Musical Life of Hushgirl

y'know, everytimes I see my curl roots, I would get dilemma. To rebond my hair again or to let it curls and yea, maybe color it? highlight it? And for the past few days, I made most of my friends went crazy asking them how should I have my hair done. Ha ha ha even Nadiah spilled it out. She said, 'i know when it comes to ur hair, u always make me go crazy' something like that and her sentence is really funny. it cracked me out. anyway, i did visiting my hairdresser at derrick and team. well, was actually intend to try out the e3 salon. they use schwazrkopf as well. adn 4 stamps entitle a free highlight service. who would say no? and its quite cheaper i guess.. but my hair is too fragile to take the risk. So, derrick and team always. i was opt for hair relaxing but Christina said, my hair is not that straight for relaxing. furthermore the chemical is not up to the par for my kinda hair and I will only wasted my $$. So rebonding again. flat hair again. :) but good hair smell.

I am due for the Fall/Winter simply stuff. Was actually designed one, but accidently close the canvas without save it first. And too lazy to start over. Maybe tomorrows nite. I have picked stuff from great designer labels. Well, change a bit la. Fall fashion always to me a designer label. I dunno why. Not to say that fall and winter is irrelevant to Malaysia, cuz we have this rainy season now. It was raining every evening. Begins around 3 pm. Sometimes, it was raining during lunch hour. Just great. There were times I love looking at the rain. I mean... u know, watching the raindrops. It is quite mesmerizing though. Make me wonder... and keep wondering. Life is so at the bottom nowadays. But I dun feel like to share it. Maybe one day.. its just, hmmm.. its never enough. Nites for now. note : .. am in my blue mood. my Spongebob nite pants are blue, my sleep socks are baby blue and my sleep lace top is also light blue :D Hushgirl currently listening to : I Will Survive | Cake

.. and a nice song God wants me to listen and calm my heart. You said goodbye I fell apart I fell from all we had To I never knew I needed you so bad You need to let things go I know, you told me so I've been through hell To break the spell Why did I ever let you slip away Can't stand another day without you Without the feeling I once knew I cry silently I cry inside of me I cry hopelessly Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again I cry Cause you're not here with me I cry Cause I'm lonely as can be I cry hopelessly Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again If you could see me now You would know just how How hard I try Not to wonder why I wish I could believe in something new Oh please somebody tell me it's not true (oh girl) I'll never be over you Why did I ever let you slip away Can't stand another day without you Without the feeling I once knew I cry silently I cry inside of me I cry hopelessly Cause I know I'll never breathe your l

I usually put my playlist randomly.. and tonight like fate, the playlist contains all the good ol favourite songs of mine. Simply lucky. Lets share. 01. You Are My love - Jamiroquai 02. To Be with You - Mr Big 03. Sour Girl - Stone Temple Pilots 04. Simple Kind of Life - No Doubt 05. Party Up - Hillary Duff ( cheesyyy...) 06. Apocalypse Please - Muse 07. Mencari Konklusi - Hujan 08. If you Keep losing Sleep - Silverchair 09. Luxurious - Gwen Stefani 10. Seven Days in Sunny June - Jamiroquai 11. Nora Zen - Komplot 12. Are You In? - Incubus 13. Sometimes You Cant Make it Your Own - U2( i cried during this song) 14. Too Much of Not Enough - Silverchair 15. Risalah Hati - Dewa 16. Bringin on the Heartbreak - Def Leppard 17. Cinta Mati - Agnes Monica feat Ahmad Dhani 18. Tonight, Tonight - Smashing Pumpkins 19. I Cry - Shayne Ward and i finally found the recipe of Capicolla And Asiago Pinwheels. It simply easy one, I saw Michael Bonacini made it on Cook Like a Chef on AFC. So, here goes the

I thot I was ok. I lied. Today I talked to Nabil and I thought I was ok. I guessed I am. But the moment he left, I imagined things, and I know If I am ok, I wont imagine things. I kept asking myself this is what I want. Nabil as nobody and I feel nothing. What if one day he tell me that he's getting married? He found the one? or He is sleeping with someIt girl, on regular basis. Nobody's an angel. He is not. I would faint. I know half of me will die So I decided that this is it. And I promise, this is it. Its really hurts... And I thot there is somebody who would be there. I was wrong. He got back here but never seen me. Never spare some of his minutes to see me. I was completely wrong. I dunno where I am in his heart. Maybe there is no place at all. And I thought he could make me happy. Cuz he did. He is not a rebound. He is an old flame. My last torch of light. My life map. ... and now Im lost... again. note : I promise there wud be happier entries in the future. I need some

Y'know.. its funny when we know more people, the more things get weird. Being once an IT student, I spent a lot of time in front of PC. Began from my ma's huge desktop with a huge monitor, then my own little desktop with a flat screen. Amongst the first.. and yes, now with my own laptop. To me, I just cant live without Internet. But I dun chat much, maybe yes, once ago. The ICQ period. :P love it! Im not kinda of person who chat in a chatroom.. like the mIRC stuff.. not me. To me IM is more intimate and personal and more, hopefully.. trustful. I never underestimate the power of online relationship. I had a few, guys .. girls. Sometimes, we can get our own love life through online. And with more social network program like myspace and facebook.. things are more easier. Its easier to get new friends online than on real life :D ha ha true? cuz who will say Hi to stranger.. moreover Asian dun normally do that. And if we had Hi from stranger, would we say Hi back? No right? So being

WHOA!!!! its been like ages! ha ha.. Gosh I have so much to tell. Anyway, well.. lets go on something physical! Last weekend was a ladies day out, me mom and my sis. me and mom had movie together, bought the sis b'day present and later the eve, my sis came n joined us and we had some cakes hehehe ( well we didnt finished the carrot cake, had it to go and spent 3 days to finish it.. the cream cheese toppings r to die for) So, the cakes were from The olive Tree @Pavilion. The tiramisu is awesome! what else? owh I spent some good ol debts on Dorothy Perkins. Argh was thinking to NOT to shop, but I got this nice knitted pink top and leggings :D And yes at last got the Fashion Forward member card :) that nite? urm.. I dun remember what we had that nite, but I know after moments we reached home, Ijai and Babah arrived.. and yes, we had dine out and we had KFC at Sentul Boulevard. You know KFC in there was operated by some disabled staff. Well I have nothing against it.. its pretty cool.

Well... it was raining everyday in November isnt it? :D And I have been skipping lotsa gym session cuz of rain. And still chicken to drive to the gym. owh well.. Last Saturday I accompanied Ma to watch this malay movie called Pisau Cukur. I admit I dun really watch malay movies in the cinema unless, well .. with my parents of course ha ha :D So what I can say about this this that if the jokes are minimized and budget is maximized, it would bomb! I love the pair Fazura and Aaron. So, out of 5, I give 3! It was fashion week in Pavilion and I snapped some pics of Maxis Blackberry promotion with the designer skin. Pretty cool for the pink skin. I like. Will upload the pics later. So, had nasi padang in the food court and had some The Olive Tree cakes - tiramisu and delish carrot cake. Simply a guilty pleasure. One a girl couldt resist! yey.. We reached home around 6 and I got online. and ... damn, so gonna cont tomorrow. The cough is killing me. Goin to the clinic tomorrow! *i mish you!* H

hmmm its either gonna be a very long one or a very short one. I had my LOMA exam last Monday and it was damn tough. And when I wasnt the only one who complaint, then it was tough! The thing is that, the question are all direct. So u have to memorize. Its not the thing I am into. I am a case study kinda student. I like to related the formula or the theory to a case and analyze it. Not the direct questions like define this, define that, The correct characteristic is .. bla bla bla.. well... And talking about having to read it your own. Hurgh!! I have no idea hows the score wud be like. I hope I wud pass. im goin to sleep.. the sorethroat is killing me =( and yes, if u wondering, I am not OK. Hushgirl currently listening to : Aqueous Tranmission | Incubus | Morning View