Attraversiamo alla Twenty Fifteen

Heyya.

Its 2015! Ill be 35 this year, yay!

Im sorry for a very long pause. I was actually thinking to start up a new blog. A fresh start, but i love this one too much and i am who i was, so i decided to stay.

So far, 2015 has been a bitch to me. I thought i have changed, when i realized i am not. Maybe not 100 percent. But i am now in a better shape. Physically and mentally.. There are times, when i was lost.. So lost. I couldnt see the lights.

Few days earlier, i was shocked by some news i heard from someone too dear to my heart. I ignored her for days after that. I wasnt sure i was sad cuz of her decision to elope or the fact that she found her happiness earlier than mine.

Happiness, i doubt.

But, at least.. Yeah..

So yesterday i texted her.. And she sounds happy that at least i didnt gone for too long. Whatever it is, family is still a family. I may not support her on matter like this,. But, i cant stop her to go get her happiness.

If you consider that a happiness.

Maybe i was in a bad shape when she conveyed the news. I was just quitting a more than a normal friendship with a guy who is 11 years younger than me. I know he is a kid. I sometimes got lost by his admiration over me. I think he was so sweet.

And he sulked.

And i quit. Life's too short for petty things. For surreal relationship. I was torn apart. Always the right feeling, the right timing, the wrong guy. Maybe.

So, Happy Valentines!

xxx - Amy

pretty in pink Peonies and Blair Waldorf.

just to keep myself happy. zai, peonies means happily in marriage, sorta.. jom carik peonies hand bouquet.. tapi fresh one aku dah survey kat petaling street takder! Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

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