Musical Life of Hushgirl

When it began and when it ends. So I completed my Gossip Girl marathon season 2 and 3 in a month. Not exactly a marathon you can say, it was series of marathon. There was this one episode in Season 3 when Chuck and Blair broke off their 1st serious relationship and B wanted to throw away all the Chuck memoirs ( i wonder if there were any jewels in the box) . She gave the box ( labelled "Old Life") out to Dorota, and as expected Dorota kept it. The moment B realized that in order to move on, she cant pretend that the bad memories never exist. She knew Chuck will also be a part of her life. Maybe, it was the past but what is future without the past. It made me thinking though, and given this very special date, 10-12-2012. When it all began, the relationship rekindled in 2010 and it broke in 2012. Yes, a coincidence you must say. But I love all this sign. I'm a seeker, I guess. So, I put up this blog again to live. This is me, this is my past. This will also be my...

Bentong - Kuala Pilah Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

went to Isetan KLCC, saw this fresh light Schwarzkopf DIY hair color and bought it. I admit I felt like to try it cuz of the Blythe doll on the package. and its not that bad :) i dun wait for so long, so the color is not really as blond as it should be. also the original roots were black. sleepyhead, Amylia

I have hard times to sleep early on Friday nite. Not becuz of routine, its just that my body is used to it. Friday nite usually is my coffee nite. So it kinda make me awake and not so sleepy although I know my body is already so very tired. Today I went for a coffee with my sis. Well kinda like our first alone at last. Since the big emo tragedy I went out with her like few times but those were grocery days and we didn't talk at all. So when she finally came to her senses, I went out with her together with the whole families, or with Ma or Ijai. Last few weeks, three of us went out for 2nd round of Avengers and that was the 1st time I saw she played jokes with our brother I almost to cry. So today around 5pm I had no mood to work already. My sis bbm me if I wanna go lepak in Pavi. I said dunno yet - felt like goin to KLCC though. So she said she wud go there - so I said ok I'd be there by 6pm. Her battery went flat and my PM asked me to join a walkthrough around 530. I sa...

I am supposed to post this yesterday but I was so tired I forgot to blog. Yesterday was my birthday, and it got so viral. Cuz yesterday I was on leave so today when I got back to work, everybody wished me. I hv no idea how they know. Even this special man sang me a happy birthday song. So he thought I had a very special birthday celebration since I took an annual leave - I just smiled n blushed. He had no idea what I had and what I felt exactly. The other friend thought I had a nice lunch today like people wud buy me lunch and whatever lah. I was like - no I had lunch alone! But I had crepe so that's okay :) I feel like being 32 ( my most awaiting age ) I should be less emo and more positive. I have my own reason why I waited to be 32 - but I guess its not that important anymore. Age is just a number - and u can't limit anything just for a pair of number but yeah, life is like that. Just like the fact of hey ure 32 - time to settle down. Or ure 32 and still not wearing tudu...

So today I went to Bukit Bintang, settled all the bills. Went alone, walked alone. I really missed Zai cuz she always the one who walked with me while I was settling my stuff, the finale part would be lepaking at the Low Yatt Starbucks and then walked to Hang Tuah station. So tonite I was alone. I didnt even had dinner there, I had take-outs and ate alone at home. Ahh, my loneliness is killing me. 10% discount on birthday month.. didnt buy much. But I'm happy :) xoxo, Amylia

It has been a tragic weekend for me but I'd like to take it as every cloud has its silver lining. At least that was something came out of his mouth, once upon a time. Having my kind of life is not easy. There were a lot of trials and tribulation, tears and obstacles, distraction and test, I had it all. However I must admit I was strong or in other words, someone has lift me up. When I was devastated, there was this man. Who listened, who heard me, who felt me, always were there for me. Sometimes, when my relationship messed up, I was like - its okay, Nabil is here. And how do I'm gonna live now that he is no longer here? :( Crestfallen, Amylia Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

leftover steak sandwich. also the potato skin and buffalo wing green curry i attempted making. it wasnt that bad :) sidekick of green curry, terung hijau with ikan bilis  sup ayam kampung sup's sidekick, bendi with sambal udang kering food taken on the month of April. This May, I started the food control =) xoxo, Amylia

created new blog =) http://berryrumble.blogspot.com/ this is a blog strictly by using my blackBerry!

so this weekend, things were so surreal. You may guess, I sometimes thought this is not Malaysia like I used to know anymore. It changes and yes, to me, personally I so against the rally thingy. Went home late on Friday nite since got so many things to do last minute. Around 7 got call from some prankster. I dont wanna talk about it. Then around 8++ had to go and said goodbye to my Indian contract vendors. They asked if its safe to be around in the office so late, I was so ashamed. Malaysia that I know should have no problem and maintain its peaceful. I was just nodding and said, police were everywhere if they need any help. I was actually planning to go to Bukit Bintang after gym, but then told that gym to be closed on Saturday so I think it would be massive riot in Bukit Bintang also.So I adjourned my bills payment routine and just stayed home. It was devastated to stay home, reading facebook newsfeed and twitter tweets.. argh, Malaysians should be better than this. But seriously, w...

havent really play my fave toy for a while since gave Teddy to loan it, so yesterday shoot few things :) and also, yesterday had the finale dinner with Zai before she fly. Maybe, the next time we will share food together will be under the sakura tree. Amin :) if, panjang jodoh and murah rezeki =) Kindori Ice Cream ~ Pineapple and Strawberry for Zai Sumiyaki Coffee for moi! Sedap sgt!!! We went to Tony Roma's cuz we cant think of other place ( i actually nak makan sushi kat Saisaki :P ) Diggin the Roma's Sampler my first ever ribeye. I am not a steak eater, I started this year. Had t-bone and this, maybe wagyu later but honestly, not a red meat fan. my fave shoot! So cute with Zai's blurred face and Choc Avalanche. Although we were so full but I told her we must stopped for our  coffee session finale. Now, who will accompany me for the coffee session.. :( Hope Zai will have a blast time in her marriage and all. I will visit her lat...

its sad but it has to go.

It's true when they said the first step is the hardest. I have been longing to blog again ever since ever. Just this morning I had the urge to admit that Twitter got me carried away with the whole micro blogging, yes I am. I am Hanyut. Though I really miss blogging. I miss writing and pour everything into this space. Not really care who's gonna read it and what people think of me, I just.. I feel like when I blog, I feel belong. Somehow, officially its already 2012 and I have been blogging nearly 10 years. Same years I knew Nabil and many other wonderful things. When everything fly us back the the early millennium, I just couldnt as for more. Actually I dont really know what Ive been writing about .. listening to Edwin McCain - I Could Not Ask For More. This is actually a song I claimed to be my love song. When I listened to it for the first time, I was not in Love. Thus, I dont really get what the lyrics meant. But I know one day If I ever gonna fall in love, I would. ...

corals salad + green tea soba + caramelized onion and shitake + sliced of chicken breast.

In a haze, a stormy haze,  I'll be round, I'll be loving you always, always,  Here I am and I'll take my time,  Here I am and I'll wait in line always, always  coldplay_lyrics

So last Friday I went to pay the 1st payment for the Bali trip. Kakak agent was a very warm and friendly in person. I cant deny, she made me feel comfortable to talk with even though technically she was a stranger. After the transaction was complete, she still continued talking and I cant remember how the conversation be like this. "Amy dah ada bf?" I was just smiling - I still thought she was a stranger and I dont normally talk about my personal thing to a stranger ( but u blog amy! )  ~ i dont have a reader :P So I guess, from my smile and my blush, she took it as I have one. Then, she asked again. "Tunggu apa lagi?" "Tunggu apa?" yes, apparently I was being very naive. She went on and on about marriage boyfriend and all. Even startled me with, "kau ni jaga - jaga lah. Kang laki orang pulak." seriously. I didnt really tell her the whole thing, I was just nodding and giggling and listening. She said she was married to a guy she didnt lov...

"talking to the moon"  I know you're somewhere out there Somewhere far away I want you back I want you back My neighbors think I'm crazy But they don't understand You're all I have You're all I have Chorus: At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself Talking to the Moon Try to get to You In hopes you're on the other side Talking to me too Or am I a fool who sits alone Talking to the moon I'm feeling like I'm famous The talk of the town They say I've gone mad Yeah, I've gone mad But they don't know what I know Cause when the sund goes down someone's talking back Yeah, they're talking back At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself Talking to the Moon Try to get to You In hopes you're on the other side Talking to me too Or am I a fool who sits alone Talking to the moon Do you ever hear me calling? Ca...

there is a period in girl's monthly cycle that she can be super emotional, super sensitive and super hot. its really tough to juggle with all those. its depressing. and she will very very much likely to think am i disgustingly fat? is he hates me now? is he goin to leave me? omg ill die alone i am so fat bla bla bla it even crappy that she will have no mood for lyke everything. yea. and yup, thats my day. it started with gloomy morning. i was walking in drizzle of rain. i did my coding heartlessly. i talked with people who fancied me but i dont fancy them. and its karma, i tried to make a conversation with my man cuz believe me, we aint talking that much anymore. and he didnt reply. up to now. sometimes i think, he has other girl. my emo talking. hmm.. sigh. So I finished my work like 6pm. Couldnt take it anymore. get home. talked to people who fancy me. its like watering a dying beautiful flower plant. what am i talking now? the thing is, its such a crap da...

I never celebrated Valentine's. I mean, never had those formal flowers and dinner and chocs and such. The most Ive done was wishing and yep, when I was in my teen, I would exchange Valentine's with my cousin. We were pretty pathetic dont we? So this year, my man was back from up north and he bought me a Cadbury bar. I assumed that as my Valentine's chocs keke still pretty pathetic, eh? hahah kasik can la okay. Since last year, he started the tradition of wishing the v-day thing, so I was waited for his wish this year. I waited the whole 13th and nothing ( cuz last year was on 13th -- before he forget, he said ). I went to bed earlier, I didnt finish my grammy, I wanna be ready in bed when he would wish. And yes, 12++ he did. I smiled to sleep. Madness. So, that was just it. No plan for eat in or eat out or whatsoever. I planned for a quiet dinner at home, watching movie and eating the chocs. However, around 5++ I asked Zai if she wanna get cuppa, so I went to KLCC -...

Malam bulan di pagar bintang Makin indah jika di pandang Bagai gadis beri senyuman Pada bujang idaman Relai kasih ingin di manja Dengan cumbuan mesra Untuk penglipurlara Penawar dek asmara [ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/p/p_ramlee_saloma/malam_bulan_di_pagar_bintang.html ] Malam bulan di pagar bintang Tambah seri cuaca malam Murni sungguh ciptaan Tuhan Bulan bintang lampu alam Andai kata bintang menyepi Bulan tidak berseri Malam menjadi sunyi Tidak berseri lagi lyrics from  lyricsmode Happy Lovers Day xoxo - Amylia

I was super excited when I heard about the Star Wars ep 1 in cinema again, now in 3d. I am a 3d movie virgin, and i was like kinda hope to watch it with my man. On a v-day.. it would be perfect. But then, now .. hmm its okay Amy, at least ure goin to watch it with your ladies. yeah i am thankful =) goin now!. yay. love, Me.

I went to bed earlier than usual tonite, had a little bit of trouble sleeping but I managed to sleep with Radiohead's Paranoid Android. Which always successfully sent me to somewhere I feel belong. Around 2 am, woke up and thought I just couldn't continue my sleep. Instead of turning on my lappie and surf for something interesting, I went off the bed and walked to the bathroom. Later to the kitchen, made myself a glass of ribena. Its funny that I never made a perfect one for myself, its always too sweet or too little of the ribena syrup. I wonder how could I always made a perfect glass for my man every time he asked for one. So, I sat on the red couch. Turned on the telly, it was some movies on HBO and Fox. FOX has this whimpy kid diary kinda thing. Watched that, but HBO had this movie by Clint Eastwood and my fave actress, Meryl Streep. So I stayed tune to HBO. It was like 15 mins passed the premiere. I checked out the movie synopsis and it sounded interesting. So I ma...

So, the weekend is finally over! ( and so are other things, I guess..) Day 1 - drove back home. It was really quiet while I was driving, both the traffic and the passenger. But it was okay. Back home, settled some personal stuff and had big lunch and yea, played with kitties were the best thing to do at home. Day 2 - nothing much. Edited some pics, blogged, played with kitties, most of the times I was in the balcony in front of my lappie and yea, helped my colleague to check some error. Day 3 - drove to Kuantan. Only me and ma, after Temerloh the weather was bad. It was raining cat n dog at one time, and it was sunny at one time. To drive in a stormy heavy rain was scary, I was glad I made it through. Anyway, Jalan Gambang had pretty heavy traffic and it was scary again. When we got to my aunt's house, I was so glad. And was really glad to hear that designated sms beep which I missed so much. Went to ECM for a while and nearly bought this love shaped soap at Body Shop. Very V...

You're my favorite thing You're my favorite thing One that I love One so I'd die for your love And I feel lyke letting go

had seafood bbq that nite in Taman Sepakat breakfast in Hai Peng Kopitiam nobody does it lyke Nana kopi ais satu, roti bakar satu! hair is flat. not rusty enough kelulut has nice beach i never been to Pulau Kapas we were FAKING it REAL smiles mommies ma ugleh roXy cak! this is my fave store in Pasar Payang do u? mok chik jual kepok walk lyke k.Linda Masjid Kristal for shalat nanaPossy last 2009 i went near the masjid with skirts,  this time I prepared shawls check out the surf. luv,  Amylia xxx

photo editor : Photo Studio for Blackberry collage maker : picnik.com xoxo, Amylia

I felt a bit sleepy just now, I didnt feel lyke to finish the movie anyway - so I decided to just go to bed. And before I did, I took a look in the kitchen and found out my sis had not complete the laundry works. So I did. While waiting for the last spin, I went to my room to get my birth cert, and all the books n mags fell out of the shelf. And when I put them in place, saw few of my Starbucks journal that I have been collecting since 2008. I feel lyke to share them here. When I done with the laundry, grabbed my Canon and here goes as the saga continues... the journal of 2008 I drew this at Starbucks KLCC after an interview at AmBank Group, which I nailed it. But the job sucks, I left the company after 8 months the journal of 2009 - didnt write much ( i was anti 2009, still am ) this is a song lyrics written by me titled chuck n blair. somehow May 2009 had the nicest pic of the month that was so me! (except the skinny body ) the journal of 2010 - my fave...