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Heyya we meet again.

Come to think of this, i think i cant live without my blog. Having to be emotional over something which obviously wont response is really my thing. This is why i love Brandon Boyd. 
Im thinking other social media are really against me since im in my emo, very emotional state. Could it be the birth planning pill that i currently taking it. Yes, maybe. No, maybe not. See how true am i here? Do you think i would update my status on fb about the pill im taking now, or to post a pic of the pills on my instagram? 

Call me a hypocrite but i am not. Not really a mysterious kinda person, i just love keeping the sensitivy of my audience. And by that i mean, i know blogging is ok cuz i dont have any audience.

Am i right? Or am i wrong?

Im so sick and tired with other social media. Maybe not the media, but the social. At this point of time, my friend just updated her status with - have a great weekend, with your loved ones. 

Im like, what if we dont have loved ones cuz nobody love us, can we have a great weekend?

Urm. 

I just came back from the office. I wish my office is like google campus, id never leave my office. 
Yup, cuz home is hell. Not only it is not my home anymore.. I realized the house is really panas lately. Its like being curse or what. 

But my sister doesnt need a black magic curse to make him as wicked as wicked witch, shes already a very bad person i know of. 

Though we basically grown from the same blood. At this point of time, i really dont care about her anymore. Not that i despise and hate her, but seriously she never stop making me hating myself and i really depressed for that. 

Apart of thinking that i need a shrink, i unfriend her from my fb. 
And im thinking to slow down with the facebook thing. Im like, damn this fb is really for the happy people.. Or for sad people who like to share their emotional state with others.
Im not,i am a happy person. But now im not.. 

What happy means is having a good date, having a children, having a good marriage or bad marriage but with mr hubby for all they care of, urgh.. 

What else.. I dunno, but seriously i need to learn to live without fb. 
Last night im thinking to deactivate it, but haha that would be a terrible joke id make. So i did, deletehe app on my ipad. Haha and this morning i restored the app again. Change the cover picture so i wont see my super sweet smile which i think was a real fake at the point of time. 

Why do u smile so much amy?
Why dont you frown in front of the came? Like most of the times. 

I love instagram though.. For all the photos i follow. Maybe i need to unfollow certain people. 

U know those people who are in love and nothing bad comes from the beau,non.. Nothing at all. All the sweet stuff, he berak pun wangi. 
And when the break up would come, all i would hear is all the bad stuff that come from him. 
Amy he is so stingy!
Amy he made me walk in my heels!
Amy this amy that.
Urgh. 


Why dont i have cool people around me? 
O yea, cuz im so emo. 
LoL



I believe its the pills.

xx - Amy

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