I was thinking about this post last Friday but since I was pretty occupied I didn't got the chance write it down. Back from KLCC, I was busy doing laundry and stuff since starting next Monday we will start the water schedule. Yes it's been very dry season here. With hazy and shallow river everywhere. Even for Sungai Pahang.
Devastated. As devastated as my social life. You see when Zai moved to Japan I was really indeed alone. Well, if she is here she will be quite occupied as well but I know we could make some time. Basically I don't have much friends to hang out with .. Pretty sad.
So other than goin out with my sister, Nana or othe cousins like Ika and Ida. Just recently tried to hang out with Ida which was so awkward cuz I was alone with her and the husband and the kids. But it was okay! When Adam got cranky and bored, papa Ijat would take him to the playground and left Aiman and Ida and me! So we got the time to gossip! Aiman pretended to be interested. Lol.
Since my sister hates me ( I don't know why ) these past weekends I had to go out alone. It was pretty sad. And I felt depressed a bit. I would go for some window shopping or real shopping and had a cuppa alone. Writing a good lengthy letter to Zai. Didn't expect a prompt reply from her but at least felt a bit relief. Or sometimes I could just read a book or write my journal, whatsapping other girls.. Those stuff..
I have never been this alone before until I fell like I need to do some amends.
I broke up things with Steve and of cuz he would be so angry and despised me, but I really think I'm in the right path. I was like, if I don't have anyone, at least i still have God beside me.
And I think I did the right thing, last Friday my colleague Cyane asked us .. We called ourselves as top bitches, lol. I know right. Geeky IT gals trying to be bitches haha .. So she asked if we had plan after work and I quickly said no, what's up ?!
To cut the story short, we then had dinner at KLCC and I felt so glad. I haven't been out on Friday night for so long!!! I am so grateful at least someone think I'm not freaky enough to share their Friday night dinner with me. Lol.. I think too much.
But really, I had good time ! It is not easy to get a new girlfriends at this moment. Most girls in my age definitely married or single with kids. Or in a serious relationship whom most of them prefer to be out with the blokes rather than ladies night out! Or maybe out with the girls, and the blokes tag along. How boring is that?! For once please be comsiderate. Esp when the girlfriend is single and u know, heartbroken..
This type you know will only interested to go out with you if they're single. Trust me.
Well, sorry for being so mellow. I was just depressed.
And I feel blessed.
Love,
Amy.