Heyya.
Its 2015! Ill be 35 this year, yay!
Im sorry for a very long pause. I was actually thinking to start up a new blog. A fresh start, but i love this one too much and i am who i was, so i decided to stay.
So far, 2015 has been a bitch to me. I thought i have changed, when i realized i am not. Maybe not 100 percent. But i am now in a better shape. Physically and mentally.. There are times, when i was lost.. So lost. I couldnt see the lights.
Few days earlier, i was shocked by some news i heard from someone too dear to my heart. I ignored her for days after that. I wasnt sure i was sad cuz of her decision to elope or the fact that she found her happiness earlier than mine.
Happiness, i doubt.
But, at least.. Yeah..
So yesterday i texted her.. And she sounds happy that at least i didnt gone for too long. Whatever it is, family is still a family. I may not support her on matter like this,. But, i cant stop her to go get her happiness.
If you consider that a happiness.
Maybe i was in a bad shape when she conveyed the news. I was just quitting a more than a normal friendship with a guy who is 11 years younger than me. I know he is a kid. I sometimes got lost by his admiration over me. I think he was so sweet.
And he sulked.
And i quit. Life's too short for petty things. For surreal relationship. I was torn apart. Always the right feeling, the right timing, the wrong guy. Maybe.
So, Happy Valentines!
xxx - Amy