Im trying and trying not to spoil my blog with the sappy entry. But I am very very sad right now. And I dun feel like to talk to any living human about it.. hence.. here goes.
So much drama happened this morning. Works, users, boss.. my mom :( I have no idea how be as perfect as what they expected. I am trying ok.
And worst thing happened after lunch hour, me and Nabil were on the speaking term once again And yes, I am not so delighted. After all we are just friend now. And when we updated each other with current news, he was so eager to know if I were seeing anybody. And he was so eager telling me how many dates he had and how it ended. I was saying nothing after that. I switched the topic.
It seems like when I was feeling guilty not to be at his side when I thought he was in his down time..he was okay with it and clearly he doesnt even need me anyway. And what a few dates? How easy it can be for him to seek for a relationship when it was with me things are so complicated and not moving to anywhere?
I know we are friends and today I was crying in the tren, crying while washing dishes, crying in my shower and now.. I decided to end this .. all of everything. Im not goin for my old phone number again, not the old classical YM ID again, and I even remove his profile out of my friend's list in FB.
I'd rather be alone from now on :(
Hushgirl currently listening to : -
So much drama happened this morning. Works, users, boss.. my mom :( I have no idea how be as perfect as what they expected. I am trying ok.
And worst thing happened after lunch hour, me and Nabil were on the speaking term once again And yes, I am not so delighted. After all we are just friend now. And when we updated each other with current news, he was so eager to know if I were seeing anybody. And he was so eager telling me how many dates he had and how it ended. I was saying nothing after that. I switched the topic.
It seems like when I was feeling guilty not to be at his side when I thought he was in his down time..he was okay with it and clearly he doesnt even need me anyway. And what a few dates? How easy it can be for him to seek for a relationship when it was with me things are so complicated and not moving to anywhere?
I know we are friends and today I was crying in the tren, crying while washing dishes, crying in my shower and now.. I decided to end this .. all of everything. Im not goin for my old phone number again, not the old classical YM ID again, and I even remove his profile out of my friend's list in FB.
I'd rather be alone from now on :(
Hushgirl currently listening to : -
