Musical Life of Hushgirl

i have to blog tonite -- i said to myself when i realized that tomorrow is already December. Phew, few days left for 2011. Its been a tough year i guess.. for all aspects. Thank god we got it through.. but then this is not a post about 2011, still.. its supposed to be about November. my sweet sweet november. the overly known as november rain as well. there were happy time, lovey time, sulky time and yea, trial and tribulation time. all the negativity should be assumed as the silver lining in each cloud. u know, its classic, right. i got tested too. but i dont really feel like to blog it. its quite personal. i know, i have to handle my stress to live longer, and wiser. but then of course, still getting emo here n there. owh well... i wud always be an emo girl. no doubt about it, still ill be emo to certain people only lah. not all... why should i be emo to less significant person? seriously.... dats gedik ok. so, yeah we have the new year of islamic calendar, and some might try...

GG's abbreviation has a new meaning : Gorgeous Goalie. Proud of him :) xoxo Amylia

My fave penguin species =) Serious! xoxo Amylia

I have a good 1st day of the new muslim calendar 1433 - cuz somebody used the L word 3 times and I have so good mood I made a niceeee mashed potato. 1st attempt anyway ;) I had a biiiiittttt jer =) xoxoxo Amylia

... and it all ends. Syukur. xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour But heaven knows I'm miserable now I was looking for a job, and then I found a job And heaven knows I'm miserable now In my life Why do I give valuable time To people who don't care if I live or die ? Two lovers entwined pass me by And heaven knows I'm miserable now I was looking for a job, and then I found a job And heaven knows I'm miserable now In my life Oh, why do I give valuable time To people who don't care if I live or die ? What she asked of me at the end of the day Caligula would have blushed "You've been in the house too long" she said And I (naturally) fled In my life Why do I smile At people who I'd much rather kick in the eye ? I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour But heaven knows I'm miserable now "You've been in the house too long" she said And I (naturally) fled In my life Why do I give valuable time To ...

Hahah no lah.. Its Zai bachelorette! xoxo Amylia

This is not the attitude of obsessing other religion or culture that people think its cool to follow. Thanksgiving is a good way to look back on what we have now and to be grateful to God on all the good things we're currently livin in. To me, sometimes I forgot.. But I am very thankful for the love I have around me and the never ending love I have to give. Syukur, Alhamdulillah xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

So I managed to watch the movie - Diary of a wimpy kid. I gotta admit I love movie or show with those narration - sorta story teller thing. Some friend used to call my blog as the most expressive blog he ever read. I thought he meant I was being too emo. So back to the movie, browsed those books at the store couple of times, never bought one - lucky got the chance to watch it tonite. I had diary since I was 11. Mom didn't buy it for me, I asked them. My late sister got her journal so she could keep track of her insulin injection - and she wrote something personal too - I know cuz I read it. So I asked my mom to give me one and she handed me some corporate journal she got it for free. And I began to write ' Dear Diary'.. I almost wanted to end this blog yesterday. Don't ask me why, I'm just sick of people who free enough to read my blog but too busy to even say Hi to me. But in the end, I guess its caring enough to read my blog. I don't know, som...

I admit sometime I keep my ego up high and tried to be cool and deny that I miss him. It was just as terrible, seems everything was wrong and yea sleepless nites. In my dreams I dreamed of him and all of them were dramas and dramas. They were tiring. And pathetic at the same times. So I lose a bit of my pride just to know if he is still breathing. And some words from him were like the colorful alphabets made of rainbow and its cheered up the sad little valley. The sun rose up and shined. And the birds sang happy songs and all the children dance together. Tell me pathetically that how can I live without this angel? Bubblegum lips, I love you. xoxo Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

I feel like to listen to this song - I Cry by Shayne Ward. Yep. xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

:) but this time with sweet hot sauce and jalapeno mayo And me alone.

The smile of a bride to be :) xoxo Amylia

Not gonna cook rice again Not gonna skip gym session again Not gonna be emo and eat eat eat again. Not gonna cry for no reason. Not gonna lose my temper. Not gonna have doubts. Not gonna sleep in and be a slacker. I need coffee and my man. xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Today after office, I accompanied Zai to pick up her nikah dress :) I didn't check out when she tried it on. I might cry! Haha this is my very best buddy and she is really getting married. I confessed at times I tried to deny that she is getting into that path.. Just because I can't bear to lose a friend. Yeah, most of my gfs got married and I could say that we don't hang out like we use to. :( sad but true. Zai will go and live in Japan after the wedding. I'm so gonna miss her and my only fren for the impromptu coffee session after work. Hmmm yeah. Its just a phase. I'd be okay. Note : I went to the tailor for my dress too. My "potential boss" thought that's the dress for my wedding! xoxo Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

-infinite sadness.. xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone