Yesterday approximately at this time, Ma said something sarcastic to Babah. Babah was filling some form pertaining the housing stuff. I seriously hate sarcasm. I tried a lot not to say something sarcastic. My nature is if I get upset, I keep quiet. When I am ok, I will blurt it out. I dont believe in sarcasm. It only makes thing worst.
But I aint perfect, sometimes I went off sarcastic, through words and gesture.. not long after that I will feel bad. And its not healthy.
Back to my married for 33 years parents, I know Mom is upset with something and Babah kept quiet or more accurate is, he ignored my mom sarcasm words. Maybe he knew that he deserved it. Babah sure knows he is not perfect. Of course, I was upset with Ma. Maybe also, she worked too hard and tensed so she was in her imbalanced emotion. I dunno.. When Babah completed with his stuff, he went off to watch tv. I was in front of my laptop and so was Ma. Ma said something that she upset about. I got more upset and said 'Ma, if Ma dah tak tahan.. u decide, we're okay with anything.'
Yes, the capital D thing. Seriously, it is heart breaking if my parents split up but, just to make both heart happy. Though I dun think that is what Babah wants. I know he loves her so much.
After few minutes, Ma went of to shower or something.. and they both got a little afternoon nap. They looked okay.
Maybe I was the one who upset with the global issue, until I found all the petty sarcasm thing as the divorced factor. Chill out, Amy! But then, I never married, how could I understand all this Marriage thing. Is Marriage usually attached with petty argument and sarcastic words?
Just this morning, I went to the wet market with Ma and when we reached home, she was driving.. She was telling me about one of my aunt's marriage. I didnt pay much attention, until she started talking about Babah and her. The thing that upset her was she found my dad's facebook. And the profile picture was his picture with the 2nd one. Knowing my dad, I know he didnt create his own fb.. It surely created by the 2nd. Hish tak malu betul kan?
I mean, 2nd wife should be off public. Not to show off.. gila la.
Ma kept saying that she knew about this a month ago and tried so hard not to share with her kids. I mean, geez.. she saw all their pictures and stuff. So, I confessed to her that, Babah other son requested me to add him on the facebook. I was beginning to cry when I said this to her. Knowing me! My mom looked shocked. She was so upset why the 2nd one so kecoh about our family. Pig skin betul!
I told my mom thats the reason why I removed my dad's name on my fb name and went off private. Everything is private, even google search wont give out my facebook link. I believe that 2nd one went on exploring my facebook earlier. Damn..
I blocked the son's fb account and all. Block block block. I hope they are not smart enough to find my blog.. But then if they do.. Gosh I hate u guys so much. Maybe not the childrent cuz they are innocent.. but me and my family dont want any attachment to you guys, we are not family. We are not related. Even in Muslim relation, cuz You ( bitch ) had make my mom upset for 14 years.
I remembered when Ma told me that Babah had a new daughter with that 2nd, I told Ma this.
So now, I dunno la. I hope they will still be married para sempre. No children want the parents to split up. I know. But whatever the best for them.
So moving on to the more happier version. At this current of time, I dun see me getting married anywhere in the future. I dunnoo.. since Babah married the 2nd one, half of my heart doesnt respond to marriage thingy. No dreams No intention.. Not even planning.
There was one time of my life that I knew, It was the right time, the right person and I saw myself beside him as a wife. But, as you know.. it was shattered.
( though I know given time, all the pieces may be put together.. but still....)
anyway, happier please.. I already have an Emo blog.. emo entries would all be there! Hahaah so yeah, I have this weird thing that I want wedding not marriage haha :D Marriage is simply to live with a guy! I mean, wtf.. living with a guy ? hehe to see his face everyday when we opened our eyes.. :D geez..
But of course the best time would be rolling on the bed on the Sunday morning and watch cartoon ( or national geographic? )
My wedding dream would differ years to years. This year I have thinking about it.. and to go all white. A white wedding.. I saw a lot of couples dared to wear red, and I am so very sorry for the groom. Esp if the groom is plain dark :D huahahaha gila kesian.. mcm kena dera, tu baru kawen tu!
So white -. The guy could wear either tux or baju melayu. If tux, he should be in black. Not white tux, No No!. Wait.. if I were to wear white, I have to be super skinny? :D Sheesh...
I have a dream to wear a wedding dress. Like Gwen wore in Simple Kinda Life video clip. White with pink ruflles beneath it. I want! Also, I want the dress Agnes Monica wore in Cinta Mati video clip. The best ever!
Anyway, I dun think i would wear something that sexy! How unlucky... I hope to get a very open minded MIL. :D Buatnyer ustazah.. melepas la.. :D
Wait... lets google if there is any images of Mia Tyler in any white wedding dress :D Somebody recently said that Mia Tyler made him thinking of me :D Flattered ok!
No. not found!!
:) but I saw some gorgeous dresses anyway.. hihi mula lah berangan!!
Okie the dress is white.. this is for the walimatul-urus. I want a nite walimatul urus.. Y'know a very intimate night event.. And I dont want a typical Malay dais, I think it would be just nice with a bench and a lot of white and stargazer lilies. ahh.. they shouldnt be any BLUE color for my wedding. No NO! blue, aqua blue or whatever is no NO. blue is my wedding taboo color :D
ahh the only blue thing for my wedding would be my Tiffany & Co little box :D
what else.. owh yea the hantaran thingy would be in pink and olive green :D just saw the .. erm I dun remember.. I saw something in olive green and pink and I love it. I cant remember what it is.. Sheesh..
jap jap I wanna refresh my mind..
olive green... pink... salesgirl... what ar???
owh!!! new arrival stuff at Diva. The color themes was green and pink.. Love it! Also, there was this one day.. I wore my pink tee and little sis wore green shirt as always and there was this girl said our color combination is nice. Now thats a SIGN!
I dont like those typical Malay wedding make-up. Some are so terrible, the artist punya lah nak buat the bride looks cantik sampai the bride doesnt look like herself. So kesian.. I was like, how come the orang putih wear very little make up on their big day and still looks nice? That needs a research.. !!
and of course.. please la invest in more au naturel fake lashes.. Thats a reminder for myself ok :D
hmm apa lagi.. my hand bouquet would be calla lilies.. or champagne roses... or fire and ice roses! :D
owh yea, the groom can wear his Adidas sneakers for all I care.. but it should be first time wearing ok! :)
what else.. owh I want a gazebo on my wedding.. since there is no dais, the place for sit and photograph session would be at the patio... near the waterscapes thingy and I still want a gazebo! :D
also I want a round lantern all around the garden and guests will enjoy the food at the garden, under the lovely lantern.. and .. yea big NO to flower balls. I loved flower balls but not anymore.
what else.. hmm hmmm.. mmmm
owh yea, I dun want that makan beradap thing. I want a round table where my friends will sit with their partners and we will have dinner together. I dont see this could be a problem cuz all my friends are married ( at least by the time I would get married :P )
what else what else.. ah I want a dulang of hantaran full with Benefit stuff!
owh yea, I want my groom to sing me a song :) my so called love amulet song. The song is secretly safe with me :D and yes, it isnt George Michael song.
apa lagi yang best?
erm.. I think the program would be, akad nikah of Friday nite, at home cuz it is more meaningful. White simple kurung. Marbahan and Khatam Quran on Saturday morning. Soft peach lace and songket. And the nite would be the big event :) Yey!
Sunday morning, honeymoon! Rolling on the bed with my other half - my dunia & akhirat partner watching Spongebob on TV ( and having my mom nagged at me for being a very irresponsible wife who "accidently" slept in ) hahaha... OMG this is so goin to happen.
And it is simple yet perfect.
So, how 2012 sounds like? :D
Hushgirl currently listening to :
Sunrise (DJ Thunda & The K-20 Allstars Remix)
Afterlife
Cafe Del Mar vol 8
( yes this is the honeymoon song, perfecto! )
But I aint perfect, sometimes I went off sarcastic, through words and gesture.. not long after that I will feel bad. And its not healthy.
Back to my married for 33 years parents, I know Mom is upset with something and Babah kept quiet or more accurate is, he ignored my mom sarcasm words. Maybe he knew that he deserved it. Babah sure knows he is not perfect. Of course, I was upset with Ma. Maybe also, she worked too hard and tensed so she was in her imbalanced emotion. I dunno.. When Babah completed with his stuff, he went off to watch tv. I was in front of my laptop and so was Ma. Ma said something that she upset about. I got more upset and said 'Ma, if Ma dah tak tahan.. u decide, we're okay with anything.'
Yes, the capital D thing. Seriously, it is heart breaking if my parents split up but, just to make both heart happy. Though I dun think that is what Babah wants. I know he loves her so much.
After few minutes, Ma went of to shower or something.. and they both got a little afternoon nap. They looked okay.
Maybe I was the one who upset with the global issue, until I found all the petty sarcasm thing as the divorced factor. Chill out, Amy! But then, I never married, how could I understand all this Marriage thing. Is Marriage usually attached with petty argument and sarcastic words?
Just this morning, I went to the wet market with Ma and when we reached home, she was driving.. She was telling me about one of my aunt's marriage. I didnt pay much attention, until she started talking about Babah and her. The thing that upset her was she found my dad's facebook. And the profile picture was his picture with the 2nd one. Knowing my dad, I know he didnt create his own fb.. It surely created by the 2nd. Hish tak malu betul kan?
I mean, 2nd wife should be off public. Not to show off.. gila la.
Ma kept saying that she knew about this a month ago and tried so hard not to share with her kids. I mean, geez.. she saw all their pictures and stuff. So, I confessed to her that, Babah other son requested me to add him on the facebook. I was beginning to cry when I said this to her. Knowing me! My mom looked shocked. She was so upset why the 2nd one so kecoh about our family. Pig skin betul!
I told my mom thats the reason why I removed my dad's name on my fb name and went off private. Everything is private, even google search wont give out my facebook link. I believe that 2nd one went on exploring my facebook earlier. Damn..
I blocked the son's fb account and all. Block block block. I hope they are not smart enough to find my blog.. But then if they do.. Gosh I hate u guys so much. Maybe not the childrent cuz they are innocent.. but me and my family dont want any attachment to you guys, we are not family. We are not related. Even in Muslim relation, cuz You ( bitch ) had make my mom upset for 14 years.
I remembered when Ma told me that Babah had a new daughter with that 2nd, I told Ma this.
I dont understand how you feel when you had to share your husband, but now I know what it's like to share a father.
So now, I dunno la. I hope they will still be married para sempre. No children want the parents to split up. I know. But whatever the best for them.
So moving on to the more happier version. At this current of time, I dun see me getting married anywhere in the future. I dunnoo.. since Babah married the 2nd one, half of my heart doesnt respond to marriage thingy. No dreams No intention.. Not even planning.
There was one time of my life that I knew, It was the right time, the right person and I saw myself beside him as a wife. But, as you know.. it was shattered.
( though I know given time, all the pieces may be put together.. but still....)
anyway, happier please.. I already have an Emo blog.. emo entries would all be there! Hahaah so yeah, I have this weird thing that I want wedding not marriage haha :D Marriage is simply to live with a guy! I mean, wtf.. living with a guy ? hehe to see his face everyday when we opened our eyes.. :D geez..
But of course the best time would be rolling on the bed on the Sunday morning and watch cartoon ( or national geographic? )
My wedding dream would differ years to years. This year I have thinking about it.. and to go all white. A white wedding.. I saw a lot of couples dared to wear red, and I am so very sorry for the groom. Esp if the groom is plain dark :D huahahaha gila kesian.. mcm kena dera, tu baru kawen tu!
So white -. The guy could wear either tux or baju melayu. If tux, he should be in black. Not white tux, No No!. Wait.. if I were to wear white, I have to be super skinny? :D Sheesh...
I have a dream to wear a wedding dress. Like Gwen wore in Simple Kinda Life video clip. White with pink ruflles beneath it. I want! Also, I want the dress Agnes Monica wore in Cinta Mati video clip. The best ever!
Anyway, I dun think i would wear something that sexy! How unlucky... I hope to get a very open minded MIL. :D Buatnyer ustazah.. melepas la.. :D
Wait... lets google if there is any images of Mia Tyler in any white wedding dress :D Somebody recently said that Mia Tyler made him thinking of me :D Flattered ok!
No. not found!!
:) but I saw some gorgeous dresses anyway.. hihi mula lah berangan!!
Okie the dress is white.. this is for the walimatul-urus. I want a nite walimatul urus.. Y'know a very intimate night event.. And I dont want a typical Malay dais, I think it would be just nice with a bench and a lot of white and stargazer lilies. ahh.. they shouldnt be any BLUE color for my wedding. No NO! blue, aqua blue or whatever is no NO. blue is my wedding taboo color :D
ahh the only blue thing for my wedding would be my Tiffany & Co little box :D
what else.. owh yea the hantaran thingy would be in pink and olive green :D just saw the .. erm I dun remember.. I saw something in olive green and pink and I love it. I cant remember what it is.. Sheesh..
jap jap I wanna refresh my mind..
olive green... pink... salesgirl... what ar???
owh!!! new arrival stuff at Diva. The color themes was green and pink.. Love it! Also, there was this one day.. I wore my pink tee and little sis wore green shirt as always and there was this girl said our color combination is nice. Now thats a SIGN!
I dont like those typical Malay wedding make-up. Some are so terrible, the artist punya lah nak buat the bride looks cantik sampai the bride doesnt look like herself. So kesian.. I was like, how come the orang putih wear very little make up on their big day and still looks nice? That needs a research.. !!
and of course.. please la invest in more au naturel fake lashes.. Thats a reminder for myself ok :D
hmm apa lagi.. my hand bouquet would be calla lilies.. or champagne roses... or fire and ice roses! :D
owh yea, the groom can wear his Adidas sneakers for all I care.. but it should be first time wearing ok! :)
what else.. owh I want a gazebo on my wedding.. since there is no dais, the place for sit and photograph session would be at the patio... near the waterscapes thingy and I still want a gazebo! :D
also I want a round lantern all around the garden and guests will enjoy the food at the garden, under the lovely lantern.. and .. yea big NO to flower balls. I loved flower balls but not anymore.
what else.. hmm hmmm.. mmmm
owh yea, I dun want that makan beradap thing. I want a round table where my friends will sit with their partners and we will have dinner together. I dont see this could be a problem cuz all my friends are married ( at least by the time I would get married :P )
what else what else.. ah I want a dulang of hantaran full with Benefit stuff!
owh yea, I want my groom to sing me a song :) my so called love amulet song. The song is secretly safe with me :D and yes, it isnt George Michael song.
apa lagi yang best?
erm.. I think the program would be, akad nikah of Friday nite, at home cuz it is more meaningful. White simple kurung. Marbahan and Khatam Quran on Saturday morning. Soft peach lace and songket. And the nite would be the big event :) Yey!
Sunday morning, honeymoon! Rolling on the bed with my other half - my dunia & akhirat partner watching Spongebob on TV ( and having my mom nagged at me for being a very irresponsible wife who "accidently" slept in ) hahaha... OMG this is so goin to happen.
And it is simple yet perfect.
So, how 2012 sounds like? :D
Hushgirl currently listening to :
Sunrise (DJ Thunda & The K-20 Allstars Remix)
Afterlife
Cafe Del Mar vol 8
( yes this is the honeymoon song, perfecto! )