Musical Life of Hushgirl

i figure that i dont need a title. its been almost a month now for 2009. 2009 has been quite a new life for me. Starting a new job, having a car (at last!), single again (not much new though) and u know. Things like that. I am half a person who needs this new life and thinking that i should not look back. Things with Nabil was.. hmm u might have guess. I was controlling myself not to think about him that much, not to cry at nite missing him and many other stupid thing like begging him not to leave me. Well done to me, the only time i tried to reach him was on his birthday. That was just a simple sms. Definitely, no reply. Sometimes i feel like a bag full of crap to him. I am completely nothing to him. But i know i cant complaint, i am no one. And even if he cared to listen, it wont change anything. I guess im through with it. But yes.. sometimes it was so sad. So when i was about to completely forget and give him up. It was last Tuesday. I decided its ok to be single if i dun have him....

what a sucky 2009 nabil left me my mom hates me i cant talk to my dad do wishes to be dead as the same as committing suicide? =( Blogged by Amylia @ 04/01/09

phew life is so tough!!! kb trip was fine. im not goin back to kb again unless i got preggy and feel for the nasi kerabu ! night market food place. nabil been so so nice to lil amy :) happy but sometimes big amy doesnt feel contented. nabil has to appreciate her more but... do i appreciate him that much? i miss him Blogged by Amylia @ 16/12/08 : 2334 hrs

i heard a bad news today. which left me millions of question marks. i just glad i havent giving up on him and i hope i will stay right by his side. May God bless him, my Blogged by Amylia @ 24/11/08 : 2154 hrs

As Malaysian being so chaotic on the Yoga issue, i found out 1 of the thing that God gave to human that can be very very useful for the self relaxation. Through music. Well music talent is a gift dont you think. My own meditation is by listening or maybe sometimes watching the clip of Jamiroquai - Corner of the Earth. The soft funk + jazz element in this song is relaxing to the max. and Not forgotten the lyrics of the song itself. guess when your close to Nature, your get closer to God and yes.. thats one of the way for self relaxation. Well to me it is. Thanks to youtube. :) Blogged by Amylia @ 22/11/08 : 2237 hrs

i begin to feel sad and sad and sad and sad and life means work work work and work. i need to start breathing. "there was 1 morning i got up and i listened to Incubus - Love Hurts and i feel alive cuz he sang ... love hurts, but sometimes it's a good hurt and it feels like im alive.. " have a heart and try me cuz without love i wont survive. sometimes it is sad to always be with someone who i think is feelingless but i guess there were feelings but that aint for me.. guess am just gonna wait.. and wait here. aint gonna be anywhere.. Blogged by Amylia @ 09/11/08 : 0325 hrs

Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while Far is solace in the maddening pace Sad state written on my face Not a tight rope walk but dance Uncertain game of chance But Ill see it through in time Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while And if a person place or thing can deliver I will quiver with delight Tempted by the hand that could Blind my vision and sight But at twenty years of age In frolic and in rage I will see it through in time Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while But the dawn has come into the endless night And everythings going to be alright But at thirty years of age Through frolic and in rage All regressed and healed in time Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Said i, said ...