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Together apart and Together again.

I was planning to write this yesterday when I arrived in my crib. So let just pretend it is still Sunday evening.

nah.. its Monday. Nothing beats Monday!

The reason of the delay wasnt caused by the tardiness or no mood blues but simple cuz I had ( still have ) this upper back pain. This could be due to "wake up on the wrong side of the bed" or maybe cuz my muscle were too tight at certain place, or could be my weakening bone. I dunno. I dun really feel like checking it out. Maybe could just wait for few days to monitor. Hope its okay by Tuesday..

So yeah, last Saturday was back to Bentong. The last minute plan, mom was planning to actually come to KL to buy some flowers n stuff in Sg Buluh but was last minute cancelled. So I decided to go home. I dunno. Maybe cuz dont really bear to be alone in weekends cuz I didnt feel like goin out and stuff. And of course cuz I need to see my Doc :D ( after for so long ) for the regular check ups. Hence driving home on Saturday morning. I usually dont really listen to radio while driving ( dats why I'm sucks with all this new songs on charts)  Before elevated down, I took few cds along and my pick of the day was Smashing Pumpkins Bsides and Rarities compilations. Man, its been years since I last played this cd. Seriously!!! I forgot whats in the list anyway... and yes one track to another, I knew I still have heart for this greatest band on earth.

I mean.. how many out there has Billy's voice?

li'l jinx photo!
When people said "Only good ones die young". I'd say "Only great bands die young".  Sad.

Anyway, i'm goin home for Raya tomorrow!!! How soon!! Only today and tomorrow to works. I dont really want to do major task these 2 days.. I have trial run for the New product launched on Raya eve! Damn... So hope things are ok this 2 days.. it should be fine by then. If not, " Uncle " sure garuk his kepala. Haha so sad! I realized that I never bitch about on my stupid business users and my stupid colleagues. :D Well, stupid colleagues are actually "Stupid Colleague!" only one of him. Only One. But enough to make us all suffer :D  nvm. When karma strikes, we will see ;) ( I think the karma is already starting anyway cuz his Big Guy is resigning.. owh no!!! )

And talking about my stupid user.. well.. no no. I dun have stupid users.. merely what we call as, stubborn user.. :D But that is not interesting.. the interesting part is my steamy eyed business user.. having the delicously lips I ever see :D My one and only Mr. H. Might not be as tall as my dream guy, but he is super fine. And the part when he always come to my place ( we worked together for the new payment source thingy ) I dunno man... sometimes I think he .. owh Gosh its Puasa!!!!

but seriously, whenever he came to my place.. he does this thing with his lips. I dunno what! I describe it to my friend, and he said that Mr H might want me! Nah... he got gf already aite? :D

me on my innocent side : Amylia doesnt date super good looking guys. 0 interest!

okie, maybe cuz they have 0 interest in me :D

but then seriously, eh eh.. Izzat was a super good looking guy :D How can I be forgotten about him! He was this guy who I cud not take my eyes off him. :D Damn! Why did I ever let him go, I dunno!!

I dunno really like this entry.. this is not Emo. this is not me. I am a drama Queen. its not just Zla realizing my drama Queen attitude this recent years, but Nana also said Im such a drama when I was like this super klutz wearing my prayer clothes and acted stupidly. Ann K also said agreed with my sister. She said nowadays I aint cool anymore.. Im a drama! Wtf.. but seriously, yea yea I am. The good old example was when I was in relationship and when it sailed smoothly, I tend to create drama. Being emo and stuff. Just to create a nice excuse to cry in the shower when actually, there's nothing happened. ( I think I clinically depressed )

I know if I stay this way, I might lose all my loved ones

But .... if its not Emo, its Not Amy!

=)

So, tomorrow goin back. Too much to do today.. packing stuff, kemas my kandang kambeng, goin for threading.. if got more money, can go for mani/pedi too.. hmmm mani is not worth it cuz I need to help mom for baking and cooking.. rugi2.. and also cuz I dun wear colors anymore .. ( sure? ) well try too.. but once a while still okay kan? :D hmm well maybe I'll have mani / pedi in Bentong.. and new haircut? Damn... hair is giving me quite a dilemma. Its nasty cuz its half curls and half straight. giler la! i want my curls back... I just bored with straight unAttractive rebonded hair.. and seriously I am not looking forward for this Raya.. and I dun feel like dressing up.

jeez, nearly 7 am now.. how time flies these days..

should I go checking out the flowers in PS today or tomorrow?

But if I did
And I meet you there
You'll hold my hand
Pretend you understand
That I'm just one woman
Still a girl perhaps
Simple silent humble human being


Hushgirl currently listening to : Sparrow by Smashing Pumpkins

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