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Turn around, Bright Eyes.

a week of being 30.

people kept asking what it feels like to be 30?
honestly, I thought more about the wrinkles on my face and how I would look like if I turned 40 more than everything. Other than that, I thought about when will I put on the hijjab back and stuff. Marriage? hm.. I dun think I would ever have one.

I dunno.

Damn this song is really sad.

Turnaround bright eyes..
Every now and then I fall apart


Hmm.. many things happened this week. Keep me wonder.. I had some friendship rebound this week. Only cuz there was heart been broken. Its kinda weird to have someone 20 years older than me pouring his sadness to some childish girl like me. Maybe he only wanna share, only that I know that I am still have good ears. I listened and sometimes I gave good realistic, logical advice. Its sad to hear love is broken each day... everybody should be in love, with love.

and when It came to my turn, I was the same person of myself. The person who still dont know how to say out loud about what she feels, what she hoped for. One thing that she knows is .. its tough to cope with life now. met, lost, met again, lost again... Sometimes I felt like I am not strong for this.. This is too much..

and sometimes I need a rebound.

no. I dont need one. I can go thru this. I will.

Turnaround bright eyes..
Every now and then I fall apart


I dont feel sad when Bonnie tyler sang this, but Rachel Berry made me cry.
Touched.

maybe thats the different being 30 and 3. This song was out in 1983. I was 3 years.. but I think I remembered this song when I was 9 or 8.

I remembered to listen to careless whisper when I was 6 though :D

I guess ?!

so yea,

i really miss my man. :( I just.. i dunno, i promised not to be emo anymore, but i miss him. sometimes when I opened the door , it feels like he was there standing. and sometimes he would smile cheekily. and when he missed me so, he would kiss my chubby cheek.

:(

And I need you now tonight and I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight We'll be holding on forever


..... hmm

I went out with my dear Toots tonite :D we had blast! in a moderate way of cuz :D huhu but it was fun! its nice to keep the friendship and talked about the emo thing anyway. at least.. i dunno man, now that i have this I <3 KL tee-shirt ha ha sheeesh.. :P owh yeaa, i love this guy on youtube. he is this ray william johnson. he reviewed videos and stuff. he sounds like the old guys from techtv and I just love his reviews and stuff.

he looks like my old pal, iqwan haha i will ask him to check it out then.
sure dia bangga giler..

what else, tomorrow goin to watch this Malay flick called 'lagenda budak setan'. I dunno, I didnt read the novel but I wanna go watch cuz Farid Kamil is hot :D

at first would like to watch it with my dear couzin, nana but Mom wanna watch it too. So, ..
i dunno if I am ready.
Malay flick reminds me of my man.

pathetic eh..

my tummy is bloated and my face gets so oily.

its 3 in the morning.

Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do... a total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life, but now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say... a total eclipse of the heart


......


I should live my life and appreciate what I have around me, yes?



Hushgirl currently listening to : Total eclipse of the Heart
Glee Cast

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