Musical Life of Hushgirl

Shadow is burnt, yellow dance and we turn My lashes are dry, purple teardrops I cry It don't have a price, loving you is cherry pie Cause you know that baby, I Hushgirl currently listening to : guess?

Yesterday approximately at this time, Ma said something sarcastic to Babah. Babah was filling some form pertaining the housing stuff. I seriously hate sarcasm. I tried a lot not to say something sarcastic. My nature is if I get upset, I keep quiet. When I am ok, I will blurt it out. I dont believe in sarcasm. It only makes thing worst. But I aint perfect, sometimes I went off sarcastic, through words and gesture.. not long after that I will feel bad. And its not healthy. Back to my married for 33 years parents, I know Mom is upset with something and Babah kept quiet or more accurate is, he ignored my mom sarcasm words. Maybe he knew that he deserved it. Babah sure knows he is not perfect. Of course, I was upset with Ma. Maybe also, she worked too hard and tensed so she was in her imbalanced emotion. I dunno.. When Babah completed with his stuff, he went off to watch tv. I was in front of my laptop and so was Ma. Ma said something that she upset about. I got more upset and said ...

All of the above pictures was taken by using cam phone. Pathetic... my chubby fatso picture was taken by Zai using her Samsung Omnia, edited at picnik.com The other 2 were taken by my cuhmelest Sony Ericsson - W580i  also edited at picknik.com Eversince "my" digital camera Canon Ixus 500 passed away :) Nah.. the camera got slightly rosak, and the shopboy said it wud cost MYR200 to repair ( without guarantee )  I just couldnt buy it cuz I know it will be such a waste of money. So I plan to buy a new one. Later.. birthday gift! So what I have in mind is Canon Ixus 130 ( with fish eye effect.. yey! at last, lomo stuff for commercial camera ) and it comes with a nice metallic purple pink color which is so cool. And its not that pricey.. I went around and check it out.. it really slim and rounded edge. But one thing I hate about this camera is that it is too automatic. No manual function.. if not mistaken... I am still checking it out. So the other "competitor" wo...

Yes im blogging from my office cuz I am sleepy! Eversince I heard the song Mr Brightside from The Killers last Sunday... I got this chirpy mood. So a few times already I buzz my dear ex-boyfriend aka The Monster aka the The Killer himself.  I buzzed him when I was happy so that I wont get too emo if he ignore me.. Indeed, yes he ignored me! Damn it.. though I was the one who gets emo and said 'Dun contact me again' but seriously, I wasnt myself at certain time.  He should know me better and if he doesnt, he can go to hell! No No No he cannot.. He's too sweet. He is so loveable.. he is like the morning chipy bird and cute little kitten which meow me in the morning to make my day. Gosh I love him so. Why cant he be mine? owh its Daniel birthday today... I want Ben and Jerry's! Hushgirl currently listening to : -

My sister was teasing me for being in my Cheerio mood. It was quite an accident actually. We watched the Glee Season 1 reruns on Starworld and I excused myself for a quick shower ( yeah, during menses girls are not recommended to wash their hair ) and after the shower I joined her resume watching Glee. Also, I was actually watching the Episode 15 on the Net. It was The Power of Madonna episode. I love the part Kurt and Mercedes sang 4 minutes with Cheerio performance. My sis was looking at me and she was like, OMG you are so vain! You got your Cheerio uniform. And I was startled. Not that I planned, but I was wearing my Bintang white and red singlet and my red skirts. I was Cheerio!! A fat one anyway ha ha Gosh.. at 1030 pm just now, I went into the room and felt like to sleep. But just couldnt. The bed looked so empty. My laptop was outside, I decided to bring it in and felt like blogging. But I have no idea what to say. What chu say? What did I say? What would I say? Oh gosh, I a...

Sometimes, when we run away, it doesn't mean we don't care, indeed, we care too much. I Love You. Of course, I miss blogging. I miss my blog. I miss writing. I miss writing about my emotional ramblings and my physical stuff. I miss everything about my life that I supposed to pour all in here. I miss my blog!!! So today I thought of blogging. Dont care if it gets too emo.. well, if it happened.. its just ME! -- Owh I love the new Adidas ad. I love the girl in the blue jersey.. The haircut, the attitude and the blue jersey! YES! Im beginning to appreciate "blue" nowadays.. kinda starting to appreciate other colors than pink! Of cuz, I aint PinkY.. gross!! I want one!!!! I always love Adidas and Fila for street wear.. for sports I'd choose Nike. Ahh, I just found out this girl was Agyness Deyn. Huh!!! Even she has coolest name!! Anyway, kudos to this website for the Info. Style List . Then I found her proper picture from my reliable Google Image Search. ...

I got a very tough day today. Just hope to say it out loud, but I had to .. well.. I think its too personal, but yea I am depressed, I got so emotional lately and yes, again I am depressed. but after a long long chilly shower just now, I got Adam Sandler on telly. He made me laugh. and I got this on my FB. FT is right, tomorrow is goin to be fine. At least I dont lose myself. So, I'll see you when I back from Tioman. Mwaks. Hushgirl currently listening to : Selamat Malam Faizal Tahir Adrenalin

I admit a few things happened recently that makes me feel like quitting my precious blog. Its not that I feel like quitting to write, I am a girl with letters . The moment I know what is Journal / Diary, I never stop writing. I even write in my brown school writing books, whenever my parents failed to provide me a new journal.  And once I mistakenly taken my "brown journal" to school and had the boys read it out loud to embarass me. I also think that I should make this blog private. I mean whats the purpose right, dont think much people do come and read my emotional ramblings. Too many words, too many letters. My blog doesnt seems like the blogs with Nuffnang ad. Not cute pictures and no much stuff to share. Its just a place where I feel like throwing everything in my head. I had paste the Cuai song by Butterfingers cuz I think the lyrics really meant what I feel right now. Feeling of lost, dilemma, hurt a bit.. However, since its not my own writings.. I dun...

Secara serta merta terumbang ambing Tiba-tiba kacau bilau Nyawaku melayang di bawah gerhana cahaya lampu neon Fikiran mengamuk hati berkecamuk Terpekik terlolong Langkah kau amat licik hinggaku terpedaya Batinku dipukau oleh sihir di bibirmu Guna sebelum ia kembali guna Sebelum tarikh luputnya Egoku terhina tercicir di pinggir Laluku tergelincir Salahkah ku merasa serba salah? Ya? Salahkah ku bermasalah? Otak kau memang cerdik Sungguh terperinci Batinku dipukau oleh sihir di bibirmu Untuk seketika kuhilang kawalan diri Untuk seketika kuhilang Kuhilang I used to tell Emmett that I hate when Butterfingers play in Malay. But for this one, I threw an exception. Maybe the lyrics really kena with me now.. I dunno. Maybe cuz, they are really awesome, actually. Amy in Butterfingers circa 2006 yes, untuk seketika ku hilang kawalan diri.  Hushgirl currently listening to : Cuai Butterfingers Selamat Tinggal Dunia 2005

my Life is just pathetic. Hushgirl currently listening to : -

Through the pain All my fears All the tears You were the one there Had my loss Had my gains Had it all You made me stand tall Like a rock we are I am the hope You are the FAITH We'll be forever Through all the sun and rain that comes I lOve You Hushgirl currently listening to : Hanyut Faizal Tahir Adrenalin

Hushgirl currently listening to : Why Cant There Be Love Dee Edwards

I seriously dont know how to start, but knowing this guy.. well, he had a little bit of helping me finding myself. Be there when the time I needed a shoulder to cry on. Stuff like that. Though there were black clouds and all, I only will remember the good ol times, you know. The moment, you were there and consoled me whenever the guys broke my heart. The moment you were there sharing my joyness. The moment you were there sharing your bad news. Through thick and thin, its been what.. 8 years? Here you go, Nabil. Some credits for you. and might be the last one.. I dont know, we'll see.. Hushgirl currently listening to : November Rain Guns N Roses Use Your Illusion I

Okay, I must say I was outdated about using this browser. The reason is just simply cuz I was hooked up with Mozilla Firefox and I still think Firefox is the best browser ever. So, there was one day when I checked out my blog hits and saw this IP came in my blog and I usually analyze the visitor details, then I found that this particular visitor been using Google Chrome. I got a bit of wondering how my blog will looks like in Google Chrome, cuz I developed the layout using Mozilla Firefox ( yes, my blog sucks on IE, nvm about that..) Then I got to download and install the new browser, Google Chrome. So far, I like its history navigation thing.. Cuz I usually surf the same old thing everyday.. so I dun have to go to bookmark to get the link. And I love my Caroline Gardner's skin. :) so ME. and I love that I can just double click on the phrase.. and left click to search it on Google! get Your Chrome   !!! Hushgirl currently listening to : Eh Eh Lady Gaga T...

I can think of younger days when living for my life Was everything a man could want to do I could never see tomorrow, but I was never told about the sorrow And how can you mend a broken heart? How can you stop the rain from falling down? How can you stop the sun from shining? What makes the world go round? How can you mend this broken man? How can a loser ever win? Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again I can still feel the breeze that rustles through the trees And misty memories of days gone by We could never see tomorrow, no one said a word about the sorrow And how can you mend a broken heart? How can you stop the rain from falling down? How can you stop the sun from shining? What makes the world go round? How can you mend this broken man? How can a loser ever win? Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again Hushgirl currently listening to : how can you mend a broken heart al Green

I just watched the movie - The Women . It was awesome. Im not scared of being 30 and beyond. :) Hushgirl currently listening to : Epitome Butterfingers Greatest Hits

The Myth of Abg Brandon the title up there was taken during the acoustic intimately gig held by Incubus to some very very lucky Americans. Ahh might be there were some non Americans, I dunno. But I love the gig. (the first time I saw a dude looks interesting with granny's Cardigan).. Anyway, I first watched the video when my very good chat friend, Hairul Skywalker sent me the vcd. Before they played this song, Summer Romance -- they were voices saying that the audiences should cuddle up together and you know, just to get together for the sake of this romance song. I think its a romantic song.. but it cant beats Southern Girl. That song is the real killer. The very best song to court a girl. If I were a guy, I would fully used that song :D Oki used to sing me Summer Romance, not yet Southern Girl. Sometime I missed him, the part that he finally graduated and now busy with his mainstream band.. no time for me at ALL! Thank God for facebook? :D ah I wanna paste some of th...

Actually dah lama tak dengar lagu Selamat Malam.. ( hihi lama is actually 2 days kot? ) no.. what I mean is to listen and to go deep into the song. Menghayati.. menjiwai :) So, just now bukak facebook and saw this.. I love you FT!!!.. currently the only guy that close to my heart apart from somebody who like this song also. Gosh I miss him!! Hushgirl currently listening to : obviously!