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The End of Ramadhan

I might say this is the most memorable Ramadhan i ever had. Last Ramadhan was a real breakdown for me, but this year.. hmmm i could say i was and still happy.

The bad thing was that i skipped gym for the whole 1 month which is, duh.. i wasted the whole money on the monthly fee where i could be buying a nice kebaya top from East India Co.

Well, last year Ramadhan, someone been totally changed into new leaf and tried to dump me. He then tried to have me back after Raya, which i totally neglected it. 2 major of why. Maybe cuz i thought that, that was the perfect time to try to live without him and because i was with Z. Z was a close friend.. but when Z began to commit his life with his job that required him to travel and all.. i had my breakdown again and began to miss that someone. And i had him back.

And all that we had been through, i know that i have my heart for him. Him and only him, though i know that we may be not together in the future and he didnt seem to put any effort on it, i'd stay with him. Well, i did see some guys but none of the the new faces and none of them i brought home with.

I could say i totally loyal to him. Yes, without any request. I chose it myself.

This Ramadhan brought us closer than ever. Having to have him not ignoring me at all and having to choose the paint colors for my crib with him, having to refrain ourselves from doing anything that could breaking our fast. Gosh i want him like this for me forever, isnt that too much to ask?

He was the one who knows me inside out. I am so comfortable with him. I feel like i dun have to be a pretender however .. too much info is no good right... Just now i had a small argument based on that. I might lose him :( and I am still upset. I am.
But still, this is the nicest Ramadhan ever. Thank God


Aku Mau Makan Kuingat Kamu
Aku Mau Tidur Juga Kuingat Kamu
Aku Mau Pergi Kuingat Kamu
Ooo Cinta Mengapa Semua Serba Kamu

Aku Sedang Bingung Kuingat Kamu
Aku Sedang Sedih Juga Kuingat Kamu
Aku Sedang Bosan Kuingat Kamu
Ooo Cinta Inikah Bila Ku Jatuh
Jatuh Cinta...




Blogged by Amylia @ 29/09/08 : 2349 hrs

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