Years ago when I was still working in my old place, I had this little crush on my colleague. My business user to be precise. But of cause nothing happened, though we were pretty close when he broke up with his gf.
Been there... Done that.... Bought the t-shirt.
Well the part when I were that little closed to him, I learn that he is this typical Malay guy whom I seriously couldnt cope with. And the part when I am seriously not his taste :p so before things getting more serious I know it was the best thing to do to step down and be colleagues who befriends with each other.
Yeah, at least things aren't awkward and Alhamdulillah, we are still friends till today.
However since I start my tenure in my current place, we didn't talk much since I can't use so much of my email for outgoing address and of course I know he is now with that girl. So I won't be bugging him at nite on whatsapp. A week before I flew to Indo, I had lunch with Izan and she told me that My beloved mr Tikus is now engaged and will be married next month.. I was okay.
I was like oh he didn't tell me yet!
So today when I woke up and watched my naked reflection I saw an eye lash on right cheek. Folks had been saying that was the sign someone misses us. Kinda. I was like who is missing me? Definitely had no idea.
And this morning around 10 am I saw an email from him. With the typical question, when will I rejoin the company.. Hishhhh!!!!!
So we talked for the whole day and around 4 or 5 pm he finally told me that he is getting married.. With a sidekick question - Amy dah tau kan? ;) oh my..
Honestly I think.. I think I have that heartache .. Maybe a slight hurt but damn he is happy now right. Married at the age of 37 makes me think he is finally found the one. Why I am sad.. I should be happy, cuz he is happy.
Well yeah.. Love to see people happy and loving each other, it makes me feel positive though I never sure what's the ending for me.. I guess, happy or not, I'd be ok.
Unless if it's from Nabil. Are you okay, Amy? No Nabil, I'm not OK.
Selfie in Soerabaia
Love,
Amy xx