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and they say that a hero can save us..

there is a period in girl's monthly cycle that she can be super emotional, super sensitive and super hot.
its really tough to juggle with all those. its depressing.
and she will very very much likely to think
am i disgustingly fat?
is he hates me now?
is he goin to leave me?
omg ill die alone
i am so fat
bla bla bla

it even crappy that she will have no mood for lyke everything. yea.

and yup, thats my day. it started with gloomy morning. i was walking in drizzle of rain. i did my coding heartlessly. i talked with people who fancied me but i dont fancy them. and its karma, i tried to make a conversation with my man cuz believe me, we aint talking that much anymore. and he didnt reply. up to now.

sometimes i think, he has other girl.

my emo talking.

hmm.. sigh.
So I finished my work like 6pm. Couldnt take it anymore.

get home. talked to people who fancy me. its like watering a dying beautiful flower plant.
what am i talking now?

the thing is, its such a crap day. and the sister still living on her own in her super tiny room and my dad is fever, i talked to him on the phone which I seldom did and now i feel like crying cuz I miss my family so much and my man. its really a crappy day and ill end my day with this song cuz its a really crappy song and it makes me cry.





xoxo,
Amylia

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