Long Thurs-lostday and Chuck Bass

If you know me, you'd know I'm such a drama girl. Most girls know that when they get to know me better during vacation - guys know that I'm such an emo brat which is worse. But then, yeah I was very very down today.

Not really sure of why, could be the extra dosage of cough syrup I took before, or maybe its my pms cuz the menses is coming or plain reason of you know why.

Dramatically I thought that I could be that down cuz of Chuck Bass. Yeah.. That bad ass finally getting all emotionally when Blair told him the father of the child she carries now. And that CB was crying in his bed.

I mean, wow CB could get the nite all guys in the world want. But in the end, he was crying in his luxurious bed.

Ok yeah I was crying too. Bad ass CB - now I don't feel like watching Gossip Girl cuz seeing BW with Prince Luis is like seeing myself with a new man and being happy and normal and simple.

Hmm..

So back to reality, skipped heavy lunch today so I could get some rest and went down just to get some fresh cut of guava.

In the eve went to KLCC finding some gifts but couldn't get any plus can't get the whole red velvet. Sad. Lost a bit. Went to Toys 'r Us main sylvanian families and stuff - then got into my senses back.

Guess the syrup made me sleepy again ... Ahh gotta off to la la land noww and meet my man in our small beach house. Hope can wake at 6 am I got so many things to do cuz petang nak balik bentong and think of starting my subuh solat and yea good thing stars on Friday. Hopefully. Amin.

KThxBye

Note : yea that's my dramatic pose for Chalet Girl tribute. My old roxy beanie. Love it!

I know I'm fat. But the pic was crop cuz my jiggly arm is just sexxxay!

Ok nite.

Xoxo,
Princess Roxy Leia Waldorf

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Nothing Emotional

It is another working weekend and im killing time to blog. It doesnt excite me to blog since im not emo at all. I miss Nabil. Not really sure what kinda of missing is this. Definitely not the same kind he has to me but thats purely my assumption. He said i might be wrong. Hmm 🤔 Its kinda like missing Chris Martin. Somebody u listen to too much but u know u wont get him in the end. Well, also same as with missing my old xman. The soulmate , you know. Hurm, maybe i shud miss myself me. Me in Bali. Yes i miss Bali. Your love shines

The Confession of ...

When I was 17, I had this sexual fantasy. Of course, as a teenager the curiosity is above everything. Obviously if its regarding an opposite gender, it must be related with sex. So I had this sexual fantasy involving a hot musician. Tall slim and white. :D With freaky hairdo. He is beyond HOT! and he is the very own Stefan Olsdal of Placebo. and when I know his sexual orientation.. it didnt washed out the heat.. it was getting hotter :D owh yeah, Stefan is in KL today.. I would be so close to him ( but not at the gig. ) p/s : and if u are wondering, I never had sexual fantasy on Brandon Boyd. even from this pic, I find his ribs are so sexy! i amended this pic.. to hide the girl's you-know-what. Hushgirl currently listening to : -

and All I can think of..

I thot I was ok. I lied. Today I talked to Nabil and I thought I was ok. I guessed I am. But the moment he left, I imagined things, and I know If I am ok, I wont imagine things. I kept asking myself this is what I want. Nabil as nobody and I feel nothing. What if one day he tell me that he's getting married? He found the one? or He is sleeping with someIt girl, on regular basis. Nobody's an angel. He is not. I would faint. I know half of me will die So I decided that this is it. And I promise, this is it. Its really hurts... And I thot there is somebody who would be there. I was wrong. He got back here but never seen me. Never spare some of his minutes to see me. I was completely wrong. I dunno where I am in his heart. Maybe there is no place at all. And I thought he could make me happy. Cuz he did. He is not a rebound. He is an old flame. My last torch of light. My life map. ... and now Im lost... again. note : I promise there wud be happier entries in the future. I need some ...

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