Musical Life of Hushgirl

I'm so bored and sad to hear about Neymar injury. So sad... I want Brazil at least in the final.  But actually, I want Germany to beat Netherlands so bad! Baju raya! xoxo - Amy

Lyke usual, I asleep around 10++ something just now. I dont know whether the stress I denied, or its somethings wrong wit my body I just feel tired n all. Maybe cuz lack of sleep and different pattern of sleep n eating habits n what not. I dunno. But slept early and wake up again around 1++ is no fun. But had too, cuz I had some chores and packing to do. Will be outside KL for 3 days means welcoming the New Year on the road. ( there goes NY celebration again .. haiz.. Soo was excitedly wanted to celebrate high up in the Skybar and it was fully booked and he excitedly telling me that they're goin to somewhere else which is as nicer.. ) I missed those days.. Sigh. But family trip is good. Its good right, urm.. I am actually still longing for that black dress I found in Melaka. Specifically, a shop called chicas or something in the new Jusco. Damn, we were from Umbai when Nana said, hey its still early ( getting 8 pm ) lets go to the new Jusco somewhere nearby Melaka Sent...

I am sad. I am alone on the Christmas Eve. Alone. Very much alone. I am sad. I listen to Paranoid Android Nobody has sad voice like Thom Yorke "Ohhh rain now... rain now, come on rain now on me from the great height, from the great great height, height..." Toldja it was sad. It was. It's simply devastated. Its suicidal song. urm Whatever. And today in between jobs, discussion with my fucking senior, rushing to get the roasted turkey, searching for a good knife, calling on people, love, jobs again, banks and stuff. I am still sad. Thom Yorke's voice is in my head. Now I know what radiohead means. Damn, Brits. You're always the best in music So I am alone. On xmas eve. " No way November will see our goodbye When it comes December it's obvious why Nobody wants to be alone on Christmas time.." John Mayer on St Patrick's Day I said my goodbye on November I waved my hi on December Im still alone on Christmas time I am ...

Seriously I am having a hard time to blog recently. This is my so called The Entry #484. In the wee hours with Smashing Pumpkins rarities.. huh. I have my personal goal to have The Entry #500 on 1st Jan 2011. I dont know why, but I kinda looking forward to 2011.. though I know I'd be more lonelier by then. 2 of my bffs are goin on their way to a simple life, tie the knot and having a family. Both of them are leaving KL. And my cf ( cousin forever - haha of cuz its forever :P ) is goin to be transferred to her own hometown. So here I am and will always be, me and my very saturday morning.. with A x l  R o s e. Somehow a few days go, I was creating my own G n R's nite and it was their mtv marathon ( thanks You tube ) I felt like G n R has a nice way to de-stress. You sing their songs and you'll be ok! Serious!!! haha  No my point is for all these years I have been listening to them quite fanatically, I just found out how sexy Axl is.. or should I say was? :D But serious...

Hari ini saya nak berblog dlm Bahasa! Ini semua gara-gara Paku dan Belacan lah! Awak tatau saper Paku dan Belacan? Rugi bah.. diorang ni giler femes!! haha cuba cuba google. Okie, since konon2 nak berBahasa, so takleh emo emo lah. Kita blog pasal2 fizikal jer lah. so start with Friday!  Jumaat yang Best : 26 Nov 2010. Pagi tu mmg dah headache n badan mcm panas semacam. Tambah2 pulak emo diskusi dgn someone so important. Emosi terganggu.. sedar2 dah lewat ke office, so pegi clinic dptkan MC. Rasa2 mmg nak rehat la.. smlm dah gaduh2 dgn seniorku. tension... susah nak keje kalau satu team dgn orang mcm ni.. bila mintak opinion kita and kita bagitau yg kita tak berapa nk setuju, boleh pulak kita kena balun. apa kes??? pastu bila buat memandai, terus dia campak kerja kat kita. 'Okie, amylia.. can you handle it?'  wtf lah! Pegi clinic kat Sentul Boulevard, seperti biasa. Doctor pun dah kenal. Sibuk tanya keje stress ke.. malas nk ckp byk.. kang dpt ref letter kena jumpa Shri...

Nwdys, whnvr I txtng wth Nbl n fnd ot tht he 's vry vry gd in kpng e wrds shrt. Its knd crzy cz if u knw me, I wrte in fll wrds. So I ws thnkng to blg in wrds wtht "vowel" ( ths iz e excptn ) bt if  if e wrds bgn wth " vowel" ( agn an xcptn ) thn it ws OK. als if e wrds gt only a "vowel" and a "consonant" jeez.. so.. hr gs.. jeez... i hv a wrd drm lst nt. it ws me n ths gy frm e lcl hp hp scn. it ws fnny bt qt thrllng at e sm tm. ...... man... man i give up.. this is hard!!!!! Hushgirl currently listening to : nothing!

gloomy. gloomy. gloomy Monday. I had my very early morning meeting with my Users this morning and I was kinda perk up since they said my hair looked nice. Maybe also cuz the free breakfast was provided by the Company, today. Mcd Breakfast as Sausage Mc Muffin with egg, along with the black arabica coffee. Nice. But still, I feel gloomy inside. And I blame my last Sunday nite. 3 episodes of Grey's Anatomy ( like usual ) made me depressed ( like usual ) Maybe.. I should appreciate my life more than ever. You think?  gloomy doom doom. I wanna go home. Monday , still long way to go.. Hushgirl currently listening to : no music, no life. Jiwa Raga ku Hanyalah Muzik ku.

a raining friday nite inDeed! hmmm how about for some John Mayer's? Staying home alone on a Friday Flat on the floor looking back On old love Or lack thereof After all the crushes are faded And all my wishful thinking was wrong I'm jaded I hate it   John Mayer on Love Song for No One. okie finish prologue. Like what you see? I do. The moment I checked my gmail and saw this, my colleagues was so interested and asked, are you goin to buy one? I just smiled :D As much as I love the combination of pink and black, I dun think I could fit into this skimpy lingerie :D hehe maybe later.. maybe once I got the motivation. But seriously, I wont wait for the marriage to come for the ticket to buy sexy lingerie though.. I mean that is so traditional.. If you want it, just buy la.. feel beautiful and sexy for you ownself ok what... takkan nak tunggu to wear it for someone jer.. ( of course its more exciting to wear it and to show it off for someone though.. the time will...

Last night, I heard something unpleasant from my cousin's mouth. Tried not to actually think about it but it kinda bothers me. It still is, maybe I need to pour about it to someone. Maybe it just got to be poured down to the drain? Whichever simpler..? Its funny when the spoiled still bothering my Uncle Man eventhough he is having his dating session. I was lyke, 'Lets make her jealous so we will know if she is into you or whut'. Its No Thank You then. He said, the lady knows about me. Whoa.. am i so that VIP? :D but its funny though that I got my new Auntie Man :D Baby is super workaholic nowadays making the old Cougartown as sepi as Ghosttown.  (I actually hate to talk about other people in my blog)  Today,  I had my menses since yesterday. Today considered the first day and its pale me out and kinda make my sourface and all.. My boss noticed and asked whats bothering me. I wish I could tell him off.. "I am having a period pain and this is not usual.." b...

*Blogging is a lifestyle, not career* basically its all because i love to write. i could write and write and do rambles all the time. especially that i am not a person who talks a lot. ( that is why i love hang out with people who talk... i am a boring type) i dun talk much. i let my fingers do the talking. anyway, blogging is something i always love since i know what blog means. and its not long to actually grow fond of it. my first blog was this  http://lalena2.blogspot.com/  huhu pretty stupid. it was set up by some guy i was into ( even tho now I thought of it and couldnt believe it myself haha i was such a dork ) then I had my hushgirl@xanga. its no longer here. deleted.. but anyway.. xanga was quite hip at that time and i found a lot of cyber fwens. n yes, my xanga was not bad. but being me.. i dun really like spotlight.. i dun like people to read my content.. no no... i dun mind if people reading my blog. i just dun wanna to know :D so to get things hush and low, i wa...

very very unInspired. lets do quickie. 1. watched Lagenda Anak Setan in OU. 1st time driving there and it was good. Both driving xperience and the movie. At least the picture was nice, the story was so-so. 2. watched Prince of Persia in GSC Signature The Gardens. All thumbs up. Greatest film of 2010 so far. I wanna be Persian. I would look damn HOT! 3. Mom got herself a nice SE phone. I dunno what it called, im bad at mobile gadgets.. but it is touch screen. Walauweh.. ( I dun like touch screen ) 4. everyday felt tired and stuff, dunno how to study for LOMA this 28th =( die.. 5. planned with the Guys for Jogoya session this friday at Starhill :) Cant wait! 6. I miss beaches.. July to go to PD. Mom's family Day. how Lame! 7. Nana's treat at Tony Roma's Pavilion. Check out our food blog . 8. I had a scary feeling over Tarot card reading.. ngeeeee 9. No regrets. Hushgirl currently listening to : Love Hurts by Incubus

Yes im blogging from my office cuz I am sleepy! Eversince I heard the song Mr Brightside from The Killers last Sunday... I got this chirpy mood. So a few times already I buzz my dear ex-boyfriend aka The Monster aka the The Killer himself.  I buzzed him when I was happy so that I wont get too emo if he ignore me.. Indeed, yes he ignored me! Damn it.. though I was the one who gets emo and said 'Dun contact me again' but seriously, I wasnt myself at certain time.  He should know me better and if he doesnt, he can go to hell! No No No he cannot.. He's too sweet. He is so loveable.. he is like the morning chipy bird and cute little kitten which meow me in the morning to make my day. Gosh I love him so. Why cant he be mine? owh its Daniel birthday today... I want Ben and Jerry's! Hushgirl currently listening to : -

My sister was teasing me for being in my Cheerio mood. It was quite an accident actually. We watched the Glee Season 1 reruns on Starworld and I excused myself for a quick shower ( yeah, during menses girls are not recommended to wash their hair ) and after the shower I joined her resume watching Glee. Also, I was actually watching the Episode 15 on the Net. It was The Power of Madonna episode. I love the part Kurt and Mercedes sang 4 minutes with Cheerio performance. My sis was looking at me and she was like, OMG you are so vain! You got your Cheerio uniform. And I was startled. Not that I planned, but I was wearing my Bintang white and red singlet and my red skirts. I was Cheerio!! A fat one anyway ha ha Gosh.. at 1030 pm just now, I went into the room and felt like to sleep. But just couldnt. The bed looked so empty. My laptop was outside, I decided to bring it in and felt like blogging. But I have no idea what to say. What chu say? What did I say? What would I say? Oh gosh, I a...

The Myth of Abg Brandon the title up there was taken during the acoustic intimately gig held by Incubus to some very very lucky Americans. Ahh might be there were some non Americans, I dunno. But I love the gig. (the first time I saw a dude looks interesting with granny's Cardigan).. Anyway, I first watched the video when my very good chat friend, Hairul Skywalker sent me the vcd. Before they played this song, Summer Romance -- they were voices saying that the audiences should cuddle up together and you know, just to get together for the sake of this romance song. I think its a romantic song.. but it cant beats Southern Girl. That song is the real killer. The very best song to court a girl. If I were a guy, I would fully used that song :D Oki used to sing me Summer Romance, not yet Southern Girl. Sometime I missed him, the part that he finally graduated and now busy with his mainstream band.. no time for me at ALL! Thank God for facebook? :D ah I wanna paste some of th...

Dan kau bagaikan sang mentari menyinari kehidupan gelap malam kini terang tiada lain ku harap Wah! lately I dunno why I keep listening to Malay song. But ehem, of course the high quality Malay songs :D And that was Pesawat - the song entitled Rasional Emosional. The Rational Emotional. So ME !!! anyway, its been a tough week this week. Of course, its been 3 months now. Ah, so I avoid to write lengthy. Afraid I would go too emotional or writing craps. =) And the most I fear is if I start to bitch about some people. Well i have quite a list of that some people hehe but, well.. Don't give this hate a chance We've got all this love to give, you know I was supposed to meet Zai after work. I thought of buying something in Low Yatt and asked her if she wanted to join. Planned to meet up at Wisma Genting since I over heard that Fahrin Ahmad would be in Pavilion this evening. So I was thinking to menyibuk. :D Turned out Zai had to stayback and I waited like 15 minutes until I decided to...

I am so goin to lose my gfs! 1st it was Qiqi who is already having a new man in her life. A boy, actually. She is holding a Kenduri Aqiqah for the boy. I wanted to go but I dun know if I could drive to Seremban. Isk. And I asked Bonda to accompany me, but I dun see herself comfortable with the idea. Maybe despite of her wanting to see me being single and available all my life for her only.. she does want me to settle down ( like all of my friends.) Also, the driver.. Nana is hospitalized. So kesian her. I asked her to drive me to Seremban for the Kenduri. It wasnt confirmed but she had to go to the hospital so it was ok. Moreover, I dun really feel like goin cuz the other bff, Farah excitedly invite me to her house. I know I know I shouldnt feel this way But its proven in Sex & The City. When the girl still single and the other girl is settled down ( with kids ) they do not sync! No matter how great the bond is. ( Everytime I look at Mimi's baby Maryam, it hurts my soul. She is...

I am so bored and sleepy and have no feeling to do any works right now. This morning I was waking up a bit late, I didnt manage to get my gym bag ready. Supposedly today I should go to the gym. But I think I will go tomorrow. I hope I could see my big guy tonite cuz I miss him to bits. Its crazy. I feel like to see him everyday. Although just for a glance. Damn I hate this feeling. Im trying so much not to msg or call him. I dun wanna be the psycho gf. I wanna be the cool gf but I love him to bits. Ahh the L word!. Anyway, damn.. I was out of scope. I am blogging now eventhough I should be working.. and yea I got tons of work to do but I choose not :D Some people are still having lunch.. ( 2 hours.. yea right :P ) I didnt take heavy lunch. I got tuna doughnut Mom bought yesterday and a pack of Milo. It's kinda scary but I kinda have this feeling like losing the appetite. I dun feel like eating heavy things.. I only can imagining the super nice french fries. Shoestring. Extra crisp...

I have a regular menses. So far. And like most of us, girls.. I do have PMS. The so called Pre-menstruation syndrome. (it really happen ok, not us making excuse) So many guys mistakenly think girls got PMS during the menses, they are wrong. PMS is before the menses. Like me, it usually 1 week before my due. And my symptoms group in 2, physical syndrome and mental syndrome. Usually it takes turn, but sometimes unfortunately I wud have both. Which is really really uncomfortable and inconvenient. Some of my regular symptoms are : physical -------- 1. Sore n tender breasts 2. Tummy cramp 3. Sore on my back 4. Bad armpit smell (just noticed this happened recently) 5. Cramp at you-know-where area mental ------ 1. Depression 2. Feeling lazy and tiredness (state of mind) 3. Bad Temper 4. Feeling of inferiority complex 5. High appetite. Today is 11th, my due is 17th. Around that, obviously its my PMS week. Some of the mental syndrome has already started. Just last nite, back from the gym, I ate...

I was so tired yesterday, I went back when the sun went to West and the moon took over. Did you noticed the moon was so beautiful last nite? Or is it the night before? Anyway, last entry was stated that this entry would be a very long one :D We will see. I am writing down this post in my office, lunch hour break. I had couple of fresh fruit cut. Tried to eliminate the rice taking this week. Try Try Try. It was last Monday, when I dressed up for the day out with my sis. All my clothes were snugged. Especially on my arms part. My arms are huge. When I started with gym, I did a lot of weight and my arms were slimmer a bit now they are huuuuge! Damn it. So I still wear my tee. I dunno it might look ugly on me but well.. So other than trying my ass off to the gym, I tried to cut down my meal servings. And tend to start on snacking. Frequent snacks is good. A proper diet plan has 8 times of meal in a day. But its definitely not nasi lemak for breakfast, karipap for snack, nasi campur for lun...

Back in Bentong. I really hate to drive but I had to. I was out 7 am from my crib. I dun really fancy morning sunshine when I was driving - makes me sleepy, a gloomy after dawn is better. Opened my eyes a bit. I did fill up the tank at Jet Gombak. Shell of course, I was getting the V-Power one, never realized that it costs fortune. I now know that there are 3 type of gas. 95, cheapest, 97 - Ma used it and asked me to use it too and of course, red - V-power, meant for the red ferrari. :D No wonder when Ma asked me for which color I chose, I said it was red. The nozzle was red. Ma was so terrified and afraid that I would choose diesel :D well, it could happened. Since I took over this little Myvi, I think I went to the gas station on my own for less than 10 times. So, imagine. I noticed the driving was different, using the V-power. Of course felt more powerful. If things go well, tomorrow maybe will take the little myvi to Kuantan for some driving treats. She was in the lot for so long. ...