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Emotion Sickness

I finally asked my bff a random question ive been shooting other bff to. Lol So I confessed that I have been stalking my ex- soulmate instagram account.
I mean how wouldnt i do it? I was already lost n depressed.
I thought it wont affect me.
Indeed, it did. Fucking hard.

But seeing his chubby yet high cheekbones put a smile on my face. You know the feeling when somebody who used to make you happy and hurt on the same time, its twisted yes, but im so glad i am happy seeing him happy!

Even my bff agreed he has a nice life. Good job, pretty wife and cutest couple of baby girls.
Yes im happy.
I never seen my life having all that. Maybe thats the reason.

I love you anyways.
:)

This is the last emotional entry I'll try

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