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One Less Bell to Answer

you know during the time, life really struck you and you felt like 'why is this happening to me'.. like over and over again..
till you feel like you are now understand why people commit suicide, its just that there was the time you feel like enough is enough. its really painful, death could just stop it.

i have a friend, years back.. she was in deep shit and everyday she talked about committing suicide. as i tried to digest on why would she think like that, i knew I would never understand cuz i wasnt in her shoes.


sadly now i understand why.



xoxo - amy


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