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The Paranoid Android

When I was working for my 1st real job, I just healed from my broken heart and tried to adapt the working culture, yea I admitted I got a bit of stress ( which soon was a bit clinically serious ) So yeah, around 5:30 pm I will start to get on my headphone and still working but together with a blasting sound. De-stress session was on.

Being a normal kid, I relieved my tense with music. And yea, I got so many cool friends, they introduced me to this band, that band.. and Im kinda musically friendly. I can listen to every genre. No limit.

And I have tons of emo songs. I even have this song ( my friend sent me the mp3 : with Achtung message. He said dont listen to this more than 3 times ) Yeah, his message was so fuckingly true. Somebody could kill her/himself from that song. Serious emo.

And tonite, I was watching a bit of James Bond movie : not sure which one but Roger Moore was in it. And there was this part with a music score I familiar with. And I tried to hum to remember it. And I got it.

It was Paranoid Android by Radiofuckinghead.

Ok, I crossed the line. Radiohead is the most brilliant band ever!
So I logged in my youtube account and search for the video. Seriously, I never watched the video. and... It was depressing, and not so much different from what I was imagining.

I imagined to sit on a cliff by myself overlooking the wide ocean and the birds n all. Breathtaking view but you feel empty. That moment, I felt like I was giving up everything and was very ready to die. As I might think that dying was something that could make me feel in peace. So true.

But that was 5 years ago. Tonite when I listened to it even with the shits happened this week, terrible week yes it was, I could tell myself that it will be okay. It will be alright. Things will be fine.

God loves his children. God loves his children

( oh my, this is a little biblical -- but with my faith I take it was God is the most merciful and forgiveness )..





xoxo,
Amylia, The Emo Princess.


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