because you Are [#][*]

i know i supposed to continue my physical entry in Bahasa when i dun feel like having any interest to do it. A continuation is good, but nah i think ill pass.

as i repeatedly said, i dun really prefer to blog on something physical. well, yea i did cuz i dun have any idea yet i love to write. thus the physical entry. but it was fun though, to share the stuff and the events and the photos.. hmm

but not as 'fun' as blogging emotionally. i think its just me. no matter how many people i might lose from the emo thingy i had. i know those who are still close to my heart are the best of all. people who stand my yes - no decision, my hot and cold mood, my up and down.  i know sometimes i was feeling down and all, all i want is to be alone. u let me be alone.

sometimes i feel like when i tend to be alone, i might lose a friend for good. i took that risk. being together may never work out anyway. i dunno. its unfair to my feelings, its unfair to their loyalty and dream and whatever they had intention on me.

i dunno what i really wanna say but ...

anyboday, everybody.. somebody out there..
you are so better off without me.

im a mess.





Hushgirl currently listening to : my NY love song. love is nice. im missing love.