Musical Life of Hushgirl

how scary when i read my daily horoscope today.. Your emotional side is getting a workout today, so see if you can get some alone time to help you process it all. Things are getting better, but you need to work through this weirdness first. i kinda like it. :) so far my Friday is looking better.. talked to my mom this morning, had the idea  how to settle some error n stuff.. hope it will be better and better .. plan for Pavilion afterwards to get goodies for my mom and yes, definitely.. yours truly. Life is short . Hushgirl currently listening to : Catch The Sun by Doves ( my emo-go-away song )

i know i supposed to continue my physical entry in Bahasa when i dun feel like having any interest to do it. A continuation is good, but nah i think ill pass. as i repeatedly said, i dun really prefer to blog on something physical. well, yea i did cuz i dun have any idea yet i love to write. thus the physical entry. but it was fun though, to share the stuff and the events and the photos.. hmm but not as 'fun' as blogging emotionally. i think its just me. no matter how many people i might lose from the emo thingy i had. i know those who are still close to my heart are the best of all. people who stand my yes - no decision, my hot and cold mood, my up and down.  i know sometimes i was feeling down and all, all i want is to be alone. u let me be alone. sometimes i feel like when i tend to be alone, i might lose a friend for good. i took that risk. being together may never work out anyway. i dunno. its unfair to my feelings, its unfair to their loyalty and dream and whatever ...

Hari ini saya nak berblog dlm Bahasa! Ini semua gara-gara Paku dan Belacan lah! Awak tatau saper Paku dan Belacan? Rugi bah.. diorang ni giler femes!! haha cuba cuba google. Okie, since konon2 nak berBahasa, so takleh emo emo lah. Kita blog pasal2 fizikal jer lah. so start with Friday!  Jumaat yang Best : 26 Nov 2010. Pagi tu mmg dah headache n badan mcm panas semacam. Tambah2 pulak emo diskusi dgn someone so important. Emosi terganggu.. sedar2 dah lewat ke office, so pegi clinic dptkan MC. Rasa2 mmg nak rehat la.. smlm dah gaduh2 dgn seniorku. tension... susah nak keje kalau satu team dgn orang mcm ni.. bila mintak opinion kita and kita bagitau yg kita tak berapa nk setuju, boleh pulak kita kena balun. apa kes??? pastu bila buat memandai, terus dia campak kerja kat kita. 'Okie, amylia.. can you handle it?'  wtf lah! Pegi clinic kat Sentul Boulevard, seperti biasa. Doctor pun dah kenal. Sibuk tanya keje stress ke.. malas nk ckp byk.. kang dpt ref letter kena jumpa Shri...

i'd be scott pilgrim. undoubtedly , i will always a nerd. Hushgirl currently listening to : the yeah yeah song.

... alolo td tomeyyy.... note : imagine if td was a real baby.. huhu Hushgirl currently watching ANTM cycle 15. Love it!

1st day of everything to come. Hushgirl currently listening to : i listened to Aerosmith Dream On just now.. it never sounds dat sad before.. edited : 1523 hrs its really hard to start when i feel like to blog from the heart. i know, sometimes what we utter from our mouth may not be the same with what we really feel, maybe cuz we dont know how to describe it or maybe cuz we try to keep some details for some might hurt with what we say. i admit sometimes i speak too much. and especially when i was emo, i tend to say outrageous things. somehow, its all came from my heart seriously. and  people might hurt, but i hurt before and i just wanna be heard. a little incident took place last nite, between 2 people thousand miles apart. physically apart. maybe i've changed. maybe i want more. maybe i dont have enough. maybe.. im just lost. somehow i made him hurt. and i slept. and then woke up. "im sorry baby i know im a jerk." somehow i wish i could be this selfish spoi...

Since this week, I felt like I dun have a crush on my office crush anymore.. so i was like relief. But today, they were few incidents that I could say he was flirting with me! Jeez man.. I dunno, cuz I never flirt in the office before and not with anyone non-bf. chupp chupp. its not me flirting with him. It was him flirting avec moi! Even my boss realized how he "do" me mampos lah. but seriouly, everytime he came to talk to my boss, he would tap his fingers on my seat. And everytime he made me laugh, it was him yang beria2 smile and laugh ( and they melted me!!! damn ) then if I were to ask him to do something for me ( i asked professionally ok ) he would say something "betul2 nak ke? yelah yelah nnt ***** buatkan ek. ok? ok? " ( cair again... adoi.. ) tu yang verbal la.. other stuff i just cant describe it. hmm apa lagi? i wish nabil's here.. ( that day he said he might be go on dating scene later... i felt like to faint! ) As for me, I dunno ...