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when we stop talking.

So, turned out Seventeenth day didnt give me good news, guess i may just give up. Its really hard when I am alone who tried to build up a relationship, while the other party just .. I dont know. I dont even know what he's thinking.

To get myself more emo-er, I decided to see his ol' marriage photos again. I just wanted to know what I felt.  And it was okay at first, the flowers, the cupcakes, the stuff.. ok. When it came to his face, I stunned.  Bagus kan, padan muka I, then my laptop shutted down itself. Maybe it didnt want me to cry, so I was like, hmm okay.

Few minutes later, I saw YM icon on my blackberry. It was dear old Cali Boy. He is now in Mesia. =) He's too excited to tell he that he's in town. We chatted for a moment, cuz we havent chatted for ages, I asked him to call me cuz its like AGES since we last spoke to each other. ( actually I just wanted to listen to his malay slang which is so funny keke :P ) and he did make me laugh.. pengecau.. apa pengecau, pengacau lah!

Its pelik jugak today cuz, this guy ( I dated him few times ) suddenly texted me this afternoon. It was Zed -- the kelantan guy... ( scary ) He was in Perhentian and when I asked how come suddenly texting me. He said, cuz the beach reminds him of me. totally beach babe ok! ( not that we had beach vacation together )

so, yeah, cant wait for the beach trip next June in Bali. It wont be the beach vacation like in Krabi last year, Bali is more on sightseeing and jalan jalan n shop! OMG I already know what to buy and what to do. 1st day will be in Uluwatu, 2nd day to see the wild dolphins ( not the one in cage ok! ) and Tanah Lot for sunset, 3rd day would be in Celuk, Ubud and Kintamani, and Jimbaran for dinner. 4th day wud be suntanning and swimming in Kuta Beach. Afternoon to shop in Kuta Square - and maybe Dreamland beach the evening. Then later nite, feel like to walk down the Legian Street. Nice! The 5th day will be flying home. Hope to have extra time at the beach before back.

I just cant wait!!!! At first, I have arranged to have this vacation on my birthday in May, but yeah, too many things.. and I feel like to stay in KL and celebrate it with him, but since everything is not promising, guess, what would I do on my birthday this year.. hmm

Anyway, not goin to shop for new dress for this vacation. I only want to buy this fedora hat from Roxy.. but I dont know to buy here or in Bali. hurm... for footwear, I already bought iPanema wedge thongs. Sweet!
whatever it is, I need to be in Size 12. Wish me luck and I hope I wont be emo emo again la. Emo makes me eat a lot. !!!

While he will have his time to think, I will have my body to adjust.
Roxy hat

Roxy hat (see more roxy hats)




xoxo, 
Amyx




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