2 weeks ago, the relationship as scandal upgraded into friendship. When a girl and a guy became friends, sometimes its getting more complicated and that was the sign for me to say goodbye to him and live my life solo.
No dudes. No men at all.
I told my gfs it would be until year end and I want to be completely no men in my heart. As such, also I believe no more men from the past. Think they have hurt me so much.
For 2 weeks, men are (to me) my daddy, my bro, my cousins, my bosses, my colleagues, my business users, my mamak guy (who owns the shop downstairs of the office where I got my Milo or Low Fat Milk every morning). Ha ha ha thats all. It was weird when I completely living my life solo when I realized more men were actually smiled and checked me out when I was taking the LRT and Monorails almost everyday. I always replied their smile with a weird face signing like 'Why are you smiling at me?', 'should i smile back?' and never ever since I got my training in the Gym, I realized so many dudes smiling and saying Hi to me. Even couple of bodybuilders came to me to say Hi and taught me how to do the right weight training.
I love the attention and the solo life. I do. But I cant help it to miss the ones who close to my heart, ... yeah used to close in my heart. I have all the urge in the world to contact them back. There will be no other new ones for me. I just cant find what I need with the new ones. All I want is my old ones.
But gfs asked me to stay strong. No use to place any hopes on people who dont feel that way for me. I asked them 'how do u know they dont think of me anymore?' I know they do. They always do. I can feel them. I got sixth sense..
And yeah, yesterday I got them, 2 of them back. It was an emotional + happy day for me, but at least I know they do.. they still be thinking of me.
Blogged by Amylia @ 28/06/08 : 1031 hrs
No dudes. No men at all.
I told my gfs it would be until year end and I want to be completely no men in my heart. As such, also I believe no more men from the past. Think they have hurt me so much.
For 2 weeks, men are (to me) my daddy, my bro, my cousins, my bosses, my colleagues, my business users, my mamak guy (who owns the shop downstairs of the office where I got my Milo or Low Fat Milk every morning). Ha ha ha thats all. It was weird when I completely living my life solo when I realized more men were actually smiled and checked me out when I was taking the LRT and Monorails almost everyday. I always replied their smile with a weird face signing like 'Why are you smiling at me?', 'should i smile back?' and never ever since I got my training in the Gym, I realized so many dudes smiling and saying Hi to me. Even couple of bodybuilders came to me to say Hi and taught me how to do the right weight training.
I love the attention and the solo life. I do. But I cant help it to miss the ones who close to my heart, ... yeah used to close in my heart. I have all the urge in the world to contact them back. There will be no other new ones for me. I just cant find what I need with the new ones. All I want is my old ones.
But gfs asked me to stay strong. No use to place any hopes on people who dont feel that way for me. I asked them 'how do u know they dont think of me anymore?' I know they do. They always do. I can feel them. I got sixth sense..
And yeah, yesterday I got them, 2 of them back. It was an emotional + happy day for me, but at least I know they do.. they still be thinking of me.
Blogged by Amylia @ 28/06/08 : 1031 hrs