November

2011-11-30T23:15:00.001+08:00

i have to blog tonite -- i said to myself when i realized that tomorrow is already December. Phew, few days left for 2011. Its been a tough year i guess.. for all aspects. Thank god we got it through.. but then this is not a post about 2011, still.. its supposed to be about November.

my sweet sweet november.

the overly known as november rain as well.

there were happy time, lovey time, sulky time and yea, trial and tribulation time. all the negativity should be assumed as the silver lining in each cloud. u know, its classic, right.
i got tested too. but i dont really feel like to blog it. its quite personal. i know, i have to handle my stress to live longer, and wiser. but then of course, still getting emo here n there. owh well... i wud always be an emo girl. no doubt about it, still ill be emo to certain people only lah. not all... why should i be emo to less significant person? seriously.... dats gedik ok.

so, yeah we have the new year of islamic calendar, and some might try to change to good and all. i dont know, i wanna carry all my loved ones to another year. another silaturrahim and yes, another level i guess? its really nice to know my man's real feeling for me. when i dont actually expect it.. seriously. all this time i thought i am the one who's head over heel for him. ( dats pretty cheesy.. ) but then, yea its good to know. i hope he wont stop loving me. and i hope i could make him happy, forever.

still, sad thing is.. i didnt see him this whole November month :( boo hoo hoo

i hate you november.

im goin to listen to november rain then!

... eh, gossip girl first.

x bisou bisou x
amylia

3 words, 8 letters.

2011-11-28T21:03:00.001+08:00

GG's abbreviation has a new meaning : Gorgeous Goalie.
Proud of him :)

xoxo
Amylia

Surfs up dude!

2011-11-28T01:08:00.000+08:00

My fave penguin species =)

Serious!

xoxo
Amylia

1st day of the new year

2011-11-27T21:25:00.000+08:00

I have a good 1st day of the new muslim calendar 1433 - cuz somebody used the L word 3 times and I have so good mood I made a niceeee mashed potato. 1st attempt anyway ;)

I had a biiiiittttt jer =)

xoxoxo
Amylia

Salam Maal Hijrah

2011-11-27T00:01:00.001+08:00

... and it all ends.

Syukur.

xoxo,
Amylia

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Singles

2011-11-26T15:52:00.000+08:00

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour

But heaven knows I'm miserable now

I was looking for a job, and then I found a job

And heaven knows I'm miserable now

In my life

Why do I give valuable time

To people who don't care if I live or die ?

Two lovers entwined pass me by

And heaven knows I'm miserable now

I was looking for a job, and then I found a job

And heaven knows I'm miserable now

In my life

Oh, why do I give valuable time

To people who don't care if I live or die ?

What she asked of me at the end of the day

Caligula would have blushed

"You've been in the house too long" she said

And I (naturally) fled

In my life

Why do I smile

At people who I'd much rather kick in the eye ?

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour

But heaven knows I'm miserable now

"You've been in the house too long" she said

And I (naturally) fled

In my life

Why do I give valuable time

To people who don't care if I live or die ?

emo Amylia.

Our thanksgiving dinner

2011-11-25T19:48:00.000+08:00

Hahah no lah.. Its Zai bachelorette!

xoxo
Amylia

Happy Thanksgiving

2011-11-25T00:23:00.001+08:00

This is not the attitude of obsessing other religion or culture that people think its cool to follow.
Thanksgiving is a good way to look back on what we have now and to be grateful to God on all the good things we're currently livin in.
To me, sometimes I forgot.. But I am very thankful for the love I have around me and the never ending love I have to give.

Syukur, Alhamdulillah

xoxo,
Amylia

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Diary of an emo girl

2011-11-20T23:55:00.001+08:00

So I managed to watch the movie - Diary of a wimpy kid. I gotta admit I love movie or show with those narration - sorta story teller thing.

Some friend used to call my blog as the most expressive blog he ever read. I thought he meant I was being too emo.

So back to the movie, browsed those books at the store couple of times, never bought one - lucky got the chance to watch it tonite. I had diary since I was 11. Mom didn't buy it for me, I asked them. My late sister got her journal so she could keep track of her insulin injection - and she wrote something personal too - I know cuz I read it.

So I asked my mom to give me one and she handed me some corporate journal she got it for free. And I began to write ' Dear Diary'..

I almost wanted to end this blog yesterday. Don't ask me why, I'm just sick of people who free enough to read my blog but too busy to even say Hi to me. But in the end, I guess its caring enough to read my blog. I don't know, sometimes I always this nice to settle for minimum satisfaction. Even though I know, I could get more.

And since yesterday was 20-11-2011 I thought of something meaningful to do but I just can't let it go. I never blog to anyone. I write for myself. In my very sincere writing I never write for people to read it. Well.

I know I regret that I delete the blog that I have like since 2001 ago. ( If not you can read the posts that my man published it :). Although there were lies )
Its part of my history. So I got my 2nd chapter - never know back to the same man.

That is no regret.

... And the blog will stay.

xoxo
Amylia

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A li'l message

2011-11-19T00:35:00.000+08:00

I admit sometime I keep my ego up high and tried to be cool and deny that I miss him. It was just as terrible, seems everything was wrong and yea sleepless nites.

In my dreams I dreamed of him and all of them were dramas and dramas. They were tiring. And pathetic at the same times.

So I lose a bit of my pride just to know if he is still breathing.

And some words from him were like the colorful alphabets made of rainbow and its cheered up the sad little valley. The sun rose up and shined. And the birds sang happy songs and all the children dance together.

Tell me pathetically that how can I live without this angel?

Bubblegum lips, I love you.
xoxo
Amylia

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At this very moment

2011-11-16T14:07:00.001+08:00

I feel like to listen to this song - I Cry by Shayne Ward.

Yep.

xoxo,
Amylia

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Another fish taco

2011-11-12T14:03:00.000+08:00

:) but this time with sweet hot sauce and jalapeno mayo

And me alone.

Dinner at Tiffany's

2011-11-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

The smile of a bride to be :)

xoxo
Amylia

Ok I'm insaf

2011-11-03T23:31:00.001+08:00

Not gonna cook rice again
Not gonna skip gym session again
Not gonna be emo and eat eat eat again.
Not gonna cry for no reason.
Not gonna lose my temper.
Not gonna have doubts.
Not gonna sleep in and be a slacker.

I need coffee and my man.

xoxo,
Amylia

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The Next Phase of Life

2011-11-02T21:54:00.001+08:00

Today after office, I accompanied Zai to pick up her nikah dress :) I didn't check out when she tried it on. I might cry! Haha this is my very best buddy and she is really getting married. I confessed at times I tried to deny that she is getting into that path.. Just because I can't bear to lose a friend. Yeah, most of my gfs got married and I could say that we don't hang out like we use to. :( sad but true.

Zai will go and live in Japan after the wedding. I'm so gonna miss her and my only fren for the impromptu coffee session after work. Hmmm yeah.

Its just a phase. I'd be okay.

Note : I went to the tailor for my dress too. My "potential boss" thought that's the dress for my wedding!

xoxo
Amylia

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November Rain

2011-11-01T23:46:00.001+08:00

-infinite sadness..

xoxo,
Amylia

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Awesome October

2011-10-31T23:11:00.000+08:00

I must say this year been good to me :) so far lah and oct was nice, like my may. But though I had high n low, emo and happy, made a bad decision. But all I can say is like when I was in the month of May, I am all content and happy.

And your smile :) build my world again and again.

Some pics on from my bb taken during this month :)

xoxo
Amylia

Fish taco!

2011-10-30T19:21:00.000+08:00

For my belated birthday boy ;)

xoxo
Amylia

Sealed with hello kitty sticker.

2011-10-29T02:50:00.000+08:00

To the luckiest man on Earth.

A beach Babe

2011-10-27T21:02:00.001+08:00

Curl n frizzy hair
Brown hair with bronze highlights
Caramel face (tanned)
Blushing cheeks

I'm in love with myself

xoxo
Amylia

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Dead. And. Bloated

2011-10-26T11:40:00.001+08:00

I had nitemares last nite. My parents got divorced, my mom remarried and became 2nd wife of our own uncle Najib :( but the funny part is uncle najib wife name Nora. Which is absolutely wrong and yeah, I know its just a dream but I was like so sedih and all. And I really felt dead and bloated at that time and everybody were like leaving me :( plus my man.

When I woke up this morning, saying my love to Ma and my man. Miss him terribly and now me and the ladies, went up to Kenko for some fish spa and yeah to Quiksilver / Roxy store later.

:)

xoxo,
Amylia

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The Tale of Dusty and Pistol Pete

2011-10-26T01:25:00.002+08:00

cant sleep.

having some alone karaoke time. yes, and its smashing pumpkins nite.

Goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tight
May it hold you through the winter of a long night
And keep you from the loneliness of yourself
Heart strung is your heart frayed and empty
Cause it's hard luck, when no one understands your love
It's unsung, and I say
Goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
Goodnight, always, to all thats pure, that's in your heart

Goodnight, may your dreams be so happy and your
Head light with the wishes of a sandman and a night light
Be careful not to let the bedbugs...
Sleep tight nestled in your covers

The sun shines, but I don't
A silver rain will wash away
The sun shines, but I don't
A silver rain will wash away

And you can tell, it's just as well
And you can tell, it's just as well
Goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
Goodnight, always, to all that's pure, that's in your heart

yes, that song. cuz i miss my bf so much and i always sang that one quietly while he was snoring.

xoxo,

Amylia

a Declaration

2011-10-21T13:52:00.002+08:00

*bliss*

Imperfection

2011-10-20T23:23:00.001+08:00

I love kids. Moreover if I have my chance to have them on my own. I guess my life would be perfect by then. But now being a very complicated person with a complicated relationship, I am very down when I have to get socialize with those normal folks. You know normal people, went to uni met the love of their lives, graduated, got married, have comel kids, or even twins, maybe have some trials n tribulation with the marriage but at least they survive and still looks perfect.

I dun wanna be with them however fun it would be. Kids are getting bigger and say all the darnest thing. Why aren't you wearing a tudung auntie amy? Why aren't u not married still auntie amy? How old are you auntie amy? Arghh kids. U hate them when they turned 5. Seriously.

Just don't wannabe with them this weekend. I don't know how to tell mom about this. If I straight to her she will have this look like marriage sucks, u don't wanna get married! U will end up heartbroken.

And still, she loves to hang out with my other cousins and her cucu2.

Hmmm ma, please let your baby grow up. I'm a big girl now.

And u will never look at me that way.

-- ok I'm being very super emotional right now.

Love, Amylia

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Soft kitties, warm kitties..

2011-10-17T18:11:00.001+08:00

Awwwwww

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Sad

2011-10-17T00:58:00.001+08:00

Lost my ring n my bracelet :(

-amy

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Long Thurs-lostday and Chuck Bass

2011-10-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

If you know me, you'd know I'm such a drama girl. Most girls know that when they get to know me better during vacation - guys know that I'm such an emo brat which is worse. But then, yeah I was very very down today.

Not really sure of why, could be the extra dosage of cough syrup I took before, or maybe its my pms cuz the menses is coming or plain reason of you know why.

Dramatically I thought that I could be that down cuz of Chuck Bass. Yeah.. That bad ass finally getting all emotionally when Blair told him the father of the child she carries now. And that CB was crying in his bed.

I mean, wow CB could get the nite all guys in the world want. But in the end, he was crying in his luxurious bed.

Ok yeah I was crying too. Bad ass CB - now I don't feel like watching Gossip Girl cuz seeing BW with Prince Luis is like seeing myself with a new man and being happy and normal and simple.

Hmm..

So back to reality, skipped heavy lunch today so I could get some rest and went down just to get some fresh cut of guava.

In the eve went to KLCC finding some gifts but couldn't get any plus can't get the whole red velvet. Sad. Lost a bit. Went to Toys 'r Us main sylvanian families and stuff - then got into my senses back.

Guess the syrup made me sleepy again ... Ahh gotta off to la la land noww and meet my man in our small beach house. Hope can wake at 6 am I got so many things to do cuz petang nak balik bentong and think of starting my subuh solat and yea good thing stars on Friday. Hopefully. Amin.

KThxBye

Note : yea that's my dramatic pose for Chalet Girl tribute. My old roxy beanie. Love it!

I know I'm fat. But the pic was crop cuz my jiggly arm is just sexxxay!

Ok nite.

Xoxo,
Princess Roxy Leia Waldorf

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sick.

2011-10-11T21:52:00.002+08:00

batuk lagi :( esok g clinic lagi....

xoxo
Amylia

10.10.11

2011-10-10T23:00:00.001+08:00

despite all the exciting and interesting things happened over the weekend and today,

i am very very jauh hati. and yea.. sometimes, i begged to God if i could just give up.

p/s : being too nice doesnt guarantee a happier life. learnt it from soap operas failed to implement in real life.

xoxo _ oh well..
Amylia

The se7enth Day

2011-10-08T01:37:00.000+08:00

Aku rasa aku akan ikut jejak zai and nabil untuk jadi antara orang yang hidup tanpa facebook account.

I mean, why not? The old friends kept in touch with u through facebook, yea but what's next? Do they be your truly friends? I bet not. So be it.

And aku bukannya ada benda nk dibanggakan dlm facebook pun. I dun have kids, I dun bake things and let my kids chew them all, I dun have en suami to buy me this to buy me dat. I dun get invitation to posh cocktail party and buying stuff that I proud to show off ( eh ada :p but no I dun actually like to show off, I was just under influenced ) and you know .. All the family potraIt with haPpy smiles on each faces were fake.

We're not that happy. Esp me. I'm a mess. I'm so screw up and I'm thinking.
I can live without facebook. I just know it.

And few months later, ill give up my bb.

An emo Amy.

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The Sixth

2011-10-06T21:34:00.001+08:00

Finally, i was taking the MC today. Was actually thinking yesterday when my body was a bit hot but I had much things to do at works.. i know, but i dont wanna susahkan orang lain so I tried my best. so happened that i had to wait until investment team completed their daily pricing calculation. it was almost 8pm

its just me that if i walk outside during maghrib time i usually get sick.

oh yea, its funny that yesterday I called Mr Tikus and its work related call yeah. so he was like whos this? i was like whut??. cuz he usually dont ask, he usually knows it would be me. so i was like, whut?? baru 2 hari dah tak ingat my voice! he was away for 2 days for co training. hehe :) and he laughed like hell. and said my voice sounded different. it was husky. he said that word - husky. haha and i was almost wanted to say -- sexy tak? and it was directly came to my mind that owh amy, that was flirt. u cant flirt with him!!

and i got quiet and he too. maybe he was goin to say the same thing? jeez.

owh yea, then i had to listen to him nagging for like 10 minutes. gila!

p/s : somebody didnt care.. again :( shit lah.

xoxo,

Amylia

5th Octofest

2011-10-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

Saya batuk :(

Tq for the hugs. I needed them.

xoxo,
Amylia

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pretty in pink Peonies and Blair Waldorf.

2011-10-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

just to keep myself happy.

zai, peonies means happily in marriage, sorta.. jom carik peonies hand bouquet.. tapi fresh one aku dah survey kat petaling street takder!

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3rd Octofest

2011-10-03T00:57:00.000+08:00

(˘⌣˘)ε˘ )

xoxo,
Amylia

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2nd Octofest

2011-10-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

i started my gym training :)

xoxo,
Amylia

1st Octofest

2011-10-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

Not a CapSquare virgin anymore.

xoxo
Amylia

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Oktofest!

2011-10-01T04:00:00.000+08:00

( omg when im starting to blog this, heard loud banging of some people grill... takut!!!! heard women screaming too.. but its sayup2 now... )

........

okay there were 2 screaming girls. fighting over something like 'air panas'. i dunno! i was at the yard and tried to listening. i dunno whether i should go out and check.. ok actually i was at the yard again. some guy tried to interfere and the women voices got louder.. serious scary.

but now mcm dah okay? but the movie im watching now is quite psycho pulak.

okay bradley cooper is too hot for me to ignore him and blog. so gtg now.

its October!

Leftovers Part II

2011-09-28T00:32:00.000+08:00

I admit I am lazy to do anything, even to resize the photos. So, here's part 2 : cuz Part 1 took the whole nite to publish. No, I lie :)

Aiman and Adam on 1st Raya @ Sg Marong. Lucky Adam saw Ma's Mickey Mouse yang joget2 bila dia panas.

Karak's house -- original home of Babah's before Tok moved to Bentong

Arifah posed with markisa ( passion fruit ) @ Uncle Hairi's house

layan bbm @ Uncle Hairi's house.

At the traditional rumah pahang of Uncle Hairi with Nabila.

Zai and me at Zaw's wedding - Yong Peng Johor.

Cik Jaw during Fuad's last toll. Ahh isnt toll tradition is just cute?

Awwwww Cik Jaw dah kawen!

Had putu bambu kat Ayer Itam, Johor.

Singgah Umbai, Melaka for Ikan Bakar feast. Tak sedap -- will wait for Jimbaran Ikan Bakar next year.

Thats all. Nite Nite sweet potato pie.

p/s : yes I love pet names.

My Hideout.

2011-09-27T17:43:00.001+08:00

Dear You,

xoxo,
Amy

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Leftovers

2011-09-27T00:14:00.003+08:00

So, things happened. and Yeah, dont really feel like to blog about it. Malas lah emo emo lagi. Happy happy flirting sudah... kan? Err, no?
Okay, some pics leftover since last Ramadhan. :)

First Raya - yes duit Raya!!

2nd Raya

cousins!

Daging Bakar with Sambal Kicap.

Biskut sesuka hati. Keras giler... zla buat :P

Raya Breakfast

tbc.

Me and my Bali book!

2011-09-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

I'm okay!

:)

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Its bitter

2011-09-24T04:24:00.000+08:00

but life just have to go on.

xoxo
Amylia

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so, The Decision.

2011-09-22T22:24:00.001+08:00

i think ive decided.

Goodbye, Love.

p/s : cant wait to begin the new chapter of my life and not looking back.

Sad song

2011-09-22T08:14:00.001+08:00

I don't know why everytime I got to know that Nabil is seeing someone new / whoever she could be to him, I woulld feel like my world will collapse and yeah, I would get sick and soul-less.

Sad.

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The Lonely

2011-09-14T02:00:00.000+08:00

2am, where do I begin
Crying off my face again
The silent sound of loneliness
Wants to follow me to bed

I'm the ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl
That I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Then you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again

Too afraid, to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night
For the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me till I fall asleep

I'm the ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl
That I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Then you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again

Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there's only me
And the lonely...

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Then you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again...

http://youtu.be/HO4e4nCYBEo

a month.

Berakhirnya Ramadhanku.

2011-08-30T02:46:00.000+08:00

Heylo! ive been delayed few of my iftar posts!. been busy a bit..
Last working day before Syawal was last Wednesday. So it was my final nite in KL. Also the final nite of having iftar with Zai. :( sad to even think of this...

See what Ive found.

2011-08-25T03:22:00.001+08:00

This is drawn circa May 2003 when he called and my hand scribbled while listening to his bla bla. I was so foolishly thought it was love, still is. :) but it was a very good experience.
I respect any decision he will take but no matter how much guys I flirt with, I only have 1 love that I ever felt really deep in my heart. It was GG ( back then it was spelled as Jie Jie ) :)

xoxo,
Amylia

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Mr Tikus and Me

2011-08-24T17:28:00.001+08:00

So, I've been friend with him for like 2 years now. Or, no a year I guess. Previous year was more just colleagues. Now it closer than that when I realized that we flirt with each other and didn't I tell u that he knows how much is my salary!

Anyway this year is not bad at all. Chatted few times on fb, went back together, greeted each other on NY, Valentines day, and he even messaged me on my birthday. Its wow right.. Since I have the biggest crush on him :)

And u shud see how blushing I was just now when I said selamat hari raya to him and he greeted me back so softly I almost melted. Then he told me that he will start cuti tomorrow and I said Amy pun!

So he gave out his hand to salam and I accepted it. My my ....

xoxo,
Amylia

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