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B.Y.E

3 letters word

it has few meaning anyway. one can say bye and meant it as a temporary distant. well that would probably means -- see you again! that is quite normal of bye. hello - goodbye, hi - bye. bye = see ya.

i had my "Bye" today. clearly i was not cleared if my "bye" was the "bye" i meant before. but as per physical gesture, the conversation meant before, i guess thats mean a goodbye forever. para sempre.

somehow its quite a relief. which i know i dont have to wait. and which i know i make other decision and which i know all this while i am wrong. ive let my emotion go over my decision. over the logical and obviously a relationship that was never meant to be saved.

im now a southern girl. a girl who really tough to give a guy her heart. she afraid she would hurt again. but a southern girl may have guy like Brandon to have her heart. im just a plain southern girl. no body seems to have my heart (maybe not not if i really will have one in the future)

in a single phrase - yes im a single again.
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