Musical Life of Hushgirl

I must say this year been good to me :) so far lah and oct was nice, like my may. But though I had high n low, emo and happy, made a bad decision. But all I can say is like when I was in the month of May, I am all content and happy. And your smile :) build my world again and again. Some pics on from my bb taken during this month :) xoxo Amylia

For my belated birthday boy ;) xoxo Amylia

To the luckiest man on Earth.

Curl n frizzy hair Brown hair with bronze highlights Caramel face (tanned) Blushing cheeks I'm in love with myself xoxo Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

I had nitemares last nite. My parents got divorced, my mom remarried and became 2nd wife of our own uncle Najib :( but the funny part is uncle najib wife name Nora. Which is absolutely wrong and yeah, I know its just a dream but I was like so sedih and all. And I really felt dead and bloated at that time and everybody were like leaving me :( plus my man. When I woke up this morning, saying my love to Ma and my man. Miss him terribly and now me and the ladies, went up to Kenko for some fish spa and yeah to Quiksilver / Roxy store later. :) xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

 cant sleep. having some alone karaoke time. yes, and its smashing pumpkins nite. Goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tight May it hold you through the winter of a long night And keep you from the loneliness of yourself Heart strung is your heart frayed and empty Cause it's hard luck, when no one understands your love It's unsung, and I say Goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day Goodnight, always, to all thats pure, that's in your heart Goodnight, may your dreams be so happy and your Head light with the wishes of a sandman and a night light Be careful not to let the bedbugs... Sleep tight nestled in your covers The sun shines, but I don't A silver rain will wash away The sun shines, but I don't A silver rain will wash away And you can tell, it's just as well And you can tell, it's just as well Goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day Goodnight, always, to all that's pure, that's in your heart ...

 *bliss*

I love kids. Moreover if I have my chance to have them on my own. I guess my life would be perfect by then. But now being a very complicated person with a complicated relationship, I am very down when I have to get socialize with those normal folks. You know normal people, went to uni met the love of their lives, graduated, got married, have comel kids, or even twins, maybe have some trials n tribulation with the marriage but at least they survive and still looks perfect. I dun wanna be with them however fun it would be. Kids are getting bigger and say all the darnest thing. Why aren't you wearing a tudung auntie amy? Why aren't u not married still auntie amy? How old are you auntie amy? Arghh kids. U hate them when they turned 5. Seriously. Just don't wannabe with them this weekend. I don't know how to tell mom about this. If I straight to her she will have this look like marriage sucks, u don't wanna get married! U will end up heartbroken. And still, she...

Awwwwww Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Lost my ring n my bracelet :( -amy Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

If you know me, you'd know I'm such a drama girl. Most girls know that when they get to know me better during vacation - guys know that I'm such an emo brat which is worse. But then, yeah I was very very down today. Not really sure of why, could be the extra dosage of cough syrup I took before, or maybe its my pms cuz the menses is coming or plain reason of you know why. Dramatically I thought that I could be that down cuz of Chuck Bass. Yeah.. That bad ass finally getting all emotionally when Blair told him the father of the child she carries now. And that CB was crying in his bed. I mean, wow CB could get the nite all guys in the world want. But in the end, he was crying in his luxurious bed. Ok yeah I was crying too. Bad ass CB - now I don't feel like watching Gossip Girl cuz seeing BW with Prince Luis is like seeing myself with a new man and being happy and normal and simple. Hmm.. So back to reality, skipped heavy lunch today so I could get ...

batuk lagi :( esok g clinic lagi.... xoxo Amylia

despite all the exciting and interesting things happened over the weekend and today, i am very very jauh hati. and yea.. sometimes, i begged to God if i could just give up. p/s : being too nice doesnt guarantee a happier life. learnt it from soap operas failed to implement in real life. xoxo _ oh well.. Amylia

Aku rasa aku akan ikut jejak zai and nabil untuk jadi antara orang yang hidup tanpa facebook account. I mean, why not? The old friends kept in touch with u through facebook, yea but what's next? Do they be your truly friends? I bet not. So be it. And aku bukannya ada benda nk dibanggakan dlm facebook pun. I dun have kids, I dun bake things and let my kids chew them all, I dun have en suami to buy me this to buy me dat. I dun get invitation to posh cocktail party and buying stuff that I proud to show off ( eh ada :p but no I dun actually like to show off, I was just under influenced ) and you know .. All the family potraIt with haPpy smiles on each faces were fake. We're not that happy. Esp me. I'm a mess. I'm so screw up and I'm thinking. I can live without facebook. I just know it. And few months later, ill give up my bb. An emo Amy. Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Finally, i was taking the MC today. Was actually thinking yesterday when my body was a bit hot but I had much things to do at works.. i know, but i dont wanna susahkan orang lain so I tried my best.  so happened that i had to wait until investment team completed their daily pricing calculation. it was almost 8pm its just me that if i walk outside during maghrib time i usually get sick.  oh yea, its funny that yesterday I called Mr Tikus and its work related call yeah. so he was like whos this? i was like whut??. cuz he usually dont ask, he usually knows it would be me. so i was like, whut?? baru 2 hari dah tak ingat my voice! he was away for 2 days for co training. hehe :) and he laughed like hell. and said my voice sounded different. it was husky. he said that word - husky. haha and i was almost wanted to say -- sexy tak?  and it was directly came to my mind that owh amy, that was flirt. u cant flirt with him!! and i got quiet and he too. maybe he was goin to ...

Saya batuk :( Tq for the hugs. I needed them. xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

just to keep myself happy. zai, peonies means happily in marriage, sorta.. jom carik peonies hand bouquet.. tapi fresh one aku dah survey kat petaling street takder! Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

(˘⌣˘)ε˘ ) xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

i started my gym training :) xoxo, Amylia

Not a CapSquare virgin anymore. xoxo Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

( omg when im starting to blog this, heard loud banging of some people grill... takut!!!! heard women screaming too.. but its sayup2 now... ) ........ okay there were 2 screaming girls. fighting over something like 'air panas'. i dunno! i was at the yard and tried to listening. i dunno whether i should go out and check.. ok actually i was at the yard again. some guy tried to interfere and the women voices got louder.. serious scary. but now mcm dah okay? but the movie im watching now is quite psycho pulak. okay bradley cooper is too hot for me to ignore him and blog. so gtg now. its October!