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The Art of Henry Binns

( this one inspired by Carrie Bradshaw )

I have a little bad habit.

I tend to get away from routine whenever I failed in a relationship. And when I say the routine, it was my job. My first job took place in PJ and after 3 years of servicing, I got to bump into my ex-soulmate everyday on the way to the office. I was waiting for my feeder bus and he was waiting for his shuttle bus. It was okay at first, I began to change my arrival schedule. But there was one evening, I was out of the office and there I saw him, was getting out of his shuttle in front of my office building.. looking and smiling at me, I knew I should get a new job.

And I got one.

It was in KL. Far away from him and his shuttle bus.

And when I was in KL, I had my Nabil to accompany me everytime I had to stay back and sometimes on to work on weekend. All the desk and chair smell of him. And when we didnt work out, I felt like to get a fresh start.. I couldnt wait to get new job. ( moreover the contract would be finished anyway.. though I was offered to get permanent but the old habit dies hard, I looked forward for a new beginning... )

And I had one new job n not a so called new beginning. I even got a "new" experience, to get things heated up with an old flame. Forever flame, I might say.. and obviously, it was not working out and its killing me u know, to see his office everytime I was on board to my office.. and to get out of my home every morning. I dunno.. It is just me.

Feel like to have a new beginning.

So, I got my resume on Jobstreet on the market again. I had 1 company requested for my resume and I got 3 applications for new jobs. One was unsuccessful, one was giving a nice sign. I applied this post one nite, and they called me the next day. I left the cell at home. They called again the next day, I left the phone in my office drawer while I was in training room. They called again today and I had to reschedule the phone interview to Monday since I was at lunch with my PM.

So let me say one word pertaining this job. CYBERJAYA.

yes, cyberjaya. The office is in cyberjaya, the interview will be held there and if I got the job, I will be working there.

So the old habit yea?

My ex-soulmate works in Cyberjaya ( I guess, well he was working there when he was my soulmate, Nabil was my very close buddy when I had my practical there and the last but not ever least, I fell in love with my ex when I was in Cyberjaya, Cyberjaya was the witness of my sleepless nite and my dizzy sleepyhead every morning cuz of his 4 am calls )

owh I remember when I met him for the first time, he was jumping in an elevator and I was like, OMG he is annoyingly cute and I love him!

(.. but that one was in Putrajaya!)

this is what the old folks said, the more we get away, the more we get close to it.


However I know that if I'd be in Cyberjaya.. not that I'd grow my career, I would grow up myself. Maybe it would be a new beginning?

And yea, why this one inspired by Carrie Bradshaw.. Well I watched one of the 7th Season episodes and there was this Zero 7 song... dat was the time Big broke her heart again and again. And I was like, yea I know she finally married Big, but I have no idea why he is the One? He hurts her a lot!

Maybe, that is the real love. Love hurts.


And to relate the song to my life, Zero 7 was the cd I played each time I had my 4 am calls. And its like de-javu.



Now, it does feel like de-javu. What is this?

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe
In what you se
e





Hushgirl currently listening to :
In the Waiting Line
Zero 7 ( Henry Binns )
Simple Things



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