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Could you be loved..

Hmm

Back to reality. Actually I just dont get it why people always said back to reality, especially when they finish the vacation and back to to home. So does it means, the vacation they had isnt a reality?

It is real yes, not reality. Maybe, it is not something we live on everyday. Really?

Maybe, we can think of a very very sweet memories we had. 

Whatever it is, back to reality does sounds bitter. 
Maybe cuz my reality is bitter. 

Ahh depressing, just back in the home for 1 day, I already feeling depressed. 

I miss the beach. I feel like I didnt spend much time by the beach. Seems like, I would never be satisfied. Its like, half of my heart left on the island.

I actually had a different idea just now when I decided to blog tonite, just after i watched the old Valentine' s movie.. The Lake House. My first time watching it, it was twisted but, I got it. 

Before I went to the island, I have someone in KL that made me smile, maybe sometimes he does making me "fly". Not so much but, yes. I dont think the attraction is there, I have hard time to go out with him. Until I decided hey why not start with friends? And yes, I think it will be always be in the friendzone. 

So I met someone on the Island. Definitely I have no idea of how and why, but damn it, I was hit. He is definitely my island crush. It was madness and omg Im glad that Im back in KL but deeply I was sad and wish I could be on the island. With him? 

No, not necessarily. But seriously, omg he is so funny. 

The thing is, you can be so close with someone for a long long time, but when it comes with what hits your heart, it can happened so fast. Like in miliseconds!

Seriously..


My birthday gift. When I showed this to him 2 days later, I saw regrets on his face. I dont know what it is. But I like the impression. He cares!

And I love when I feel now, I havent have this feeling ever since Nabil. The feeling of sad, and happy to meet each other.. The feeling to miss someone. 

I love this feeling and I cant wait to have this feeling again. 


and be loved..

 xoxo
Amylia. 



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