Musical Life of Hushgirl

I wonder what guys were thinking or feeling at the moment they held somebody hands and doing the akad..  Seriously what could be the real feeling?

Maybe he is dead. 

Flock of birds  Hovering above  Into smoke  I'm turned and rise,  following them up  Still I always look up to the sky  Pray before the dawn  Cause they fly away  One minute they arrive  Next you know they're gone  Fly on Fly on, ride through  Maybe one day  I'll fly next to you  Fly on, ride through  Maybe one day  I can fly with you  Fly on

I miss sharing things with you Honestly and humblely..  I miss you

I think of you I haven't slept I think I do But, I don't forget My body moves Goes where I will But though I try my heart stays still It never moves Just won't be led And so my mouth waters, to be fed And you're always in my head You're always in my head This, I guess, is to tell you you're chosen out from the rest...

There was that one moment when I was still with my ex and my best friend Tutie was single. It was weird cuz she usually with someone and I was the one who usually single. So, one day she said - i think u will get married before me. I was like nooooo! Cuz I always thought she would be the one to get hitched before me. And she did! Last 3 years she met this nice gentleman and last Saturday precisely 23 May 2015 my bestfriend got married!  👰 Oh how i miss the Gombak days and the earlier blogging days 👯👯👯 Feeling emotional right now But happy! xoxo - Amylia

May is like a light green fields, spacious and breezy. With daisies and daffodils. With girls in their ribbons and summer dresses. Playing and running. Laughing with blushes on their cheeks. Thats how I always imagine the month of May. Ill tell you more about June.  The thing is, usually before I planned to write an entry for this blog, Id always get some other ideas. And turned out to be something else. Hmmp.. Familiar? It starts with these Two words.. What if? I had all this life rewind moment ever since 3 of my closest cousins are / had been hitched this year. Of cuz their stories are / was not really kisah cinta agung. The greatest love of all, it was just like its so happened its time for them to get wed. Something like that.. I kept thinking, that i'd be the very last in the line. Seriously.. Why? And who am i to ask why? An imperfect girl with too many flaws, i deserve this unhappy ending. At least. But I did have some thinking.. What if all this while they are all the wrong...