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So last Friday I went to pay the 1st payment for the Bali trip. Kakak agent was a very warm and friendly in person. I cant deny, she made me feel comfortable to talk with even though technically she was a stranger. After the transaction was complete, she still continued talking and I cant remember how the conversation be like this.
"Amy dah ada bf?"
I was just smiling - I still thought she was a stranger and I dont normally talk about my personal thing to a stranger ( but u blog amy! )  ~ i dont have a reader :P
So I guess, from my smile and my blush, she took it as I have one. Then, she asked again.
"Tunggu apa lagi?"
"Tunggu apa?" yes, apparently I was being very naive.
She went on and on about marriage boyfriend and all. Even startled me with, "kau ni jaga - jaga lah. Kang laki orang pulak." seriously.

I didnt really tell her the whole thing, I was just nodding and giggling and listening. She said she was married to a guy she didnt love. She was broken-hearted. Had this guy, really into her, she admitted she only began to love him after the 2nd child was born.

I guess, I can just listen to this kind of story. Not all have the same fate, not all girls lucky enough to have someone that really into them. Some of the girls, might fight to be with someone they love. Me, for example. Maybe not as extreme as some of the story I heard, but yea, kinda.

I felt a bit fortunate to have that kind of conversation with kakak Agent, I was really down in the dumps last Friday. I didnt have my girlfriends around, Zai was in Jakarta, Tutie was on the way to Singapore with Raish, Nadiah was being very emo, even with me, Nana was busy with budget presentation, my sister doesnt talk to me anymore, not that if we talk, I share stuff with her anyway, Iqin was quite busy with her baby thingy, and Mimi had her daughter admitted in the hospital for viral fever. My period was late and it messed up my hormone. Hence the stress and emo, nearly killed me.

So I took that the conversation I had with kakak agent was something I was longing for. A sister kinda talking, you know. Even though I barely know her, but she was like, she could read my mind and pour me for all the advice I needed. One of the things she said, that I would never ever forget it, she said, marry someone that you can talk to. Not someone who you just listen to. Cuz guys never change, even after marriage.

I dont know why that keep looping in my ears, though. Maybe cuz it is true.



para para paradise, para para paradise..

love,
Amylia


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