Musical Life of Hushgirl

At first I was thinking to do the 2011 walkthrough with pictures for every months for the last post of the year. But then I dun feel like to do it. So this is the short brief for the last post. I dun really looking forward for new year as I feel kinda lost recently. But I guess a new year is always a new beginning for anything. I just hope I will be more happier next coming years with a good health and love around me. Guess that's it. How do I spent my NYE this year? Alone in my crib with Spongebob marathon on Nickelodeon. I know I'm too hot for that, guess I'm not really worth it. Don't even had new year kiss. Sad NYE ever. Hugs, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

sedih. xAMYx

The so called "Wordless Wednesday".

im gonna blog this one short but sweet. well, at least its sweet for me. :D here goes, last nite ada budak tu cannot sleep. but sadly, i was snoozing to the max, i didnt hear his text alert. it was 2 something almost to 3, guess i was in my very deep sleep. kesian dia.... so this morning when he texted me in the office, i layan him la while writing my code. well it was a clone program, something i familiar with but just need to compile and correct the syntax error and debug to test it. kacang la. i was so multi-purpose that time. n also cuz im a gooooood gf! so after a while, we got into this small issue la. it was nothing but when i replied, dia duk senyap dah. i asked him why, dia duk senyap. i was lyke, did i say something wrong..? but then i biar jer maybe he was in the loo :D then few mins later, he texted me like this, 'working now, daaaaaaa' OMG so f annoying giler budak jahat ni! seriously i could imagine his face buat muka annoying mcm tu!! grrrrrrr. t...

Nothing much to say. Its quite a meaningful this month. Now countdown to TwentyTwelve

Supposedly today would be a wonderful day when we have been too distant physically and emotionally for so long. Maybe the other party doesnt really care much about this, and maybe I was too cool about this all the while. Came this holiday season and you know, the time of the year where all I see Love on the screen I began to find myself very alone. Snuggling on the Christmas eve and watching The Muppets on Christmas morning would be just a dream. When we care so much to take care of one's heart, we forgot to take care of ours. Hope there will be a good cartoon on telly tomorrow morning. At least, my tradition to watch cartoon on Christmas morning will cheer me up. but not A Christmas Carol please. I have met the real Mr Scrooge. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. love you like a snowflake, Amylia

Cinta hanyalah cinta, hidup dan mati untukmu Mungkinkah semua Tanya kau yang jawab Dan tentang seseorang itu pula dirimu Ku bersumpah akan mencinta mungkin dia sudah lupa? once said, it will be there forever. xoxo Amylia

countdown to 20/12/2012 dont really care anymore, i lost the love :( saddest day of my life xoxo aMylia

Wearing my ugg cuz its cold now and I'm catching cold and I don't have long pants. Pathetic, I know. xoxo Amylia

Its good to be watching Scott Pilgrim's movie when I am down with a fever. It feels like I'm 15 again and scott is my teen crush. Hmm yea, its nice to be out of reality sometimes cuz reality bites and.. Guess the meds gonna take effect now. Later. xoxo Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech As he opens the door, she rolls over... Pretends to sleep as he looks her over She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man... She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man... Can't find a better man Can't find a better man Ohh... Talkin' to herself, there's no one else who needs to know... She tells herself, oh... Memories back when she was bold and strong And waiting for the world to come along... Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man... She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man... She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man... She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man... Can't find a better man Can...

xoxo Amylia

christmas plan is off :( xoxo Amylia

Also like to be called as Mikey-cchan. I am 2 years old and my lovely owners are Jijie Letto and Amylia Aldrin ( also like to be called Roxy or Princess Leia ) She is so vain! Anyway, my 2 owners stay in KL and live in a very horrible place I'd never want to stay with them. I heard only pigeon lives there cuz their daddy called the place as pigeon hole. Right? I don't know. I love my current place. My house now has a very big garden for me to play with birds. Also, there is a tree for me and other kitties to play panjat panjat and playing monkies. Love it. Owh, the other kitties are baby and mon-mon. Both are my brother with different dad. Yes my mom is such a hottie :) I love to have my head rubbed and my owner, Amy loves to rub my tummy whenever I stretch. Hehe love it love it. Also, I am very crazy for cupcake batter. Last time, Amy made a cheese cupcake and it drove my crazy. She had to keep me in a cage so I couldn't bug her. Other that that, I really love pa...

When I was working for my 1st real job, I just healed from my broken heart and tried to adapt the working culture, yea I admitted I got a bit of stress ( which soon was a bit clinically serious ) So yeah, around 5:30 pm I will start to get on my headphone and still working but together with a blasting sound. De-stress session was on. Being a normal kid, I relieved my tense with music. And yea, I got so many cool friends, they introduced me to this band, that band.. and Im kinda musically friendly. I can listen to every genre. No limit. And I have tons of emo songs. I even have this song ( my friend sent me the mp3 : with Achtung message. He said dont listen to this more than 3 times ) Yeah, his message was so fuckingly true. Somebody could kill her/himself from that song. Serious emo. And tonite, I was watching a bit of James Bond movie : not sure which one but Roger Moore was in it. And there was this part with a music score I familiar with. And I tried to hum to remember it. An...

This one's for you and me, Living out our dreams We're all right where we should be Lift my arms out wide I open my eyes And now all I wanna see Is a sky full of lighters A sky full of lighters xoxo Princess Leia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Looks like Ma mcm tau her daughter tgh cedih2. She made this fave dish of mine - Sup ikan jenahak. ( snapper broth ) Syukur. Xoxo, Amylia

I seriously have no idea on how to start blogging again. I've been delaying few entries cuz lately I felt kinda down and all. My body is aching and yes, I need a nice back rub. But I know I just cant afford one so wait jer la. So, yeah. What's new? My bff tied the knot, went to the wedding, spent couple of nites in JB, wished my man turned out to be a rocketeer, back in KL and realized that some part of my life is changing -- need some moment to cope with it though. I feel kinda lost, anyway. I need some light to get me out of this darkness. Darkness, yes. BW used to say that CB kept bringing her into the darkness. Yes, that was the moment she lived in her fairy tale love and about to marry a Prince of Monaco. Yet, last episode 10, she was eloped ( kinda ) with CB and when CB asked her "What about your dream, fairy tale wedding .. marrying a prince?" Of course BW would reply back "My dream doesnt matter, I wanna be with you. It's always been you, yo...

Take a walk I'll hold your hands for now It's happening, it's happening Makes it hard to lose another night I'll pretend that I'm a man for now It's difficult, it's difficult To soothe a wounded heart Before you go, give me all of your love Before you go, I'll give you all of mine I'll drink water because my blood has dried It's different, it's different Than anything you've seen or heard before Take a picture, hold that smile forever I'll drink it everyday till it becomes another skin Before you go, give me all of your love Before you go, I'll give you all of mine If it makes it easier If it makes it easier to breathe Fading away Faith is a friend You make it or break it Fading away Faith is a friend You make it or break it If it makes it easier If it makes it easier Wish it could be easier I can't breathe If it makes it easier If it makes it easier to breathe Fading away Faith is a friend You make it or break it Fading awa...

i have to blog tonite -- i said to myself when i realized that tomorrow is already December. Phew, few days left for 2011. Its been a tough year i guess.. for all aspects. Thank god we got it through.. but then this is not a post about 2011, still.. its supposed to be about November. my sweet sweet november. the overly known as november rain as well. there were happy time, lovey time, sulky time and yea, trial and tribulation time. all the negativity should be assumed as the silver lining in each cloud. u know, its classic, right. i got tested too. but i dont really feel like to blog it. its quite personal. i know, i have to handle my stress to live longer, and wiser. but then of course, still getting emo here n there. owh well... i wud always be an emo girl. no doubt about it, still ill be emo to certain people only lah. not all... why should i be emo to less significant person? seriously.... dats gedik ok. so, yeah we have the new year of islamic calendar, and some might try...

GG's abbreviation has a new meaning : Gorgeous Goalie. Proud of him :) xoxo Amylia

My fave penguin species =) Serious! xoxo Amylia

I have a good 1st day of the new muslim calendar 1433 - cuz somebody used the L word 3 times and I have so good mood I made a niceeee mashed potato. 1st attempt anyway ;) I had a biiiiittttt jer =) xoxoxo Amylia

... and it all ends. Syukur. xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour But heaven knows I'm miserable now I was looking for a job, and then I found a job And heaven knows I'm miserable now In my life Why do I give valuable time To people who don't care if I live or die ? Two lovers entwined pass me by And heaven knows I'm miserable now I was looking for a job, and then I found a job And heaven knows I'm miserable now In my life Oh, why do I give valuable time To people who don't care if I live or die ? What she asked of me at the end of the day Caligula would have blushed "You've been in the house too long" she said And I (naturally) fled In my life Why do I smile At people who I'd much rather kick in the eye ? I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour But heaven knows I'm miserable now "You've been in the house too long" she said And I (naturally) fled In my life Why do I give valuable time To ...

Hahah no lah.. Its Zai bachelorette! xoxo Amylia

This is not the attitude of obsessing other religion or culture that people think its cool to follow. Thanksgiving is a good way to look back on what we have now and to be grateful to God on all the good things we're currently livin in. To me, sometimes I forgot.. But I am very thankful for the love I have around me and the never ending love I have to give. Syukur, Alhamdulillah xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

So I managed to watch the movie - Diary of a wimpy kid. I gotta admit I love movie or show with those narration - sorta story teller thing. Some friend used to call my blog as the most expressive blog he ever read. I thought he meant I was being too emo. So back to the movie, browsed those books at the store couple of times, never bought one - lucky got the chance to watch it tonite. I had diary since I was 11. Mom didn't buy it for me, I asked them. My late sister got her journal so she could keep track of her insulin injection - and she wrote something personal too - I know cuz I read it. So I asked my mom to give me one and she handed me some corporate journal she got it for free. And I began to write ' Dear Diary'.. I almost wanted to end this blog yesterday. Don't ask me why, I'm just sick of people who free enough to read my blog but too busy to even say Hi to me. But in the end, I guess its caring enough to read my blog. I don't know, som...

I admit sometime I keep my ego up high and tried to be cool and deny that I miss him. It was just as terrible, seems everything was wrong and yea sleepless nites. In my dreams I dreamed of him and all of them were dramas and dramas. They were tiring. And pathetic at the same times. So I lose a bit of my pride just to know if he is still breathing. And some words from him were like the colorful alphabets made of rainbow and its cheered up the sad little valley. The sun rose up and shined. And the birds sang happy songs and all the children dance together. Tell me pathetically that how can I live without this angel? Bubblegum lips, I love you. xoxo Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

I feel like to listen to this song - I Cry by Shayne Ward. Yep. xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

:) but this time with sweet hot sauce and jalapeno mayo And me alone.

The smile of a bride to be :) xoxo Amylia

Not gonna cook rice again Not gonna skip gym session again Not gonna be emo and eat eat eat again. Not gonna cry for no reason. Not gonna lose my temper. Not gonna have doubts. Not gonna sleep in and be a slacker. I need coffee and my man. xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Today after office, I accompanied Zai to pick up her nikah dress :) I didn't check out when she tried it on. I might cry! Haha this is my very best buddy and she is really getting married. I confessed at times I tried to deny that she is getting into that path.. Just because I can't bear to lose a friend. Yeah, most of my gfs got married and I could say that we don't hang out like we use to. :( sad but true. Zai will go and live in Japan after the wedding. I'm so gonna miss her and my only fren for the impromptu coffee session after work. Hmmm yeah. Its just a phase. I'd be okay. Note : I went to the tailor for my dress too. My "potential boss" thought that's the dress for my wedding! xoxo Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

-infinite sadness.. xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

I must say this year been good to me :) so far lah and oct was nice, like my may. But though I had high n low, emo and happy, made a bad decision. But all I can say is like when I was in the month of May, I am all content and happy. And your smile :) build my world again and again. Some pics on from my bb taken during this month :) xoxo Amylia

For my belated birthday boy ;) xoxo Amylia

To the luckiest man on Earth.

Curl n frizzy hair Brown hair with bronze highlights Caramel face (tanned) Blushing cheeks I'm in love with myself xoxo Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

I had nitemares last nite. My parents got divorced, my mom remarried and became 2nd wife of our own uncle Najib :( but the funny part is uncle najib wife name Nora. Which is absolutely wrong and yeah, I know its just a dream but I was like so sedih and all. And I really felt dead and bloated at that time and everybody were like leaving me :( plus my man. When I woke up this morning, saying my love to Ma and my man. Miss him terribly and now me and the ladies, went up to Kenko for some fish spa and yeah to Quiksilver / Roxy store later. :) xoxo, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

 cant sleep. having some alone karaoke time. yes, and its smashing pumpkins nite. Goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tight May it hold you through the winter of a long night And keep you from the loneliness of yourself Heart strung is your heart frayed and empty Cause it's hard luck, when no one understands your love It's unsung, and I say Goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day Goodnight, always, to all thats pure, that's in your heart Goodnight, may your dreams be so happy and your Head light with the wishes of a sandman and a night light Be careful not to let the bedbugs... Sleep tight nestled in your covers The sun shines, but I don't A silver rain will wash away The sun shines, but I don't A silver rain will wash away And you can tell, it's just as well And you can tell, it's just as well Goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day Goodnight, always, to all that's pure, that's in your heart ...

 *bliss*