Musical Life of Hushgirl

I felt a bit sleepy just now, I didnt feel lyke to finish the movie anyway - so I decided to just go to bed. And before I did, I took a look in the kitchen and found out my sis had not complete the laundry works. So I did. While waiting for the last spin, I went to my room to get my birth cert, and all the books n mags fell out of the shelf. And when I put them in place, saw few of my Starbucks journal that I have been collecting since 2008. I feel lyke to share them here. When I done with the laundry, grabbed my Canon and here goes as the saga continues... the journal of 2008 I drew this at Starbucks KLCC after an interview at AmBank Group, which I nailed it. But the job sucks, I left the company after 8 months the journal of 2009 - didnt write much ( i was anti 2009, still am ) this is a song lyrics written by me titled chuck n blair. somehow May 2009 had the nicest pic of the month that was so me! (except the skinny body ) the journal of 2010 - my fave...

Semalam jaga big boi, today jaga kiddie boi. Both boys I love much. xoxo Amylia

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 - biarlah ku dengan topi biruku -  Last time I hangout with tootsie and she said something lyke - biar la ku dengan jeans biruku . I kinda like it so, there goes the picture caption :) Anyway, its my dad blue cap which he paw my mom - found it at Daiso Pavi. And yes since its from Daiso, its only costs 5 rgt! Hahaha Babah snapped this pic which I kinda like it cuz its a different pose from what I usually have. And yes I love my hair - it looks damn long issit?? - despite I'm gonna lose my man soon ( or am I already have? ) I love my hair. For the time being, I only in love with myself. ( liar ) Amy - xx Note - the edited in lomo effect by photo studio for blackberry.

Clearing my sd card.

if only life can be this sweet. luv, Amylia xx

nothing much to say. enjoy the pics. seafood porridge and char kuey @ Pavi KL Laksa Sarawak @ Pavi KL homemade Chicken Lor Bak homemade prawn wonton homemade steamed grouper homemade cabbage rolls with steamed brocolli xoxo, Amylia

Seems like today is the best day eva! Was actually planning with Tootsie to climb the Batu Caves but but but! The sweet gal kesiangan! I was awake lyke 7 and got ready lyke 7:40 cuz she said she would come like 7:45 haha or issit 6:45, woman?! haha So she suggested for us to just lepak and having brunch and we finally had that at PappaRich, Wangsa Maju. I dont normally see this girl, although I would say she is my bff - cuz she's like tooooo far away down in Selangor and I'm in Kay Ell and I dont drive outside KL :D So its either she wud come pick me up or I waited somewhere like Bangsar or something. I just pity her to drive jauh2 for me :D But still we spare some times to chill and stuff - to keep in touch and keep up with our lives updates. Around 1 something, reached home. Kemas-kemas sikit and made stupid jokes to my sista. Just to annoy her. I did. She hates me haha. Later evening, while waiting for some file transfer - skyping with my man before he pulang beraya. ...

I used maggi ayam (noodle only), tuna in sunflower oil cooked with chili, onion and garlic. Then topped it off with shreded omelette.

Sarah Burke is one of my fave snow girls in Roxy snow team. Along with Torah B and Kassia M. It devastated to know when she was battling with her life in coma weeks ago and she lose it. Rest in Peace, Sarah. Forever Roxy girl. http://roxy-europe.typepad.com/en/2012/01/in-loving-memory-of-sarah-burke.html

Soo, CHY, XY,  shawty, Peter and See Tho Just feel like to post this pic. This is my colleagues and ex-collegue ( the diff one ) on her last day here sob sob., she was in the different department but we were close -- still are, anyway IT dgn Actuarial mmg "ngam" as my boss said. Just got email from her with the new email address woot woot, and 1st thing she said me is that -- hey amy, do u wanna try Air Asia? :D hahahha yea of cuz, not the FA post la.. what do u think lah! shawty, Amylia

Okay if the Mayans are wrong about their prediction that world will end in this year, 2012 I am thinking that this year I'd like to achieve something. Its the year of achievement as I would like to declare. Yup, its the best. All the best and remember it is Us against the world. Don't let the world bring you down and may the Force be with you. ( Okay dats just a phrase ) Lotsa love, Amylia

Future seems so dark now and I'm as scared as when I first saw Darth Vader or Dark Lord or Saruman. If only my life as busy as crowded Bikini Bottom with Spongebob and together we would for net fishing for jelly fish. It would be great, Princess. the one n only, AmyLeia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

So, turned out Seventeenth day didnt give me good news, guess i may just give up. Its really hard when I am alone who tried to build up a relationship, while the other party just .. I dont know. I dont even know what he's thinking. To get myself more emo-er, I decided to see his ol' marriage photos again. I just wanted to know what I felt.  And it was okay at first, the flowers, the cupcakes, the stuff.. ok. When it came to his face, I stunned.  Bagus kan, padan muka I, then my laptop shutted down itself. Maybe it didnt want me to cry, so I was like, hmm okay. Few minutes later, I saw YM icon on my blackberry. It was dear old Cali Boy. He is now in Mesia. =) He's too excited to tell he that he's in town. We chatted for a moment, cuz we havent chatted for ages, I asked him to call me cuz its like AGES since we last spoke to each other. ( actually I just wanted to listen to his malay slang which is so funny keke :P ) and he did make me laugh.. pengecau.. apa pengecau,...

I'm so gonna share this cuz I think its pretty classic. Today is the 17th day of 2012 and this early morning, around 1 am I woke uppp from my sleep cuz I dozed off earlier and the light was on. So I turned it off, ended my bb charging and tried to continue to sleep. I thought of my man and when I was about to sleep, heard the sound of his designated text message alert. He got trouble sleeping. The message conveyed at 01:17. I didn't realize it until this morning and if u know me well, I love to see this "kebetulan " stuff kekeke anyway, I realized this as well that the morning I woke up - sent him an emo text on 07:07 hours. Ok this iss madness. I'm now resuming my emo mood. C u guys later. Xoxo, Gossip Girl. Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

im goin to list 16 of my material wishes here ( cuz today so lay back but I have finished my works ) 1 - to live by the beach 2 -  urm.. 3 - hmmm seems like I only have one material wish. seriously? yeah and one more non-material wish but im not gonna put it here. jyeah. im out u know u love me - xoxo Amylia

I dont have a proper adjective for January. But since the month starts with J, I chose Jumpy. Cuz mood was jumpy, weather was jumpy, feelings was jumpy. :P~ The week started with me with a mixed feelings. You know things when you care about someone, of course you wanna show it right, somehow if the party doesnt appreciate it, then its a big sign that you're unwanted. I guess I just have to open my eyes big enough to finally realize that this is NOT a dream amy. Wake up.  So the rest of the week I kept quiet. Which, didnt mean I give him all up. I just felt like to run away.  But, why run when you want to be found? Exactly. So I didnt, So i just made myself available. Although I was physically not available.  Seriously I dont understand what Ive been typing.  Urm, so Ma stayed at the crib for the whole week. The kitchen finally completed on Thursday, what a relief. I just hate take-outs and dine-outs. I mean, just sometimes its fine but not too f...

after a year of planning. Ladies Night Out. xoxo, Amylia

xoxo Amylia

15 mins on phone with the love of my life demolished the 3 days migraine i had. it was magical. but kesian dia lak demam.. *love him big time* xoxo Amylia

2 a.m., where do I begin? Crying off my face again The silent sounds of loneliness Wants to follow me to bed I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well Dancing slowly in an empty room Can the lonely take the place of you? I sing myself a quiet lullaby Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again Too afraid to go inside For the pain of one more loveless night But the loneliness will stay with me And hold me 'til I fall asleep I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well Dancing slowly in an empty room Can the lonely take the place of you? I sing myself a quiet lullaby Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again Broken pieces of A barely breathing story Where there once was love Now there's only me and the lonely Dancing slowly in an empty room Can the lonely take the place of...

these few days I have some thoughts on what to do with my blog. one of them is to close it >> so much old stories which I dun find necessary anymore >> just feel like to be a bit mysterious >> im sick of people who read it and pretend they still have no idea >> some "sexy" pics of me might be a bit offensive. IM SORRY. but of course, ive paid Google so that i can get more of photo hosting. so, to close it? No. hushgirl.blogspot.com is my playground. i may have not much of a  food photos, travel photos, my own wedding photos, the events-i-went-to photos, -the-love-my-life photos, not like people in nu**nang ads blog. u know that kinda blog. bla bla bla photos bla bla bla photos. the so called famous wordless wednesday with un-Impressive nothing-to-tell picture. guess, im just different. so let me be. let me think of what-to-do-next. anyway, thanks for reading. its actually okay when you pretend you dont know. thats why its cal...

this is the right time to put myself in One. with The One. i got the sign. he's The One. he is. but I have to go. xoxo, Amylia

When your heart's in someone else's hands Monkey see and monkey do Their wish is your command You're not to blame Everyone's the same All you do is love and love is all you do I should know by now, the way I fought for you You're not to blame Everyone's the same I know you think that you're safe Mister Harmless deception That keeps love at bay It's the ones who resist that we most want to kiss Wouldn't you say? Cowboys and angels They all have the time for you Why should I imagine That I'd be a find for you Why should I imagine That I'd have something to say But that scar on your face That beautiful face of yours In your heart there's a trace Of someone before When your heart's in someone else's plans Things you say and things you do They don't understand It's such a shame Always ends the same You can call it love but I don't think it's true You should know by now I'm not the boy for you You're not to blame...