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Meltdown

Meltdown. Crestfallen. Infinite sadness.
I am actually not sure of what exactly I'm thinking but I am terribly sad. Its just sad. Life is sad.
It could be cuz everybody is leaving someday so I got scared. Or it could be cuz my trainee was like so slowww but always thought he understands everything and even cut off my explaination so I got very pissed off when he still doing the same error. Like I clearly defined him the whole concept and he still got the wrong idea. Damn I wish I could be more patient.
So I listen to music now in my workstation, I'm sorry boss, I need music to cool me down.
And yeah so I told my lunch buddy I'd be goin somewhere for lunch. In fact I didn't go anywhere I hid myself in Kotaraya Starbucks with my fave macchiato and my whiteberry. So I could blog, so I could connect with anyone who feels like to talk. Talking about other stuff than what my lunch buddies always talk about. Marriage + pregnancy + blaa bla bla what am I supposed to say? Like seriously.
One of my closest lunch buddies is pregnant. She and the husband waited like 5 or 6 years for this miracle. I was like wow at 1st. When knowing that she having no kid and all I was like ok another loser, so I dun really feel lonely. but the fact that she is now expecting .. I was like wtf, when would it be my good news?
Ok, no I'm not praying to get pregnant haha not now!
If its halal u know I mean to get pregnant and having my own baby without a man, I would say no too. Its sucks to be alone for the 9 months and the rest of everything.
So I really salute single mothers. Wow!!!
Ok starbucks now became a noisy kopitiam I barely listen to the music. Damn.

I need a library.

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