Musical Life of Hushgirl

Flock of birds  Hovering above  Into smoke  I'm turned and rise,  following them up  Still I always look up to the sky  Pray before the dawn  Cause they fly away  One minute they arrive  Next you know they're gone  Fly on Fly on, ride through  Maybe one day  I'll fly next to you  Fly on, ride through  Maybe one day  I can fly with you  Fly on

I miss sharing things with you Honestly and humblely..  I miss you

I think of you I haven't slept I think I do But, I don't forget My body moves Goes where I will But though I try my heart stays still It never moves Just won't be led And so my mouth waters, to be fed And you're always in my head You're always in my head This, I guess, is to tell you you're chosen out from the rest...

There was that one moment when I was still with my ex and my best friend Tutie was single. It was weird cuz she usually with someone and I was the one who usually single. So, one day she said - i think u will get married before me. I was like nooooo! Cuz I always thought she would be the one to get hitched before me. And she did! Last 3 years she met this nice gentleman and last Saturday precisely 23 May 2015 my bestfriend got married!  👰 Oh how i miss the Gombak days and the earlier blogging days 👯👯👯 Feeling emotional right now But happy! xoxo - Amylia

May is like a light green fields, spacious and breezy. With daisies and daffodils. With girls in their ribbons and summer dresses. Playing and running. Laughing with blushes on their cheeks. Thats how I always imagine the month of May. Ill tell you more about June.  The thing is, usually before I planned to write an entry for this blog, Id always get some other ideas. And turned out to be something else. Hmmp.. Familiar? It starts with these Two words.. What if? I had all this life rewind moment ever since 3 of my closest cousins are / had been hitched this year. Of cuz their stories are / was not really kisah cinta agung. The greatest love of all, it was just like its so happened its time for them to get wed. Something like that.. I kept thinking, that i'd be the very last in the line. Seriously.. Why? And who am i to ask why? An imperfect girl with too many flaws, i deserve this unhappy ending. At least. But I did have some thinking.. What if all this while they are all the wrong...

Latenight watching tv Wish you be here beside me Lately I have been watching Sex and the City reruns on Stw as I stay up to finish the office works. Yeah I know, no life. But, c'est la vie.  So on the last few episode it was the moment when Carrie broke the engagement up with Aidan. And she was again single.. And Three Five. Charlotte did say something like in average a person would engaged in 2 greatest love relationship ever. Is it? It doesnt make sense.. But greatest love of all.. Hummph maybe.  Obviously i had one. Maybe two. I dont know. Could it be love?  Crazy. As crazy as I would stay up for Arsenal vs Chelsea tonight. That definitely related with the two things I wrote about just now.  just me - Amy

In the middle of working crisis, I managed to watch the reruns of my fave tv shows of all time - Sex and the City And I watched the episode where Carrie dated this jazz man, Ray King And to me apart of his hyperactiveness he is a very interesting guy. I want to meet someone like that Why not? So yesterday (sunday) after ff7 we had our teh tarik session and the shop next door had its werkly jamming session. And after placing the order i went to see and there he was, tall with a very budak baik haircut looked at me with his sax on his hand. What a sight! I had super crush on him like 5 years ago and having him at least noticed my appearance was something so meaningful :) lol

I know it's over And it never really began But in my heart it was so real And you even spoke to me and said: "If you're so funny Then why are you on your own tonight? And if you're so clever Then why are you on your own tonight? If you're so very entertaining Then why are you on your own tonight? If you're so very good looking Why do you sleep alone tonight? I know because tonight is just like any other night That's why you're on your own tonight With your triumphs and your charms While they are in each other's arms"

Heyya. Its 2015! Ill be 35 this year, yay! Im sorry for a very long pause. I was actually thinking to start up a new blog. A fresh start, but i love this one too much and i am who i was, so i decided to stay. So far, 2015 has been a bitch to me. I thought i have changed, when i realized i am not. Maybe not 100 percent. But i am now in a better shape. Physically and mentally.. There are times, when i was lost.. So lost. I couldnt see the lights. Few days earlier, i was shocked by some news i heard from someone too dear to my heart. I ignored her for days after that. I wasnt sure i was sad cuz of her decision to elope or the fact that she found her happiness earlier than mine.  Happiness, i doubt.  But, at least.. Yeah..  So yesterday i texted her.. And she sounds happy that at least i didnt gone for too long. Whatever it is, family is still a family. I may not support her on matter like this,. But, i cant stop her to go get her happiness. If you consider that a happiness....