Heyya. Its 2015! Ill be 35 this year, yay! Im sorry for a very long pause. I was actually thinking to start up a new blog. A fresh start, but i love this one too much and i am who i was, so i decided to stay. So far, 2015 has been a bitch to me. I thought i have changed, when i realized i am not. Maybe not 100 percent. But i am now in a better shape. Physically and mentally.. There are times, when i was lost.. So lost. I couldnt see the lights. Few days earlier, i was shocked by some news i heard from someone too dear to my heart. I ignored her for days after that. I wasnt sure i was sad cuz of her decision to elope or the fact that she found her happiness earlier than mine. Happiness, i doubt. But, at least.. Yeah.. So yesterday i texted her.. And she sounds happy that at least i didnt gone for too long. Whatever it is, family is still a family. I may not support her on matter like this,. But, i cant stop her to go get her happiness. If you consider that a happiness. Maybe i was i