Musical Life of Hushgirl

I think of you I haven't slept I think I do But, I don't forget My body moves Goes where I will But though I try my heart stays still It never moves Just won't be led And so my mouth waters, to be fed And you're always in my head You're always in my head This, I guess, is to tell you you're chosen out from the rest...

Something in the way he woos me... Somewhere in his smile he knows... You're asking me will my love grow I don't know I don't know  Something in the way he moves Attracts me like no other lovers ........ It's really sucks to miss someone you know You can't never have him... Xoxo Amy

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2013 - I've got my first Marc :) Excuse for the messy room, if you noticed.. Ive like too much of clothes and no where to put them :P  O yea, too many clothes, still confuse what to wear  Normal la =)  I missed my EOS too much.. havent snapped around for a while.. That was I snapped last Saturday.. since that was something I get excited about :) Just love my new bag.. My first Marc of many of them to come. Amin.  The day wasnt so sunny for more pictures to snap. It was a hazy weekend, and seriously hot. On Sunday the day wasnt really sunny too.. I missed to shoot the sun rays n stuff..  Letting my hair looks golden in the pics.. =)  Somehow managed to create a good series of photos - named it as Morning View. Inspired by Incubus of course, along with the Are You In live version on YouTube, looping for hundreds time. Shared with the special one. Ohh lapar.  xoxo Amy

its 0322 hours. i was making a very bad decision. my body was kinda sick n tired, extra long hours of working everyday.. yea i know. but craving for macchiato made me detoured to sooka sentral's starbucks. had caramel macchiato to go, drank it after dinner around 9pm. body was tired, slept at 10. malam masih muda , they says.. 0232 wake up... couldnt sleep. watching this.. the face im longing for. and i dont expect people will understand me... love, Amylia

today I heard something that I have been longing to hear thought it may not be true or sincere who am I to doubt but even if its true or even sincere it may not changing what I am now or will it? im just glad that, he tried. that shows sincerity. love, Amy

Close your eyes and ill kiss you, tomorrow ill miss you, remember that ill always be true... Ax

It's true when they said the first step is the hardest. I have been longing to blog again ever since ever. Just this morning I had the urge to admit that Twitter got me carried away with the whole micro blogging, yes I am. I am Hanyut. Though I really miss blogging. I miss writing and pour everything into this space. Not really care who's gonna read it and what people think of me, I just.. I feel like when I blog, I feel belong. Somehow, officially its already 2012 and I have been blogging nearly 10 years. Same years I knew Nabil and many other wonderful things. When everything fly us back the the early millennium, I just couldnt as for more. Actually I dont really know what Ive been writing about .. listening to Edwin McCain - I Could Not Ask For More. This is actually a song I claimed to be my love song. When I listened to it for the first time, I was not in Love. Thus, I dont really get what the lyrics meant. But I know one day If I ever gonna fall in love, I would. ...

So last Friday I went to pay the 1st payment for the Bali trip. Kakak agent was a very warm and friendly in person. I cant deny, she made me feel comfortable to talk with even though technically she was a stranger. After the transaction was complete, she still continued talking and I cant remember how the conversation be like this. "Amy dah ada bf?" I was just smiling - I still thought she was a stranger and I dont normally talk about my personal thing to a stranger ( but u blog amy! )  ~ i dont have a reader :P So I guess, from my smile and my blush, she took it as I have one. Then, she asked again. "Tunggu apa lagi?" "Tunggu apa?" yes, apparently I was being very naive. She went on and on about marriage boyfriend and all. Even startled me with, "kau ni jaga - jaga lah. Kang laki orang pulak." seriously. I didnt really tell her the whole thing, I was just nodding and giggling and listening. She said she was married to a guy she didnt lov...

"talking to the moon"  I know you're somewhere out there Somewhere far away I want you back I want you back My neighbors think I'm crazy But they don't understand You're all I have You're all I have Chorus: At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself Talking to the Moon Try to get to You In hopes you're on the other side Talking to me too Or am I a fool who sits alone Talking to the moon I'm feeling like I'm famous The talk of the town They say I've gone mad Yeah, I've gone mad But they don't know what I know Cause when the sund goes down someone's talking back Yeah, they're talking back At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself Talking to the Moon Try to get to You In hopes you're on the other side Talking to me too Or am I a fool who sits alone Talking to the moon Do you ever hear me calling? Ca...

there is a period in girl's monthly cycle that she can be super emotional, super sensitive and super hot. its really tough to juggle with all those. its depressing. and she will very very much likely to think am i disgustingly fat? is he hates me now? is he goin to leave me? omg ill die alone i am so fat bla bla bla it even crappy that she will have no mood for lyke everything. yea. and yup, thats my day. it started with gloomy morning. i was walking in drizzle of rain. i did my coding heartlessly. i talked with people who fancied me but i dont fancy them. and its karma, i tried to make a conversation with my man cuz believe me, we aint talking that much anymore. and he didnt reply. up to now. sometimes i think, he has other girl. my emo talking. hmm.. sigh. So I finished my work like 6pm. Couldnt take it anymore. get home. talked to people who fancy me. its like watering a dying beautiful flower plant. what am i talking now? the thing is, its such a crap da...

I never celebrated Valentine's. I mean, never had those formal flowers and dinner and chocs and such. The most Ive done was wishing and yep, when I was in my teen, I would exchange Valentine's with my cousin. We were pretty pathetic dont we? So this year, my man was back from up north and he bought me a Cadbury bar. I assumed that as my Valentine's chocs keke still pretty pathetic, eh? hahah kasik can la okay. Since last year, he started the tradition of wishing the v-day thing, so I was waited for his wish this year. I waited the whole 13th and nothing ( cuz last year was on 13th -- before he forget, he said ). I went to bed earlier, I didnt finish my grammy, I wanna be ready in bed when he would wish. And yes, 12++ he did. I smiled to sleep. Madness. So, that was just it. No plan for eat in or eat out or whatsoever. I planned for a quiet dinner at home, watching movie and eating the chocs. However, around 5++ I asked Zai if she wanna get cuppa, so I went to KLCC -...

Malam bulan di pagar bintang Makin indah jika di pandang Bagai gadis beri senyuman Pada bujang idaman Relai kasih ingin di manja Dengan cumbuan mesra Untuk penglipurlara Penawar dek asmara [ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/p/p_ramlee_saloma/malam_bulan_di_pagar_bintang.html ] Malam bulan di pagar bintang Tambah seri cuaca malam Murni sungguh ciptaan Tuhan Bulan bintang lampu alam Andai kata bintang menyepi Bulan tidak berseri Malam menjadi sunyi Tidak berseri lagi lyrics from  lyricsmode Happy Lovers Day xoxo - Amylia

I went to bed earlier than usual tonite, had a little bit of trouble sleeping but I managed to sleep with Radiohead's Paranoid Android. Which always successfully sent me to somewhere I feel belong. Around 2 am, woke up and thought I just couldn't continue my sleep. Instead of turning on my lappie and surf for something interesting, I went off the bed and walked to the bathroom. Later to the kitchen, made myself a glass of ribena. Its funny that I never made a perfect one for myself, its always too sweet or too little of the ribena syrup. I wonder how could I always made a perfect glass for my man every time he asked for one. So, I sat on the red couch. Turned on the telly, it was some movies on HBO and Fox. FOX has this whimpy kid diary kinda thing. Watched that, but HBO had this movie by Clint Eastwood and my fave actress, Meryl Streep. So I stayed tune to HBO. It was like 15 mins passed the premiere. I checked out the movie synopsis and it sounded interesting. So I ma...

So, the weekend is finally over! ( and so are other things, I guess..) Day 1 - drove back home. It was really quiet while I was driving, both the traffic and the passenger. But it was okay. Back home, settled some personal stuff and had big lunch and yea, played with kitties were the best thing to do at home. Day 2 - nothing much. Edited some pics, blogged, played with kitties, most of the times I was in the balcony in front of my lappie and yea, helped my colleague to check some error. Day 3 - drove to Kuantan. Only me and ma, after Temerloh the weather was bad. It was raining cat n dog at one time, and it was sunny at one time. To drive in a stormy heavy rain was scary, I was glad I made it through. Anyway, Jalan Gambang had pretty heavy traffic and it was scary again. When we got to my aunt's house, I was so glad. And was really glad to hear that designated sms beep which I missed so much. Went to ECM for a while and nearly bought this love shaped soap at Body Shop. Very V...

You're my favorite thing You're my favorite thing One that I love One so I'd die for your love And I feel lyke letting go

Semalam jaga big boi, today jaga kiddie boi. Both boys I love much. xoxo Amylia

amylia _lover or not? _ edited 00:25 : lover. 

if only life can be this sweet. luv, Amylia xx

Seems like today is the best day eva! Was actually planning with Tootsie to climb the Batu Caves but but but! The sweet gal kesiangan! I was awake lyke 7 and got ready lyke 7:40 cuz she said she would come like 7:45 haha or issit 6:45, woman?! haha So she suggested for us to just lepak and having brunch and we finally had that at PappaRich, Wangsa Maju. I dont normally see this girl, although I would say she is my bff - cuz she's like tooooo far away down in Selangor and I'm in Kay Ell and I dont drive outside KL :D So its either she wud come pick me up or I waited somewhere like Bangsar or something. I just pity her to drive jauh2 for me :D But still we spare some times to chill and stuff - to keep in touch and keep up with our lives updates. Around 1 something, reached home. Kemas-kemas sikit and made stupid jokes to my sista. Just to annoy her. I did. She hates me haha. Later evening, while waiting for some file transfer - skyping with my man before he pulang beraya. ...