Musical Life of Hushgirl

phew life is so tough!!! kb trip was fine. im not goin back to kb again unless i got preggy and feel for the nasi kerabu ! night market food place. nabil been so so nice to lil amy :) happy but sometimes big amy doesnt feel contented. nabil has to appreciate her more but... do i appreciate him that much? i miss him Blogged by Amylia @ 16/12/08 : 2334 hrs

i heard a bad news today. which left me millions of question marks. i just glad i havent giving up on him and i hope i will stay right by his side. May God bless him, my Blogged by Amylia @ 24/11/08 : 2154 hrs

As Malaysian being so chaotic on the Yoga issue, i found out 1 of the thing that God gave to human that can be very very useful for the self relaxation. Through music. Well music talent is a gift dont you think. My own meditation is by listening or maybe sometimes watching the clip of Jamiroquai - Corner of the Earth. The soft funk + jazz element in this song is relaxing to the max. and Not forgotten the lyrics of the song itself. guess when your close to Nature, your get closer to God and yes.. thats one of the way for self relaxation. Well to me it is. Thanks to youtube. :) Blogged by Amylia @ 22/11/08 : 2237 hrs

i begin to feel sad and sad and sad and sad and life means work work work and work. i need to start breathing. "there was 1 morning i got up and i listened to Incubus - Love Hurts and i feel alive cuz he sang ... love hurts, but sometimes it's a good hurt and it feels like im alive.. " have a heart and try me cuz without love i wont survive. sometimes it is sad to always be with someone who i think is feelingless but i guess there were feelings but that aint for me.. guess am just gonna wait.. and wait here. aint gonna be anywhere.. Blogged by Amylia @ 09/11/08 : 0325 hrs

Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while Far is solace in the maddening pace Sad state written on my face Not a tight rope walk but dance Uncertain game of chance But Ill see it through in time Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while And if a person place or thing can deliver I will quiver with delight Tempted by the hand that could Blind my vision and sight But at twenty years of age In frolic and in rage I will see it through in time Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Ill be here a while But the dawn has come into the endless night And everythings going to be alright But at thirty years of age Through frolic and in rage All regressed and healed in time Ill be here a while, aint going nowhere Said i, said ...

amy just lose her Nabil :( 2002 - 2008 Blogged by Amylia @ 14/10/08 : 1531 hrs

amy rindu nabil :( Blogged by Amylia @ 11/1o/08 : 2147 hrs

Today went off not that bad!! Just as smooth as the Autumn Leaves. :) The autumn leaves Drift by my window The autumn leaves Of red and gold I see your lips The summer kisses The sunburn hands I used to hold. owh yea since i missed the smooth concert of Diana Krall (was it really on?) i dun think i can afford missing another exciting show The Mamma Mia Musical =( i need monie! Blogged by Amylia @ 07/10/08 : 1211 hrs

During the Eid Holiday, my cousin showed me 1 calculation from the Kitab of Tajul Muluk. I am not so sure this calculation is for Jodoh or Compatibility. So I did mine and Nabil. and we got 100%! .. i think its just for compatibility calculation lah! ( cuz yes we have damn BIG things in common! ) Blogged by Amylia @ 05/10/08 : 2134 hrs

the power of Love is magical. Guy from the past said hi on YM. Love made me shut down my YM cuz i dun feel like looking back now. Blogged by Amylia @ 03/10/08 : 1722 hrs

Minal Aidil wa Faizin. Blogged by Amylia @ 09/06/08 : 1201 hrs

I might say this is the most memorable Ramadhan i ever had. Last Ramadhan was a real breakdown for me, but this year.. hmmm i could say i was and still happy. The bad thing was that i skipped gym for the whole 1 month which is, duh.. i wasted the whole money on the monthly fee where i could be buying a nice kebaya top from East India Co. Well, last year Ramadhan, someone been totally changed into new leaf and tried to dump me. He then tried to have me back after Raya, which i totally neglected it. 2 major of why. Maybe cuz i thought that, that was the perfect time to try to live without him and because i was with Z. Z was a close friend.. but when Z began to commit his life with his job that required him to travel and all.. i had my breakdown again and began to miss that someone. And i had him back. And all that we had been through, i know that i have my heart for him. Him and only him, though i know that we may be not together in the future and he didnt seem to put any effort on it, i...

I woke up super excited cuz i dreamt of Nabil. :D Tihihi its like i dunno but it's always amused me. Even in my sleep. Cuz i know i miss him and i met him. Even in my sleep. He was there playing his AutoCad Wasnt it sexy? And we were at this fancy restaurant On a valentine's day And he indeed.. was my date :) ** glad to know the feeling is not distracted at all even when somebody nice is already back home. Toodles for now. Blogged by Amylia @ 19/09/08 : 0551 hrs

He never knew the meaning Of love until he'd seen her Oh man, she really drives him crazy And she knows what she's doing Heart aches, he can't fight this feeling And won't stop until he tells her She is his one and only lady And you've got to believe me If you take my hand We can run away Stay close to my love 'Cause here we go again Don't let go of my hand So we can fly away If you trust in my love This will never end She never did believe in Love until she'd seen him He's got to be pretty amazing For her to share what she's feeling She takes the chance, time for living If she wants to get with him She said you're gonna think i'm crazy but you've got to believe me sweettt :) Blogged by Amylia @ 07/09/08 : 2221 hrs

I arrived here in my hometown this morning. Had a regular check up at the family clinic. BP and sugar was ok. Weight not OK. Yep, been putting gym routine at the lowest priority does really mean i cant cut down my weight. When i got at home, normally id go to my aunts house, just beside our lot. To get the kittens come out of the cage. I was laughing when i saw Lulu was actually lie on their scratching post and was actually hugging it. But when she woke up, and went to drink the water, i saw her eye. The left eye. It was horrible. She looked so much in pain :( And so were Bobo and Danny.. Bell was ok. She looked pretty much healthy but kept sneezing. Bobo was usually active and could not stop playing now keeping himself at one place. :( So sad. Later i went out to my cousin's wedding and back home, There i found Lulu's eye was already bleeding. She couldnt meow and refused to eat her treats and it was bleeding as tears running down my eyes to see her misery :( And i cant make i...

Sometimes the editor do talk about themselves in the editorial page, don't they? :D Well, its just me. Cant help it when life is so colorful, i feel like to write down about it. Then, just excuse me. Now, how do i start? I just hope i wont be too physical about it. Or rather so emotional about it. But yes in this current time I am happy. Having a nice friends around me, having the one i fond of back to me. Why shouldn't i be one? ;) Even when I went for my cousin's wedding last Saturday I was not as depressed as I thought I could be. Maybe cause i keep imagine mine is next? And i kinda know who I am goin to spend my life with? And i keep having him around me, having him around my uncles and my dad and my cousins when they teasing me while i was making them the coffee they asked for? My Chu Yee told me he will be around for a week if its my wedding next time. I was laughing. I wasn't depressed like usual when they asked, or they teased. Cause I believed they actually pra...

Well here in Msia we dont have the 4 seasons so what the hell. But i quite anticipated for what in stores for Fall/Autumn. More dark earth / pastel shades of clothes and make ups. But lets not talk about Fall yet, we still have summer .. did we? Yes here we have. It's still August and the sun still shining during the days. Anyway im off for a late summer beach vacation in the East Coast. (and im supposed to pack!!) Anyway dun forget the sun blockers, the shades and of cuz the Ruffles skirt. (this one i got from GAP, KLCC) yes thats not the beach, thats a messy dungeon.. owh well! CHeerio! Blogged by Amylia @ 31/07/08 : 1201 hrs

2 weeks ago, the relationship as scandal upgraded into friendship. When a girl and a guy became friends, sometimes its getting more complicated and that was the sign for me to say goodbye to him and live my life solo. No dudes. No men at all. I told my gfs it would be until year end and I want to be completely no men in my heart. As such, also I believe no more men from the past. Think they have hurt me so much. For 2 weeks, men are (to me) my daddy, my bro, my cousins, my bosses, my colleagues, my business users, my mamak guy (who owns the shop downstairs of the office where I got my Milo or Low Fat Milk every morning). Ha ha ha thats all. It was weird when I completely living my life solo when I realized more men were actually smiled and checked me out when I was taking the LRT and Monorails almost everyday. I always replied their smile with a weird face signing like 'Why are you smiling at me?', 'should i smile back?' and never ever since I got my training in the Gy...

That’s the big word for today. After one to another. Whether the word is actually suits best for whole the events happened today, I am not so sure. But all I know is, yes I’m a bit envy. Friday was supposed to be an anticipated day of the week. But I began to face it with no feelings. Having the crib full of girls (the cousin who stay here half permanently – the room snatcher, my cousin – her sister and the cousin’s officemate – who engaged with a very nice guy who came from the wealthy family) Just perfect for Friday morning. I have no idea of why I was feeling a bit blue. But that’s just what I felt. Sometimes I felt a bit pity to those innocent people who I secretly dislike. But I think I just can’t stop from feeling that way. I did make a scene in the LRT this morning involving to this shouldn’t-be-named-race girl who is selfish, attitude husky voice who never knows what “Sorry” meant for. She purposely or not for all I cared, hit me when she tried to get into the train and didn’t ...

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Blogging is like having a magazine and i am my own editor :D thats the theme of my new blog. So far, i feel great about it!.

3 letters word it has few meaning anyway. one can say bye and meant it as a temporary distant. well that would probably means -- see you again! that is quite normal of bye. hello - goodbye, hi - bye. bye = see ya. i had my "Bye" today. clearly i was not cleared if my "bye" was the "bye" i meant before. but as per physical gesture, the conversation meant before, i guess thats mean a goodbye forever. para sempre. somehow its quite a relief. which i know i dont have to wait. and which i know i make other decision and which i know all this while i am wrong. ive let my emotion go over my decision. over the logical and obviously a relationship that was never meant to be saved. im now a southern girl. a girl who really tough to give a guy her heart. she afraid she would hurt again. but a southern girl may have guy like Brandon to have her heart. im just a plain southern girl. no body seems to have my heart (maybe not not if i really will have one in the future) i...