Musical Life of Hushgirl

xoxo Amylia

today I heard something that I have been longing to hear thought it may not be true or sincere who am I to doubt but even if its true or even sincere it may not changing what I am now or will it? im just glad that, he tried. that shows sincerity. love, Amy

Should I start with "what a weekend?" But I found it negative so I am not gonna use that. So, let start over. I always, though I actually feeling like in denial, I realize that I avoid to be a grown up. I refused to drive here and there - I basically still relying on my parents to drive me around, I never work in a place for more than 5 years, basically I am a commitment freak kinda person I guess? No, I am not sure, I never been in a serious relationship before, getting things serious always scare the hell of me. Yea, I guess? Actually, I always thought that I would grow up after I settled down. Like most people I know. They were childish before, still am.. but of course marriages mature them. I think I would be like them, someday.  But I didnt realize that clock ticking, people grows older and my parents getting older, I think I need to grow up. By myself.  Last Saturday I drove back to my hometown for the voting responsibility, well, Done my part now. I...

*smile* I managed to to survive the First of May with no dramatic feeling. Or should I say, I didnt cry. This morning I were walking to the Market and I was thinking I need to blog. Not only cuz I have no ears listen to me now, ( yes my stories arent interesting ) but somehow, I feel like cuz today is First of May. If someone can officially move on on this date, why cant I? So I was thinking of why am I gonna blog then. And I have some pretty nasty idea. It wasnt myself, but maybe some part of me hiding. I know that I could say mean things, ( of cuz it will be meaner cuz people wont expect it from me, sweet little Amy ) that is why I always keep quiet and smile. and that is why orang pijak2 u, Amy. The Market made me happy, I didnt buy much but I got nasi lemak ( it wasnt really nice btw ) On the way back, I thought of the happy sweet little things I would blog later. But I didnt .. up until now. I had my nasi lemak with Abg Tony, was watching back the first Iron Man movi...

Close your eyes and ill kiss you, tomorrow ill miss you, remember that ill always be true... Ax

When it began and when it ends. So I completed my Gossip Girl marathon season 2 and 3 in a month. Not exactly a marathon you can say, it was series of marathon. There was this one episode in Season 3 when Chuck and Blair broke off their 1st serious relationship and B wanted to throw away all the Chuck memoirs ( i wonder if there were any jewels in the box) . She gave the box ( labelled "Old Life") out to Dorota, and as expected Dorota kept it. The moment B realized that in order to move on, she cant pretend that the bad memories never exist. She knew Chuck will also be a part of her life. Maybe, it was the past but what is future without the past. It made me thinking though, and given this very special date, 10-12-2012. When it all began, the relationship rekindled in 2010 and it broke in 2012. Yes, a coincidence you must say. But I love all this sign. I'm a seeker, I guess. So, I put up this blog again to live. This is me, this is my past. This will also be my...