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last nite I dreamt of Andika

 :)

So much to make me smiling this morning. I fell asleep like usual; with that thing massaging my tummy, with laptop still On, with the lights still on and with my bare feet, and it was chilly. When I opened my eyes I saw Nabil's msg blinking. It was 1:19 am. I replied my Smiley emoticon. ( which I dont know why ) That time was 2:19 am. haha JB to KL took 1 hour, I didnt wait for reply, I fell asleep again. 15 mins later I saw his reply. Basically just called out my name. Haha so funny cuz That made me cannot go to sleep anymore. It was 3 am. I sent him lotsa messages and no.. not even single reply. He must be in his deep sleep then hahaha I wonder if he was in his state of mine when he type out my name :D or maybe he was dream-sms'ing. jeez that was funny.

So when I woke up at 3 am.. I know I should perform some prayers, but I didnt. It felt uneasy though. Felt like losing something, I dunno what drove me to send a message to my ex. I mean, I dont know why I do that and thank God he didnt reply. I dont actually know what to say next. But I just hope things are ok. I mean, hey if there is no jodoh, no jodoh la kan... I just hate to be in cold situation.. like in fighting moment.. I know the last time we talked it wasnt smooth.. I did say something inappropriate. I am so regret, you know. I am. And I am sorry.

Thats what happened when you used your emo instead of your brain. Y'see?!

Anyway, yes Andika was in my dream. Its the same bro Riz heheh :D Isnt he cute? ( I always thought I would end up marrying someone like him.. tall, lean, curl hair, medium hair length, square jaw, big round eyes, smart, know how to cook, very artsy and into photography ) huhuhu I remembered last time he accidentally invited me for an Iftar at his home. :D turned out he got the wrong Amylia, but I got invited anyway then ( out of courtesy okay! ) But I didnt go.. haha segan laaa So back in the dream, he's the same old him. In his Andika character, I was this spoiled modern girl got lost in the wood, and it was the day of the wild. Something about wishes do come true for some black force. So there was this guy looked like Saruman, tried to kill me to be  his sacrifice. Andika saved me and brought me home. It was that he was so tall, he had to bend half of his body to hug me. hehe It was so funny though.. cuz I was kinda know somebody was after me but I was like this playful dumb chick. :D

Mmmm so nice... Andika :D

whats for Iftar today? little sis kinda wanted to go to Pavilion. we havent go there for so long!
whatever it is, I surely will be having my nice Macchiato tonite. :D



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