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The Gemini Girl and A Libra Boy

again...

You have a certain cool, laidback charm right now. Your intellect shines, and you have a gift for creating structure where none existed before. A certain level of confusion regarding your love life lifts at this time.


so true? coincidence! but we managed to end it peacefully. at least for me. I didnt cry. maybe cuz it hurts so bad? i dunno. maybe cuz im relief.

but to stay positive i think. the never-wrong formula is to think of the sweet times we had together. maybe its fake but its all act up. but again, what we dont know doesnt hurt. so be it.

to me, he is still my first and probably my last love. I dun see myself loving other guy like i love him ( again. yes im saying this cuz i havent found one.. of course )

but jie jie, if you happened to read this. i dunno - its you inside that i love, u know it and yes, you're so fucking special. i wish i was special.



Hushgirl currently listening to :
creep | radiohead

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