All I know, maybe my colorful world is a different shades of gray.
Wanted to watch Avatar today with sis, but unsuccessful online ticket booking and stuff, and I felt she doesnt really wanna go so, I stayed home. I didnt go back to my hometown cuz I didnt feel like it. I want the day off on my own. I need that. I need to think.
But I was forced to come home.. originally mom asked me to go back today but my sis wanted to tag along tomorrow so I kinda told my mom I am goin back on Saturday.
Its not that I dun wanna go home but I hate to drive. I am scared. If there is people who scared of flying. I am scared of driving. I am.
But I got to drive it also. I dun trust my sis to drive. But ok thats a diff story.
So today I was like, scrubbing the bathroom. did some laundry, wrote a love letter. Waiting. No reply. But I was positive though. Ate nasi lemak. Stared at my hips and waist. Wear my white Bintang singlet and a red shorts. Sweet. Hot Sexy. I was positive.
And I finally watched Jennifer's Body. It was depressing.
And mom's called. She nearly cried.. I nearly yelled. So life is all about her? Or US? I know I was the one who said 'hold on to him.. until we are on our own and if you need a divorce, u get one'
Its not about having my dad's dosh to have us hold on to him. I know there is a big love between my parents. Something that I never think I would have it. and Something I dun ever want to see it torn apart. I dun think there is any child who want to see the parents separated. And babah was screwed up once.. now he has to live with his responsibilities and obligations.
I dunno what else to do now. Being positive didnt last that long to me. I am numb again. Now its not about my love life. What is love? whats what? Love doesnt exist to me. I never meant to be happy, I guess.
I texted her some message. Hope she would get pretty relief. and Im goin back tomorrow and 2 weddings to go. Owh.. misery.. please.
Am goin to watch 500 days of Summer tonite. I need to cry. But I got 5 stored procedures to do. Hmm maybe the crying session needs to wait. Till then, Merry Christmas.
Hushgirl currently listening to : -
Wanted to watch Avatar today with sis, but unsuccessful online ticket booking and stuff, and I felt she doesnt really wanna go so, I stayed home. I didnt go back to my hometown cuz I didnt feel like it. I want the day off on my own. I need that. I need to think.
But I was forced to come home.. originally mom asked me to go back today but my sis wanted to tag along tomorrow so I kinda told my mom I am goin back on Saturday.
Its not that I dun wanna go home but I hate to drive. I am scared. If there is people who scared of flying. I am scared of driving. I am.
But I got to drive it also. I dun trust my sis to drive. But ok thats a diff story.
So today I was like, scrubbing the bathroom. did some laundry, wrote a love letter. Waiting. No reply. But I was positive though. Ate nasi lemak. Stared at my hips and waist. Wear my white Bintang singlet and a red shorts. Sweet. Hot Sexy. I was positive.
And I finally watched Jennifer's Body. It was depressing.
And mom's called. She nearly cried.. I nearly yelled. So life is all about her? Or US? I know I was the one who said 'hold on to him.. until we are on our own and if you need a divorce, u get one'
Its not about having my dad's dosh to have us hold on to him. I know there is a big love between my parents. Something that I never think I would have it. and Something I dun ever want to see it torn apart. I dun think there is any child who want to see the parents separated. And babah was screwed up once.. now he has to live with his responsibilities and obligations.
I dunno what else to do now. Being positive didnt last that long to me. I am numb again. Now its not about my love life. What is love? whats what? Love doesnt exist to me. I never meant to be happy, I guess.
I texted her some message. Hope she would get pretty relief. and Im goin back tomorrow and 2 weddings to go. Owh.. misery.. please.
Am goin to watch 500 days of Summer tonite. I need to cry. But I got 5 stored procedures to do. Hmm maybe the crying session needs to wait. Till then, Merry Christmas.
Hushgirl currently listening to : -
