Musical Life of Hushgirl

I am OK - I am OK! he's not worth any sadness any cloud in my heart. i must love myself more than anything now. I MUST! Hushgirl currently listening to : -

devastated :( God, help. :( Hushgirl currently listening to : -

I really miss Nabil. :( the last time we talked was few days after I showed him my ex's wedding pics.. :( I dunno what happened then. Is he sulking? No reason for that.. maybe.. I hope he's ok and happy. Hmm Hushgirl currently listening to : All The Right Moves One Republic

I am so goin to lose my gfs! 1st it was Qiqi who is already having a new man in her life. A boy, actually. She is holding a Kenduri Aqiqah for the boy. I wanted to go but I dun know if I could drive to Seremban. Isk. And I asked Bonda to accompany me, but I dun see herself comfortable with the idea. Maybe despite of her wanting to see me being single and available all my life for her only.. she does want me to settle down ( like all of my friends.) Also, the driver.. Nana is hospitalized. So kesian her. I asked her to drive me to Seremban for the Kenduri. It wasnt confirmed but she had to go to the hospital so it was ok. Moreover, I dun really feel like goin cuz the other bff, Farah excitedly invite me to her house. I know I know I shouldnt feel this way But its proven in Sex & The City. When the girl still single and the other girl is settled down ( with kids ) they do not sync! No matter how great the bond is. ( Everytime I look at Mimi's baby Maryam, it hurts my soul. She is...

My bff's birthday today. To me, being 30 with a lovely daughter and the love of her life (the one and only) is simply .. perfect? No need a Tiffany & Co bracelet, no need dinner at posh restaurant. A quite dinner at home with loved ones is just as perfect. why dont i get those things? whats wrong with me? I wonder how I would feel on my up coming 30th birthday. Hmm Gosh this is depressing! Hushgirl currently listening to : -

i'm practicing. Comparisons are easily done Once you've had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from a tree I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed You said move on Where do I go? I guess second best Is all I will know 'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you, thinking of you What you would do if you were the one Who was spending the night? Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes You're like an Indian summer In the middle of winter Like a hard candy With a surprise center How do I get better? Once I've had the best You said there's tons of fish In the water, so the waters I will test He kissed my lips I taste your mouth, oh He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself 'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you, thinking of you What you would do if you were the one Who was spending the night? Oh, I wish that I was looking into You're the best, and yes I do regret How I could let myself let you go Now, now the lesson's...

I met a Banker this morning (suddenly had a full interest in using the word Banker). He was very tall and very slim. With PINK (milky cotton candy pink) sharp shirt with necktie and sharp slim pants. Also, not forgotten the black thick frame glasses. He looked like some dude from some UK indie band goes commercial. Bank is commercial. HSBC especially. He was holding the Starbucks Espresso Tumbler and yes I found him quite amusing. No, I lied. Its not amusing, I just need distraction . However, in few minutes later, I had my distraction. My AM chased the attendance clock before me just to have its card touched the clock earlier than mine. WTF?! OK this one is amusing. keep on reading. I have this Carrie Bradshaw's vibe. I will write more. (and it doesnt stressed me out cuz I am not getting paid. Shouldn't all blogger?) Hushgirl currently listening to : Distraction Zero 7 Simple Things