Musical Life of Hushgirl

Yang. Hanya. Seorang. Yang Cinta Mati itu ( konon-nya ), hanya aku Seorang. Hushgirl currently listening to :  --

Here I am, trying to blog about Jan 2011 and watching Alice in Wonderland. The time is 2209. We will see what wud be the time when I finish the post. ;) its 23:37. very unInspired and sleep overdose and "Alice". Hushgirl currently listening to : -- no song!

one fine evening...                   Jen : stop doing that!                   Ben : doing whut?                           i'm hanging the picture that you told me to                           i just didnt have time to do it earlier                  Jen : stop..                  Ben : don't you think its nice?                         : it might look like a sagging boob or something                 Jen : stop doing nice things to me                 Ben : whut?!           ...

There were 2 voices I love to listen to whenever I was down. They are : Brandon Boyd via " Aqueous  Transmission" John Mayer via " Daughter " I dunno. It's some kinda inspiration. Maybe. Just now when I was washing the dishes, I sang 'further down the river' 8x I felt good in my tummy. Really. John Mayer has a voice of an angel. Some kinda voice that I wanna fell asleep with. Some kinda voice I wanna hear saying Good Morning every morning. Well. Been a bit depressed today and its affecting my physical. I off from works today. I know I've been lazy and all, I really have no idea why am I not ambitious. I think I'm great at works and Im good in maintaining my relationship with my business users. Last Friday, one of my very favorite business user had her last day of work in the Company. So she invited me for the farewell lunch. I was alone from my department, sharing the lunch with the whole people in her department. Some of them I nev...

Two weeks without my lover  I'm in this boat alone  Floating down a river named emotion  Will I make it back to shore?  Or drift into the unknown  Thank you God for creating Brandon Charles Boyd, Michael Aaron Einziger, Jose Antonio Pasillas II, George A. Katunich and Chris Kilmore.  I just cant imagine what's life without Incubus. Hushgirl currently listening to :  " Aqueous Transmission" - non- stop looping for 7:46 mins - 'Morning View' - Incubus - 2001 .

few months ago when Wai chun always lepak at Miki place and played this song, I was about to ask who sing it. But I never did. I kinda like it cuz it sounds so cute. I guessed its Korean so I asked Kelvin but its really hard cuz I dunno who sing it and the title of the song. I tried to sing it to him but it turned out so kelakar. Until tonite, I thought about it and sang it to my sister. My sister told me it might be Girls' Generation and the title is Gee. Its so damn cute when I looked at the lyrics haha Definitely my baby's gonna get his new ID ringtone then haha. Hushgirl currently listening to : as above.

anyboday care, ke? but im ok OK now. Thanks for asking :D Hushgirl currently listening to : -

nak hiding. nak privacy. you all blocked. i am happy. leave me alone. Hushgirl currently listening to : hello its me by todd rundgren

I'm down a one way street With a one night stand With a one track mind Out in no man's land The punishment sometimes   Don't seem to fit the crime Yeah there's a hole in my soul But one thing I've learned For every love letter written There's another one burned So you tell me how it's gonna be this time Is it over? Is it over? 'Cause I'm blowin' out the flame Take a walk outside your mind Tell me how it feels to be The one who turns   The knife inside of me Take a look and you will find   There's nothing there, girl Yeah I swear, I'm telling you, girl yeah 'cause There's a Hole In My Soul   That's been killing me forever It's a place where a garden never grows There's a Hole In My Soul Yeah, I should have known better 'Cause your love's like a thorn without a rose Yeah, yeah I'm as dry as a seven year drought I got dust for tears Yeah I'm all tapped out Sometimes I feel broken and can't get fixed I ...

not really in the mood of writing but its already 15 days passed 2011. Anything good? these are the pictures of my 1st day in 2011. We were in Alor Setar for some family adhoc planning jalan2 and visiting my cousin who staying there. Those pictures were taken during our breakfast in Kopitiam. I dont really know the actual name of this kopitiam but its a very cool place. The owner is a local Malay, and he only sells the drinks. And the food are sold in stalls. There are stalls for cucuq, noodles, western breakfast, sweet kuehs, yong tau foo and nasi lemak. I think I miss some stalls but they are really plenty to choose from. My cousin, Ajune has 3 children after settling down with Abg Shah. Our very favourite cousin in-law. He is actually plays the role of big brother to us. I am so glad and very happy with them. From the very 1st time I knew they were couple ( back then I was still studying and bumped into them in Sunway Pyramid -- they were studying in ITM Shah Alam ) Their love st...

Semalam Januari Dua Belas. Aku bangun awal. Mandi pun cepat sebab air sejuk. Parents aku dah berkali2 suruh aku pasang pemanas air. Tapi tatau bila. Banyak duit dilaburkan untuk berpoya poya :D Macam biasa.. Apa sangat la pemanas air. Bukan penting pun. Air sejuk lagi bagus untuk "muscle - stress relief". Aku tatau terma tu dalam Bahasa. Aku "sucks" dalam Bahasa. Aku dpt A2 jer dulu masa SPM. Yang paling bosan bila bersiap ke pejabat adalah kerunsingan yang melanda semasa memilih baju apa yang akan dipakai selama 10 jam bekerja. Ye ke 10 jam? Jap.... lebih kurang la.. Selalunya, aku dah pilih baju ayang yang nak dipakai malam sebelumnya, tapi malam tadi aku emo. Sebab sudah Januari Sebelas dan aku masih "alone", jadi aku emo. Dah sudahnya aku mengambil masa selama 15 minit untuk memilih baju. Akhirnya, aku pilih satu "dress" warna putih dan merah untuk digosok. Luarnya aku pakai "cardigan" singkat warna merah jambu. Hari ini hari me...

11/1/11 maybe this year will be the awesome year ever. Amin. Hushgirl currently listening to : 11 Januari - Gigi

Since this morning I feel like to blog. But then of course there was no time in the office. Was very busy with non-stop error rectification and data investigation when I feel like its almost impossible for me to have time to develop a new requirement.. it sucks actually to blog about my works. Until now I dont even have any idea how to write. Should I be all out or should I express my feeling between the lines? Which one you prefer? I think I am very good in expressing between line. Cuz I am a shy person. I dont go direct. I gave hints. I show how I care. There were time, people may misjudge. I dont blame them. And there were time people wants more in direct approach, I advise for them to open their eyes. ok I am lost. seriously I dont know how to write. maybe Im too happy, maybe im too content. I have no complaint whatsoever ( except my dear Faizal Tahir lost again last nite :( ) ... its been a very quiet and mourning morning for me, until a nice morning greetings I received. ...

lama dah nobody called me babygirl. aishh.. *imagine urban guy a la Altimet with that voice* babygirl. .. one can just dream. Hushgirl currently listening to : -

I try to breathe Memories overtaking me I try to face them but The thought is too much to conceive I only know that I can change Everything else just stays the same So now I step out of the darkness That my life became 'cause... I just needed someone to talk to   You were just too busy with yourself You were never there for me to express how I felt I just stuffed it down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am scratching Is the bed that I have made So where were you When all this I was going through? You never took the time to ask me   Just what you could do But I never meant to fade away I never meant to fade I try to breathe Hushgirl currently listening to : Staind - Fade (2001)

Hmm.. 7 days for 2011. How's 2011 so far? I still feel like to talk about 2010 when I thought it sucks, but nope it wasnt. When shit happened, it got a little reason behind it. Shit makes you grow. Maturely and positively. However sometimes we just dont realized it. We were too sad. As Barney said,    "When I get sad, I stop being sad, and be awesome, instead. True story." Awesome!!! I've put the quote on my fb page so that I could read it everyday and feel positive. Just like when I read the quote "I wont quit" something like that. The stuff is in the gym and I havent gone to the gym yet. Damn. My uncle sent me a belated new year wish last few days. And asked whats my resolution. I said, "to go to Gym at least 3 times a week" "and how many time u already go this week" "u guess?" "not yet" =) I really miss my GG. He was in my dream last nite but it was a very bad dream. There were killings, angry p...

Kalau cinta jangan kacau Kalau sayang tak perlu marah Kalau ikhlas tak minta berbalas Serahkan cintamu Pada yang punya cinta I listen to this song along the road trip. its cute.  note : i found out somebody had the urge to get into my blogger account. hmm its not appropriate you know, if you wonder, you ask. If you care you show. Please dun doubt me if you really care, cuz if you treat me right.. you know, I never go anywhere.  Hushgirl currently listening to : -

With so much of anticipation, I welcome you, Twenty-Eleven to be a part of my exciting yet adventurous life journey. You will be the witness of me chasing the guy of my dream, coping with my career and crying over stuff. Emo stuff. Are you ready?  =) Hey Twenty-Ten has been quite an exciting year. I think its the year of rebound. I sorta bumped into my old friends and getting closer with them. Its like more on social kinda thing. There were a lot of breakups if you follow my blog, so much crying session and making up session. Its pretty colorful. Whatever it is, I am glad I went through Twenty-Ten anyway. And having to be quite sure on what I want and who I love is pretty amazing. Oh gosh I just lose my words. Im not sure whether I am so content or its just that the song Im listening just now just suitable for what I am about to say and I just got lost in words. Okay, I am so drifting away. I predict Twenty-Eleven will make me losing a person I hold so close in my heart...