When I was working for my 1st real job, I just healed from my broken heart and tried to adapt the working culture, yea I admitted I got a bit of stress ( which soon was a bit clinically serious ) So yeah, around 5:30 pm I will start to get on my headphone and still working but together with a blasting sound. De-stress session was on.
Being a normal kid, I relieved my tense with music. And yea, I got so many cool friends, they introduced me to this band, that band.. and Im kinda musically friendly. I can listen to every genre. No limit.
And I have tons of emo songs. I even have this song ( my friend sent me the mp3 : with Achtung message. He said dont listen to this more than 3 times ) Yeah, his message was so fuckingly true. Somebody could kill her/himself from that song. Serious emo.
And tonite, I was watching a bit of James Bond movie : not sure which one but Roger Moore was in it. And there was this part with a music score I familiar with. And I tried to hum to remember it. And I got it.
It was Paranoid Android by Radiofuckinghead.
Ok, I crossed the line. Radiohead is the most brilliant band ever!
So I logged in my youtube account and search for the video. Seriously, I never watched the video. and... It was depressing, and not so much different from what I was imagining.
I imagined to sit on a cliff by myself overlooking the wide ocean and the birds n all. Breathtaking view but you feel empty. That moment, I felt like I was giving up everything and was very ready to die. As I might think that dying was something that could make me feel in peace. So true.
But that was 5 years ago. Tonite when I listened to it even with the shits happened this week, terrible week yes it was, I could tell myself that it will be okay. It will be alright. Things will be fine.
God loves his children. God loves his children
( oh my, this is a little biblical -- but with my faith I take it was God is the most merciful and forgiveness )..
xoxo,
Amylia, The Emo Princess.
Being a normal kid, I relieved my tense with music. And yea, I got so many cool friends, they introduced me to this band, that band.. and Im kinda musically friendly. I can listen to every genre. No limit.
And I have tons of emo songs. I even have this song ( my friend sent me the mp3 : with Achtung message. He said dont listen to this more than 3 times ) Yeah, his message was so fuckingly true. Somebody could kill her/himself from that song. Serious emo.
And tonite, I was watching a bit of James Bond movie : not sure which one but Roger Moore was in it. And there was this part with a music score I familiar with. And I tried to hum to remember it. And I got it.
It was Paranoid Android by Radiofuckinghead.
Ok, I crossed the line. Radiohead is the most brilliant band ever!
So I logged in my youtube account and search for the video. Seriously, I never watched the video. and... It was depressing, and not so much different from what I was imagining.
I imagined to sit on a cliff by myself overlooking the wide ocean and the birds n all. Breathtaking view but you feel empty. That moment, I felt like I was giving up everything and was very ready to die. As I might think that dying was something that could make me feel in peace. So true.
But that was 5 years ago. Tonite when I listened to it even with the shits happened this week, terrible week yes it was, I could tell myself that it will be okay. It will be alright. Things will be fine.
God loves his children. God loves his children
( oh my, this is a little biblical -- but with my faith I take it was God is the most merciful and forgiveness )..
xoxo,
Amylia, The Emo Princess.