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Amy is........

Amy is SICK!!!! I got a medium high fever, unfortunately got quite high last nite.. my head is feeling like to blow, my neck aches... urgh.. and when I coughed, i felt like my head is goin to explode.

and yes, nobody to drive me to clinic, nobody to massage my body cuz every part of it is really aching...nobody saying his concern about how sick id become or how he pray i wud be well soon. :( sad

but tomorrow is MATTA fair, hoo-ray!

i am so gonna check out the travel package cuz oh boy do i need to get away? Yes I do. and i do hope i would never return ( well.. still alive somewhere lah!) I never know redang and perhentian island package is always been cheap! i mean u can get a nice package as below RM500. how cool is that?

and being on a beach is all i want to.. ...damn!



y'know, yesterday when i was getting my MC and lounged at home, my cousin came online and told me the old bastard left her. old? well no la.. he is just the same age of nabil, geez... that old? but this old bastard is a married guy.

so she was like 'he cant leave me.. he cant...' and i was like 'what else u expect from him? i dont think he's goin to marry u? or u want to marry him?' and she was keeping quiet. i said 'he's married, Na. somebody he will leave u.. maybe not now.. but who knows...' and she was like,' he said he will never leave me!!' and i was like 'gosh, u believe him?... married couple pun can divorced.. what makes u think he wud never leave u? '

i know i was quite harsh. but somebody should knock her head with something. She was goin too far and she was the one who said 'Amy, if i had a relationship with a married guy, please please tell me not to do it..'

yess i didnt. i was like, u do what u like. cuz i never want to stop her, and i was not a good person myself. but when this old bastard already left her, why shud she cry? she shud be glad!!

like myself.. when i felt like hopeless with nabil and it is goin to be almost impossible for me to accept him back.. i feel glad. i feel so much gratitude cuz God
at last has open my blind eyes and see him in his true colors.

but yeah... i miss the feeling to be in love. yes i do..


hmm im waiting for my meds to force me to sleep/ cant sleep early than 12 mids nowadays.. hmmm well. i double up the meds dosage just now. just cant stand the bad cough... well i hope id be ok tomorrow..


Catch a falling star you'll go far
In the pageant of the bizarre
And tonight I give you my heart



Hushgirl currently listening to : The Pageant of the Bizarre | Zero 7| The Garden

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