It's called Quicksand

Iftar @Grandmama's Pavilion, KL

I really have no idea how to start this entry, but here I am online from my bed. I was awake from my sleep around 3 am just now and I know whats goin on for this sleeping distraction. Accompanying me now is a song from Incubus called Just a Phase. One of the favourite! Anyway up there was the collage created just now, not really nice but thats 3 am creation. Should get some credit for that. I had the Iftar session with little sis in Grandmama's Pavilion KL. The first try though. Well, not bad to me. We both had Nasi Bojari which made me a little regret cuz I finished all the rice and the chicken leg :D The paku belachan was nice. Nicer than the one I had with Zai in Precious Cafe. 

Sometimes when I'm alone, I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Yes, thats love hurts by Incubus again. I am on my random playlist, sometimes the playlist really understand me. Keep playing the suitable song to keep me sane. I'm kinda in my deep thinking I think. I think that contributes to my sleeping disorder just now. And I just hate the dream I had just now. I cant remember it but it was nasty. And I swear, before I went to sleep I felt like my bed shakes a little and I turned to my laptop and saw GG's blinking message. And there you go, a heartbeat as fast as after running on the treadmill. The body shakes a bit and damn, it was so scary. Like having thousands of butterflies in the tummy. 

We talked a little, I took this chance to tell him what I feel. I know I have a little share on the breakups and we never really talk about it. And yes, what I thought was right. I do have the share and it was between me and him. People around me could say that he surely not the right one and I dun deserve him, but the real thing is that he doesnt deserve me either. I rest the case and let God do His job. The only thing that I am certain of is my love to him is the only thing that keeping me alive now.

corny?

Serious?

OK… now the monster is awake.
It won’t rest until there’s nothing left.
Maybe ever & anon I forget about the pain.
Someone bending light comes along
& flowers lean towards the sun.
Some people fall in love & touch the sky
Some people fall in love & find quicksand.
I hover somewhere in between… I swear…
I can’t make up my mind.

Whoa, the playlist really haunted. It understands me. Scary.


Hushgirl currently listening to : Quicksand by Incubus