Musical Life of Hushgirl

Well here in Msia we dont have the 4 seasons so what the hell. But i quite anticipated for what in stores for Fall/Autumn. More dark earth / pastel shades of clothes and make ups. But lets not talk about Fall yet, we still have summer .. did we? Yes here we have. It's still August and the sun still shining during the days. Anyway im off for a late summer beach vacation in the East Coast. (and im supposed to pack!!) Anyway dun forget the sun blockers, the shades and of cuz the Ruffles skirt. (this one i got from GAP, KLCC) yes thats not the beach, thats a messy dungeon.. owh well! CHeerio! Blogged by Amylia @ 31/07/08 : 1201 hrs

2 weeks ago, the relationship as scandal upgraded into friendship. When a girl and a guy became friends, sometimes its getting more complicated and that was the sign for me to say goodbye to him and live my life solo. No dudes. No men at all. I told my gfs it would be until year end and I want to be completely no men in my heart. As such, also I believe no more men from the past. Think they have hurt me so much. For 2 weeks, men are (to me) my daddy, my bro, my cousins, my bosses, my colleagues, my business users, my mamak guy (who owns the shop downstairs of the office where I got my Milo or Low Fat Milk every morning). Ha ha ha thats all. It was weird when I completely living my life solo when I realized more men were actually smiled and checked me out when I was taking the LRT and Monorails almost everyday. I always replied their smile with a weird face signing like 'Why are you smiling at me?', 'should i smile back?' and never ever since I got my training in the Gy...

That’s the big word for today. After one to another. Whether the word is actually suits best for whole the events happened today, I am not so sure. But all I know is, yes I’m a bit envy. Friday was supposed to be an anticipated day of the week. But I began to face it with no feelings. Having the crib full of girls (the cousin who stay here half permanently – the room snatcher, my cousin – her sister and the cousin’s officemate – who engaged with a very nice guy who came from the wealthy family) Just perfect for Friday morning. I have no idea of why I was feeling a bit blue. But that’s just what I felt. Sometimes I felt a bit pity to those innocent people who I secretly dislike. But I think I just can’t stop from feeling that way. I did make a scene in the LRT this morning involving to this shouldn’t-be-named-race girl who is selfish, attitude husky voice who never knows what “Sorry” meant for. She purposely or not for all I cared, hit me when she tried to get into the train and didn’t ...

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Blogging is like having a magazine and i am my own editor :D thats the theme of my new blog. So far, i feel great about it!.

3 letters word it has few meaning anyway. one can say bye and meant it as a temporary distant. well that would probably means -- see you again! that is quite normal of bye. hello - goodbye, hi - bye. bye = see ya. i had my "Bye" today. clearly i was not cleared if my "bye" was the "bye" i meant before. but as per physical gesture, the conversation meant before, i guess thats mean a goodbye forever. para sempre. somehow its quite a relief. which i know i dont have to wait. and which i know i make other decision and which i know all this while i am wrong. ive let my emotion go over my decision. over the logical and obviously a relationship that was never meant to be saved. im now a southern girl. a girl who really tough to give a guy her heart. she afraid she would hurt again. but a southern girl may have guy like Brandon to have her heart. im just a plain southern girl. no body seems to have my heart (maybe not not if i really will have one in the future) i...