Musical Life of Hushgirl

xoxo Amylia

today I heard something that I have been longing to hear thought it may not be true or sincere who am I to doubt but even if its true or even sincere it may not changing what I am now or will it? im just glad that, he tried. that shows sincerity. love, Amy

Should I start with "what a weekend?" But I found it negative so I am not gonna use that. So, let start over. I always, though I actually feeling like in denial, I realize that I avoid to be a grown up. I refused to drive here and there - I basically still relying on my parents to drive me around, I never work in a place for more than 5 years, basically I am a commitment freak kinda person I guess? No, I am not sure, I never been in a serious relationship before, getting things serious always scare the hell of me. Yea, I guess? Actually, I always thought that I would grow up after I settled down. Like most people I know. They were childish before, still am.. but of course marriages mature them. I think I would be like them, someday.  But I didnt realize that clock ticking, people grows older and my parents getting older, I think I need to grow up. By myself.  Last Saturday I drove back to my hometown for the voting responsibility, well, Done my part now. I

*smile* I managed to to survive the First of May with no dramatic feeling. Or should I say, I didnt cry. This morning I were walking to the Market and I was thinking I need to blog. Not only cuz I have no ears listen to me now, ( yes my stories arent interesting ) but somehow, I feel like cuz today is First of May. If someone can officially move on on this date, why cant I? So I was thinking of why am I gonna blog then. And I have some pretty nasty idea. It wasnt myself, but maybe some part of me hiding. I know that I could say mean things, ( of cuz it will be meaner cuz people wont expect it from me, sweet little Amy ) that is why I always keep quiet and smile. and that is why orang pijak2 u, Amy. The Market made me happy, I didnt buy much but I got nasi lemak ( it wasnt really nice btw ) On the way back, I thought of the happy sweet little things I would blog later. But I didnt .. up until now. I had my nasi lemak with Abg Tony, was watching back the first Iron Man movi